Hi, this is my first time asking for a reading. If I could get a reading, please...

I would like to know: what my life in the future will be like (will I be happy, unhappy, what I should do if I will be unhappy). I would like to know if I am on the right track in general. What's holding me back?

Am I currently in love with the right person, what will our future be like (if we have one at all). If he's not the one, who will I be with?

I feel like a terrible person very often, I feel selfish and I would like to change that. I don't even know why I just mentioned that. I'm going through changes, will I have to go through some more?

Thank you in advance, I'm a very grateful. I hope the requests here are not wearing you off.

Hi Page of cups..
Id like to read for you, but feel that you may be disappointed that I will not supply predictions and details of things that are yet to fully develop.
I will try to address the questions but need you to be completely understanding that you are creating your future now.. you are driving, you are in control.
I fear from the questions that you ask that you are not feeling so empowered with choice .. to go over the questions of the future the way you ask them would be confirming your own feelings of being a puppet and not the puppeteer in your life.

Ill give you exactly what I feel here.

I believe you will working towards happiness.. You clearly do not wish to be unhappy, and you will look for ways to improve your sense of well being. As long of you seek, you will find. I feel that you tend to feel the painful moments more strongly that the joyful ones, ie two things will happen in a day, one good, one not good.. its the not good that will affect how you feel.... you can work on this.. ooo. this does not mean that your "messing up".  its pretty must typical of many of us.

I do feel that you are on the right track. I feel his for the fact that your examining your life and looking for ways to be happy.. you just need to be confident that you are in the drivers seat. You are looking for proof of this, and I think that some proof will greatly improve your trust in the future.

" Am I with the right person...."..
Ill leave this open for someone else to explore. this is where your really asking for predictions.. out of interest sake ( and interest only ), I would ask on the palmistry board. ( think you may have to wait the 30 day period to ask for a reading there I dont know, but for me I dont mind you asking over there because I am answering your post without being fully able tell you the things that you asked... check the board rules out, Im a bit confused over this myself.. I know asking here and in tarot, it is required to wait the month out as one and the same.

Finally I can tell you with absolutely no uncertainly that you are NOT a terrible person and in no way selfish. That you have reached a place in your path where you feel that somethings from the past are not in the best interests of the future you would like to have, you must leave them behind and follow the path you choose.
None of us like letting someone down, we would all love to go through life pleasing everyone %100 of the time.. but to do this we cannot be looking after our own best interests.. To be truly happy in life we need to accept that our own care and well being is the priority.. we cannot be our best for others if we do not care for ourselves first.
You do not enjoy someone elses pain, so how in the world would this make you terrible.

You are going though changes.. the key word here is going through.. the changes are not complete.. we will always be seekers in life.. know that life is about the journey, be content and accepting. Know the things that you can change, and work on these, accept the things we cannot.. thats it. it really is that simple.

At the moment your being challenged by being almost forced to examine what you want.. that is hard.. its scary, especially that now you know that you have the steering wheel.. its so much easier to accept that life is predetermined, it gives up the responsibility.. But the truth is mastering this responsibility and being empowered by this control is quite liberating after the initial shell shock.

I hope I was able to help you some with this..
much love to you
Tammy,  aka StormGirl Blue

Hello Tammy, thank you for your reading. I really appreciate it, and I'm sorry if I didn't understand the rules correctly/asked at the wrong place. I'm most grateful for what you said about how things affect me. What you said has really had me thinking about my view of my own life. I am a very negative person, nobody's ever said it straight to my face that I'm a negative person. But as you said, if something good and something not happens to me, you are correct: the bad one will be the one that sticks to me. I think I should look for the better things to remember. You may already sense that that would be difficult for me to start the habit of being a positive person. But as you said, I make the decisions. Uncertainty and feeling like I'm not in control of my own life do make me feel terrible.

I don't know why taking care of my own needs makes me feel like I'm selfish.

Take care, Tammy...

Hello Page and Tammy,

With due respect I think that I know exactly why getting your own equally important needs makes you feel as though you are selfish or self centred, as I have felt the same way as you do for most of my adult life.

In my case it is because I have somehow got the mistaken idea planted deeply in my unconscious mind that everyone is a better person than I am, and therefore why should I get my needs met or deserve to when there are far better people than I am who for one of many reasons do not get their needs met?

We learn all too well starting from childhood that to focus on getting our own needs met prevents us from helping other people with their problems, so we should hang our heads in shame for even thinking of ourselves at their expense.

However it has been my experience that if at the same time you are trying to help another person that if you do not at least get some of your own basic needs met along the way, then you will probably be of very little useful purpose to anyone, especially yourself.

People who do not also get some of their own needs met in the process often feel as though they are being used, abused and exhausted then thrown away like a worn out empty shell, and can as a result frequently learn to resent the very people whom they are most trying to help.

Learning to love thy neighbour (anyone other than yourself) as thyself means that we must at the same time learn to increasingly love (value and respect) ourselves, and recognise before it is too late that while constantly giving of ourselves without not getting any energy back in return may make us feel useful and more God like, eventually that energy will inevitably run out and we could soon if this is not stopped in time find ourselves very near to God, sooner rather than much later (prematurely deceased).

It is unfortunately possible for this chronic accumulating shortage of energy in your life with the best of intentions to help others often at the sacrifice of not getting your own equally valid needs met as well, to cause your spirit to die within you long before your physical body finally gives up the ghost.

Tammy and myself and the other caring readers on our team will do everything in our power not to allow this to happen to any friend who comes here asking for our assistance.

But we are responsible at the same time to practice what we preach, and be sure that we get our own needs met as well. I learned this lesson the hard way when I neglected my own health and gave everything of myself, without taking enough time in between to recharge my spiritual batteries.

I would not recommend to anyone that they should tempt fate by trying to do the same thing as I did.

Get your own needs met as well.

EoT

Hello EoT,

Thank you for your wise words. I was lurking around this forum for days now, coming back to read your reply to my thread and dwelling on it. I really am considering on taking your words about taking care of myself as well as everybody else and positivity seriously.

I could have replying sooner to thank you, EoT. But it's been very hard to focus with so much going on. Not to say I am busy. But there's a lot going on in head. I would like to stay positive, although it is difficult right now.

Thank you. And I hope you are well...