Thank you, i'm looking forward to your findings and insights.

It was only then,
when you could see trough the spells
of my words and fails,
by poor attempts,
to keep you chained
I understood that you where there
by choice and consent
and not cause of them.

But i thought,
that love just comes
and stays unchanged
forever in your heart
no matter what
i do or say.
And i found out,
it ain't like that
the hard way.

You were there,
not cause of my deeds
you where there
to stay and love me
but i failed, so miserably
and no matter what i say
can change that in any way

Yes, it was also May
and you were there,
lying next to me,
and i awoke you with a kiss
from a beautiful dream
to a dream becoming reality.
But i never stopped dreaming
and with time it became
the nightmare that killed me.

And i realize now,
the spells where not meant
to bind you by me
but to prevent,
to understand your heart
was always next to mine
and all you asked
was for me to be happy.

Now I'm awake,
but seems to be
way to late.
So i stay here and contemplate
every kiss you ever gave
having faith, that once more
you will come to stay.

One more hug, one more kiss
have become the only things
i request from destiny
and i wish nor i care
about anything else.

I let go
to allow all flow
of all emotions
i kept under strict control
And you've ask why
all this now,
what's the point anyhow.

There is no way to compensate
the shit I've put you all this years
there is no sorry that can wash away
all those tears.
All that i want now,
is to give you one last gift,
at least a day exactly how you wished
and at the end to say goodbye.

Cause i know, even though.
I've hurt you so bad
and your wounded, and feel so sad
and dazzled by this sorrow
confused and alone
there is still a spark
in your heart for mine
and your eyes, still shine
when i smile.