hello again, Mr. Eye of Tiger!  

i have so many questions and i feel like i'm going mad, but for some reason i feel like they're irrelevant.   so, i guess it's better if you decide what we should talk about.   i would like to request a general reading please.  

thanks so much!  

Hello again to my good friend Joharah,

You wrote at the very beginning of your request the following, and I quote.........



What a relief it was for me to read this.

Up until now I had (obviously incorrectly) believed that I was one of the very people on this site who had so many questions that they felt they were going or driving themselves mad, but you have just and I am grateful for you doing so shattered my illusion that I was alone in feeling this way.

Your questions are neither unimportant, nor irrelevant to me.

It is sorting out which of them has the highest priority at the moment, that we are leaving entirely up to my inner guidance to determine.

If you never ask questions, you can hardly then expect to receive any answers.

A request for a general reading is effectively asking for an answer to the following question......

"What is felt to be most important or urgent information for me to know about in my life, during the next six months"?

Answering that question to the best of my abilities will be the main purpose of the reading which I fully intend to give you within approximately the next 24 - 48 hours, God willing.

Speak to you again soon,

EoT

Joharah,

Normally at the beginning of many but not all of my readings I provide a link to the previous one (August 2010), but in your case I am going to instead provide a link to my final posting of that same forum thread.



You had just let me know at the time that you had a new job, and that you were therefore doing and feeling much better than you were or had when your original request was made.

Now the reason I am even mentioning this nearly six months later is that I feel that this improvement in your employment situation, as well as your ability to deal with the more negative or pessimistic parts of your own personality is well overdue for a major review or update.

Would I be wrong in feeling that much of the initial excitement on realising that you had a new and challenging job in which you could potentially do quite well has worn off by now, and that everything about it (even the people whom you work with on a daily basis) are getting rather repetitive and noticeably boring to you.

When compared to how down upon yourself you were feeling when you first requested the reading, this was very good news indeed, but I did not want to spoil it for you at the time by mentioning that I had sensed there were still significant challenges ahead for you over the coming months which were related in some way to you wearing your dark coloured glasses, or what you yourself interpreted as being your "death wishey" way of looking at the world and life in general.

I did not want to run the real risk of bursting your bubble of joyful expectation, but I did feel that many of your expectations were unrealistic, and that eventually further down the line you were unknowingly setting yourself up for considerable disappointment in the future when you finally recognised that your improvement would not be linear or in a straight line, and that the high level of motivation and enthusiasm you naturally felt on getting your new job were not sustainable for very long at a time.

This month's reading is attempting to ensure you that you will continue during this period to make major inroads into or progress towards gaining greater control over your emotions, but that if you keep looking back only to the bad days of which there will never be a shortage in your life, then you could be quite unintentionally or unconsciously (same thing) attracting the very factors into your daily existence which would lead to the very outcome which you most fear.

Many people are blissfully but dangerously unaware of the immense power of their own thoughts to shape their future reality. Your reading is basically telling both of us loudly and clearly so that you will sit up and take notice that by your most regularly held and practised thoughts you could be creating for yourself a negative self fulfilling prophecy.

This does not mean in any way that what time and effort you have put so far into working on your emotional problems since your reading in August has been automatically wasted.

But it does probably mean that unless you can become more consciously aware of what you are doing to yourself in the way of destroying what remains of your feelings of self worth and self respect, bring the problem more out into the open where your distorted thought habits can be more closely examined and the theories they lead to can be more thoroughly tested in the light of day, and do whatever you can to heal any damage it has already caused, then any further progress between approximately now and August 2011 is going to be made significantly more difficult than it might have been if you had done these things.

Forget about comparing yourself to the other people you work with. They have their own unique personal challenges to face, and you have yours. Just because they may seem at least on the surface to be dealing with their problems better than you are with yours, it is not necessarily so.  

Remember that we come into this world equipped or kitted out with the exact resources which we will need to deal effectively with our own life lessons, not someone else's. And the other way around as well. It is a very common trap to believe in spite of the evidence which is staring us in the face to the contrary that the other man's grass is always greener than our own, or that because we are told that we are often given challenges according to our own abilities that you are consequently any lesser of a person when compared to them for still experiencing bad days now and then on your pathway to self healing.

If you want to compare yourself with or compete with someone in the future, do it with only you and NOT with them. We are looking for a gradual overall lasting improvement with you, and not something so dramatic that it will give you a false sense of security in believing that there will no longer be any bad days for you.

So the main message of this month's general reading is both an encouraging, but also simultaneously a sobering and gentle warning one. Continue to work with faith and courage and perhaps also professional advice and support if it is felt to be necessary in your ongoing attempts to slowly but surely overcome your emotional handicaps, do not lower your expectations too much, but at the same time keep them realistic and achievable for anyone who is less than a saint.

Setting your expectations too low could end up making you go backwards, as you now have nothing better to hope or work for, but setting them far too high is only more likely to make you feel hopeless, and to give up prematurely on this depressing basis.

So set your expectations somewhere in the middle or moderate range between these two extreme positions, accept that your progress will not always be in a straight line, and believe deep down where it counts (always easier said than done) that there is a light patiently waiting for you at the end of what has been for you a long dark tunnel.

If you are both able and willing to accept the possibility that losing one battle does not necessarily mean that you have lost the entire war, then based upon what I am hearing on your behalf, the bad days will eventually become far less frequent and severe than they are now, but never completely disappear as they par for the course for a spiritual human being who is temporarily trapped in a physical body, for the purpose of learning certain life lessons which can only readily be learned within the restrictions of your physical world and body.

These physical restrictions forced upon you by this level of reality are not there in order to stop you learning your important life lessons. They are instead a vital and therefore unavoidable part of the lessons themselves. Without these often troublesome restrictions, the lessons could not happen?

I would not go so far as to tell you that you should enjoy these restrictions having been placed upon you, but eventually one way or the other you will need to accept that until your allotted time on Earth is over and you go home, these restrictions are here to stay, and that continually worrying yourself sick or complaining about them to other people, is only likely to get you nowhere fast.

Once more this is easier said than done, but focus more on your better days, and in so doing turn the tide in your favour, specifically during the next six months or so. Time and energy wasted on focussing on the bad, worse or worst days will be less than useless and potentially weaken your fighting spirit for your recovery and victory (which is precisely where the linked posting ended as well).

It is always a pleasure to be of help to you as my friend, even if at times I need to be painfully honest about what I am sensing about your most likely future, if nothing changes in the meantime. This just happens to be one of those painfully honest services I must perform some times, in what are felt to be that person's best interests. In this case, YOURS!

Namaste,

EoT

thank you so much Mr. Eye of Tiger for your reading. although, i'm somewhat in denial of it.

i sort of knew as well that my enthusiasm about life wasn't going to last long.

if it's okay with you, could you please elaborate further on how i should be more realistic and how i should enjoy my restrictions?

also, i read this article and it's really bothering me because i'm all of the things mentioned in it. :(

http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2010/02/how-to-know-if-you-are-an-energy-vampire/

Joharah,  

My first important piece of advice to you concerning the article for what you my feel that it is worth, is to try to forget that you ever saw it. Tear it up into 1000 or more little pieces and environmentally responsibly dispose of it where it belongs, and where its words can no longer scare or hurt you ever again.

I am sure that the person who wrote it did so with the best of intentions to help and inform, but trying to understand yourself using what amounts to a check list of symptoms which could possibly be caused by many other things as well, is only I feel likely to confuse and worry you even more than you already are. And it will not get you any closer to solving your problems.

Please trust me that you are not a psychic vampire or energy sucker, CONSCIOUSLY.

But you may have unconsciously (for which you cannot take the responsibility as it is not normally under your control) been drawing energy from other people around you, to satisfy or "feed" your own low energy account balance. Just as water naturally flows from a place of higher pressure to lower pressure, energy similarly moves from someone whose personal energy field or aura is more energised to someone whose aura is energy depleted.

Since this happens without you doing anything all of the time, you cannot stop it simply by getting yourself even more upset, after reading such a badly targeted article as this one is. By continuing to focus on the article, you could actually deplete your energy even more and so make the problem worse than it already is.

The other and much better method is to determine by the process of careful thinking and elimination of the wrong reasons, how your energy got so low in the first place to make this happen. Once your energy is higher and back to near what is normal for you, the flow of energy towards you will stop by itself.

Problem solved!

You asked and I quote........



You were never meant to enjoy your restrictions. Who enjoys living a restricted life? I certainly do not! What you are being challenged to do is to live your life to the fullest, in spite of these restrictions. You are being asked to manage your life around your restrictions, as they are not going to go away any time soon, if at all.

You can either allow your restrictions or your anger and frustration about those restrictions to stop you having a life worth living, or possibly with added professional help and support if and/or when needed not be willing to surrender to live a life of mediocrity and loneliness and the constant and self confidence destroying knowledge that you never had enough courage or were not willing to take the risks which are always involved in moving out of your personal comfort zone  and as much as is humanly possible reach high for your dreams.

As a person myself who has suffered from chronic debilitating and depressive illness for at least half of my 58 years, I know how tempting it can be at times to want to give up on yourself and on life, and stay in bed all day wallowing in self pity and misery. At the times when I feel most like giving up the fight and giving in to my fears and my condition's many restrictions, I find that temporarily forgetting my own problems for a while and instead helping other people with their problems through the internet has a very powerful antidepressant effect and makes me feel much more energised than before.

But with you and your personality being different from mine, you may prefer some other activity in preference to giving readings over the Web to distract you from your own problems for a while and give you more energy in the process. So instead of looking ever again at that article about psychic energy vampires (hoping that you have already forgotten it forever), do some activity which does the same thing as giving readings and helping people does for me.

Your body and your mind were designed to be regularly exercised and used, not for feeling sorry for yourself when there are clearly plenty of people worse off than both of us are, or to be locked in a dark bedroom all day where you will only become increasingly miserable, bad company to everyone around you, and more weaker or less energised by the hour.

It is always easier said than done (but if you do not do it, nobody will want to do it in your place), but one way or the other you need to get both your body and mind moving again. You need to find some activity that you love doing  simply because it makes you feel better about yourself for having done it, and especially something which helps other people at the same time as you are helping yourself.

Also if you try to do one thing each day that you really did not feel like doing, it strengthens your will power instead of your can't be bothered power. And you may discover just as I did that what you had been avoiding doing because up until then it seemed to have no purpose or pleasure for you, suddenly does not seems so boring or bad or lacking in purpose as you thought that it was before.  

The human brain and nervous system has a serious flaw (which may turn out in the end not to be a flaw at all) in its design and the way in which it works, which can be turned around to our advantage. They cannot tell the difference between an actual event, and us imagining or rehearsing that same event over and over only in our minds.

So if you continue to imagine or rehearse in your mind day after day and hour upon hour that you are a psychic energy vampire, guess what happens. What happens is that your aura will do what your unconscious mind is telling it to do. It is telling it to lower your energy storage even further than it already was, then to draw more energy from other people close to you as instructed to make up or compensate you for you being energy exhausted.

Therefore and here comes my reason for explaining this to you in exactly the way that I have, imagine and rehearse positive and life affirming activities in your head each day to push out the negative, self sabotaging ones. By doing this you will be helping to create a positive self fulfilling prophecy, instead of the negative self fulfilling prophecy which you were creating before you realised what you have been doing to yourself, which is not to practise enough self love and self respect.

Add this advice to what I have already advised you to do both in your reading and in this posting and you will then be as a result more realistic and happy, as well as much more motivated to get off your backside and never allow your fears, doubts or restrictions to defeat you again.

You and your life are simply worth too much to the Universe and its many citizens to ever allow this to happen to you once more, so you now have a responsibility to yourself and to those people close to you neither to disappoint the Universe nor its many citizens. And there are plenty of people who like myself would be more than pleased to encourage and support you in your own efforts to do this, but are not able or willing to do it for you, as this would rob you of the important lessons which it was meant to teach you by you learning to do it for yourself.

1. Does this make any more sense to you now?

2. Or does it instead unintentionally confuse you even more than you were before?

Over to you now for your answers to these two questions (1 and 2) in bold print.

ALL POWER AND INCREASED ENERGY TO YOU MY YOUNG FRIEND!

EoT