Hey there! I was just wondering if it was possible to request the talent of someone on here to get a love-related reading?

I do have to say that there are probably very few things in my life that I can complain about, I am very lucky  in so many ways. However, I feel like I'm missing something when it comes to the love aspect of my life. I just feel really lost and don't even know what I'm looking for anymore.
I had a boyfriend for a while my 4th yr university, he’s one of the few if only guys I can say I’ve ever actually loved….but he broke my heart this summer.
 It's kind of ironic, because the summer we first met and sort of had a brief ‘thing’, I was the one that was originally very indifferent and uninterested. I really don’t know why, maybe it was just the phase of life I was in at the time and I was more immature, but I just didn’t feel it. I was more interested in going out lots with my friends and dating other guys. Although I do have to say that I did care about him, I always thought that he was a great guy and very sweet and genuine hearted. Most guys I probably wouldn’t have thought about it too much, but I could tell that he really liked me and I really didn’t want to hurt him. Therefore I got kind of ‘cold’ and tried to not lead him on when I knew I wasn’t interested. He was still happy to be my friend rather than nothing at all, and so we were friends for about a year after. Once during that time he did pour out his feelings for me, and I remember actually being really upset because I knew that I really hurt him when I didn’t feel the same way. I actually remember really wishing that he would just date someone else so that I wouldn’t  be the one responsible for causing him that.
Finally, I decided to give it a go with him later on in the year, and I was surprised at how much I did end up falling for him. While we were together he treated me like absolute gold and everyone and allwyways our friends would tell you that he loved me so much. I do have some trust issues with guys at times, which he worked really hard to win over.
Then all of a sudden while I was gone out of town for a while it was like everything changed and he was this whole different person, and this seemed to happen within a week or 2 period.  He suddenly changed his mind and completely pulled the rug out from under my feet. No apologies, no talk or explanation. It was a huge shock to me at the time to say the least.  This is a guy at the very least I always expected to be one of my really good friends.
Although last time I was in town (I moved 2 hrs away a few months ago), he did seem really willing to want to hang out with me alone again and catch-up, and it all went really well. We went out for coffee (although I was the only one who got coffee)and chatted and had fun just catching up and stuff again.He slowed down a lot and hadn’t gone out partying or drinking for like 2 mths (which he never used to do much of anyways when I first knew him) and was focusing more on his music and stuff. One of our mutual good friends suggested that it could have been something as simple as timing/life circumstances, pacing, too much too soon etc..  but I dunno. Sometimes I think some of my problems come from my need to feel in control of things always
We broke up monthsss ago, yet for some reason my heart has a really hard time letting go of him still. I really don’t understand this, esp considering how indifferent and uninvested I was in this originally. I’ve dated quite a few other guys and all that stuff since him since I moved away, but I havn’t really felt ‘it’ for any of them.

I guess I’m just looking for that true, genuine love, which I’ve been actually looking for all along.  My soul mate I suppose you’d say. Although it’s been kinda fun and I’ve been trying to enjoy being single lol, I’m kind of ready to find “him,” or at least something substantial. If it’s not my ex, then I guess I’m wondering what I should be doing, what I should be looking for, or the attitude I should be having or what I should know in order to find this in my life.
Thanks!
-Teresa~

Hi Teresa,
Hugs to you girl...
Im just sitting down in a read for you now... I should be able to get back in an hour or two with some message..

Teresa,
You say in your reading request that you are ready for your “him” I cannot help but agree with you. Everything I read here and in reflection tells me this is a girl who knows who she is and what she wants, she understands the value of self-appreciation above all, Id call that a girl that is ready to furnish that place in her heart. It isn’t any wonder you’re having a hard time with this.
You have not lost the plot aching for an old love, and most certainly you are no love sick powder puff..If it was us against the universe Id take your side in this one..
Fortunately... Or unfortunately as it feels at the moment, it is not us against the universe. We are at our best when we are in harmony with it. The universe actually works for us, and serves our best interests whether we like it or not.
But... Your reading is calling this a time of rest.
I am not able to speculate as to “what went on in your ex boyfriends mind... I only imagine from the details you have written here that this parting, that actually occurred before the official “was not together now “has not been so easy on him either.  Whatever is going on inside of him that could explain his actions is not something I am privy to access. I do know that your relationship is very valid.
You speak of soul mates.. I hate this term because it takes forever to explain... just in short, a soul mate does not have to be an existing lover, or even ever a lover, and we may have many should mates in our lives.. some come and stay a season, others will be a physical presence your entire life time.
This soul mate that may stay a season is not any less important to you and the development of your “self/ soul /essence spiritual development “(you pick the word that fits), than the one that may be in physically in your presence all of your life… They will always leave a deep profound impression in our heart; they really are an essential part of our development.
When there are changes in the relationship within a “soul mate “connection there will be a rather challenging weather pattern. You saw this in the beginning of your relationship with your ex… that you could love someone so entirely was a bit of a revelation for you. Well not really… deep down you knew that you would, but your outer self had a shield... or safe face.
Thus your difficulties in letting go entirely. If you cannot replace him with him, someone the same will do. I should also be honest in saying that I don’t feel “its over” between and your ex.. not something I like to reveal in a reading for fear of presenting false hope for a relationship rekindling.. but I know you to be aware enough to know what I mean when I explain that the “not over” does not necessarily mean that there will be a reunion.. I tend not to get into predictions. . Its just that you guys haven’t exactly cut the cord.
My personal advice here, old girl to young girl is that if you are having a hard time living in the presence you may have to take the initiative by doing a little invisible cord cutting ceremony. How long you choose to remind attached to the old is entirely your choice. But please, recognize when it no longer serve your best interests.
I can tell you that this void your feeling will be filled again. Right now I’m getting a very fast pace moving around you.. Lots of fast…  ( it may not seem fast to you..lol.. but to 40 something me its racing along )This is going to slow at some stage…  This is the time I feel your going to be taken unaware.

Now what you read Im going to come across as a hypocrite. At the beginning of your reading, I was agreeing with you as for being ready for a relationship. Right now I’m feeling an external energy more than your energy and it conflicts…
I am getting as long as you’re looking for the exact thing that made up the entirety of someone else you’re not going to find that exact pattern in another… not identical twins, but another brother, close but not the same.. you can’t have the same, it’s not there in someone else.. The feelings you develop for another will be unique again. In other words…your dates simply don’t measure up to be the one that you want. When you stop, seeking that “one” there is a chance for another unique human being to enter your life.
I believe we have just been shown what the roadblock is.
When your ready you need to create a cord cutting ceremony..
make a little spell up.. an affirmation is perfect..
Put him and the feelings that you only want him in a helium balloon take it somewhere with a pair of scissors and cut the cord.. (That’s just a cord cutting ceremony I would do for me.. but you really should go with what feels right for you. )..
When you let go is up to you... that time may not be exactly now..
I have an amethyst or perhaps a ring with a blue or purple stone (something real) a landscape that may have appeared in a dreaming state.
I promise you that you will not spend a life time alone... Trust this to the universe.

I hope this helps.. if other stuff comes up Ill come back and share.. just feeling that going on is going to get confusing and message lost right now..
best wishes StormGirl blue
aka Tammy

Hey Tammy,
Thank-you so much for your caring words and your reading, it’s very insightful and helpful! Your effort in looking into this for me is very appreciated! Sorry I didn’t reply right as soon as I would have liked--
I think you’re really dead on with your reading. I feel like usually I’m at my happiest in life when I’m in line and sort of ‘go with the flow’ of the universe, but I feel like I havn’t been for quite a while now. And don’t worry I think I understand what you’re trying to explain with the whole “soul mate” concept, I actually wrote my undergrad psych thesis on relationship theories and “soul mate vs. work-it-out” theory and such,, I probably should have used a less vague term lol  (and you’d think I’d have my stuff together a little more too haha) Sometimes I think using the ‘soul mate’ term can kind of be an over-romanticized concept, where people are trying to describe their ideal perfect relationship idea, and that once you find that ‘one perfect person‘ that it will be passionate and effortless for all time. I do however like to believe that everything happens for a reason, and that some things are meant to be. I guess I feel like I want that one who will actually be that long-term physical presence in my life.

And  even though I still have feelings, I would definitely not expect any kind of relationship reunion with my ex at this point in time. Even if he were to come to me and say all the right things, regret what happened, and said he missed me and wanted something with me again, it just would not be possible at this point in life. Like I said, we no longer live in the same town anymore, and he’s going to grad school really far away in the fall (it’s a really prestigious program that he worked really hard to get into--which even if we were dating forever and everything went super great it would be something I would never want him to give up), and I’m going off to who knows where, eventually going to grad school as for something I’m really passionate about as well. In fact, going into it we both knew that we had an expiration date, although it was never really talked about, and I guess I just didn’t expect it to come up so soon and in that way. The last night we spent together--before I left for home and my vacation for 3ish weeks,-we just layed there and stared into each other’s eyes and didn’t say a word for a good 10 minutes, it was all pretty intense and  something I never experienced before. He seemed so sad (and I thought maybe might have even cried a little lol). We both thought I wouldn’t be coming back after that (although I did for the summer and then it sucked lol). Maybe it was just supposed to end there.

You’re right in that it definitely was a pretty big revelation for me, and something I didn’t really expect. I’ll be honest in saying that my motivations for initially starting something with him, was that he was just ‘safe’ in a lot of ways, and I thought that he was the last guy on earth who would ever hurt me. I kind of viewed him as a sort of “stepping stone” to get some relationship experience before I graduated and went off into the real world. At the time I didn’t see anything possible but positive things coming from what we had, and had a sort of romantic idea of us parting peacefully and nostalgically, most likely at the end of summer when he would leave. He surprised me in a lot of ways though, and I didn’t actually expect to feel for him as much as I did. I guess I don’t really have a right to be upset when I got what I asked for-- (minus the actually getting hurt part) I just never thought… something I thought that was so simple could be so… not. lol

I think you’re cord-cutting ritual is a very good idea. Actually I have been contemplating doing such a letting-go spell for a while now, but I seem to be putting it off lol. I’ve known for a while that holding on to this is not healthy for me and doing me a lot more harm than good.  But I guess that there’s this other part of me that just…  really doesn’t want to regardless, and is really scared to. I’ll be honest in saying that there’s a part of me that doesn’t want him to completely forget about me either, and by me letting him go it’s like I feel like I’m allowing him to completely let go of me as well. That sounds kind of unhealthy, and I know it probably needs to happen, but yea it's still a little painful. And I think I’m also really scared that I won’t find something like that again, that there won’t be another guy who will just adore me and love me as much as he did, and that I won’t really feel that way again. And now I’m also a little afraid that if he does, that he will change his mind and leave quickly.

But at the same time, when I think about being free of him and this situation, it’s like a hugeeee Reliefff and Freedom. I would actually just love to no longer be invested in this anymore, and just not care about what he thinks or what he’s doing anymore. To stop over-analyzing, imagining, regretting, thinking of what could have been done differently, feeling the need to see him again, wanting to check his face book or wondering what he thinks,, etc…. basically I would love to go back to more how I viewed him when we first met, when I cared about him but wasn’t invested heart-wise into him. That has seemed so unfathomable though. I have a lot of good in my life right now that I’m not completely enjoying, and I miss feeling centered in my life and just really enjoying being me again. I’m going to make plans to do a cord-cutting ritual soon.
I just had a quick question on what you meant by "another brother, close but not the same"....

Aaand, yes you’re probably right in saying that my life is fairly fast-paced right now, hahah, I recently moved to the city a few months ago and I guess I’ve been trying to have fun enjoying being in my early 20’s. I've never had a lack of guys giving me attention or being interested in me in that way, but there's been very few that have actually stuck out to me enough to really take seriously. Sometimes I think that there's a part of me that feels uncomfortable staying still right now.

Thanks again Tammy,
Much love,
-Teresa

You are very welcome Teresa

For most people I would not dream of using the term "not completely over" when referring to an ex, but I knew you would know what it meant and not put yourself on hold thinking t was a prediction..
OOO and dont beat yourself up with "should know better"..lol.. Me, right here, I, do the same thing.. lol.. sometimes the doctor could use a doctor.. make us more human and better in our service to others I think.

When I mentioned the "another brother" it was coming through, I dont know exactly what things mean or refer to at the time either, Im like trying to make sense and put things in the right order.
At the beginning of the reading I had only your energy, but later another one started coming in ( I'm not a medium and this want a medium reading.. I read energy not spirit.. and if spirit does come though I wouldn't know one from the other )

I believe that it means that what your looking for and find him, or he you, will be like your ex in some ways but dont expect him to be the same man exactly. .. dont see things that are not exactly your ex and call them faults, the next partner will be his own man.

but.. take predictions with a grain of salt.. it might be interesting to see if your next someone is a brother of someone you know.

It hasnt been so long that you and your ex have gone separate ways.. dont feel that you have to be ready to move on and if your not there must be something wrong.. If its hurting you or hindering your ability to be happy without him, you perhaps should bring on the cord cutting sooner or later..But for best results you have to feel ready..

start with an affirmation to build up to it..
instead of "I have let go ", or even I am ready.. try I am preparing to.. ( for a week or two, or however long you need ) then I am ready, and then I have let go.. but dont keep the "I have let go for too long.. the ritual or ceremony you create for it can be symbolic of the new start. create another one soon after that reflects a new direction or idea... so as not to hold on to the past despite letting go.

You have an awesome life ahead of you U know your spiritual guardians are very proud of the way your living a life. Id love to wear your shoes for a day..
I loved dating without commitment !