May i please have a general reading :), Mysticism, reading, forums, Numerology, Sun Signs, Divination

Posts: 16 · Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2010 3:25 pm

hello guys!

if you please, would it be ok to ask for a bit of general reading?

i'm having a lot of anxiety and i don't know how to get rid it. it would be great to have a bit of insight regarding my life, because i'm very confused. i'm a female born on sept. 1, 1990.

thank you, if so.

Posts: 3985 · Posted: Mon Aug 09, 2010 5:08 am

My blessings and empathy for the lot of anxiety which you are present experiencing once again goes out to my good young friend Joharah.

When I gave you your previous reading in January of this year (to which I have provided a direct link above for your convenience) you told me about your constant ongoing cycle of thoughts of taking your own precious life, as a way of escaping the pattern of chronic anxiety and depression which continues to hold you back from making forward progress in your life.

But at the time I hope that I convinced your logical mind at least that give into this temptation to end it all, would only be like you jumping out of the cooking pot and falling straight into the fire which burns fiercely beneath it.

In other words giving up on yourself and your belief that your life could possibly get better in the future would without doubt produce much more serious and a much wider range of problems than it may have appeared on the surface to have solved.Not only for you, but also for the people who love and care about you, that you would be leaving behind you

Honestly I see this request as being a highly positive encouraging sign that in spite of all your many emotional difficulties which are too complex to be looked at in any detail other than by a fully qualified and properly trained and well trusted by you family doctor, that you are still reaching out for help where it is available and affordable which is strong evidence that there is a part of you which will never be willing to give up.

Many people these days I have observed have what could only be politely called a death wish, without them automatically having thoughts of suicide. While they are not planning or prepared to take the steps needed to end their physical lives, their behavior is very consistent with a person who believes that anything is better than the hand of cards which their present life has dealt them. While they are not preparing to end their lives by their own hands, they are almost as effectively (although perhaps more slowly and perhaps painfully) killing their dreams and therefore in turn also themselves in the process.

So I see you through my impressions of you as being a survivor, but at the same time even a saint has his or her own limits, beyond which the small flame of their life is in imminent danger of being easily extinguished or blown out by the winds of change and adversity. So if you feel that you are personally still at a distance from becoming a saint any more than I myself am likely to ever become one, then I feel that you can comfortably excuse yourself for having fears and self doubts about what the future may still hold in store for you, including in the areas which you have not mentioned as part of your request since this is meant to be a general reading where my inner guidance gets to decide what it is felt is most important or urgent for you to know at this moment in time in order to reduce your anxiety levels.

So you may feel also understandably disappointed that I am not going to attempt to predict what your future may look like during the period of the next six months or so through this reading. For to be able to accurately and reliably predict what your future would look like assumes that there is only one possible future to predict.

And that that future is effectively set in stone and somehow predestined to happen, no matter what you did or did not do to improve the situation, between now and then.

You would be by so doing giving away to me any of your personal power or responsibility to help create a better life for yourself, largely through what you decide to do in the present moment.

I want to make it perfectly clear to you right from the beginning that I am neither able nor willing to accept the huge burden of responsibility you doing this would place upon me.

I would also be seriously lying through my six remaining natural teeth if I told you that I believed for only a moment that much of your life beyond perhaps your birth, death and higher cost of living is predestined or set in stone. One of the most certain things about this Universe in which we live is that it will always continue to become increasingly uncertain.

The die (singular for dice) or alternately the coin of your future over the next six months is either still to be rolled or flipped, and how much the seemingly random and fickle Wheel of Fortune turns in your favor will I sense mostly be determined by what you decide to do and think within the next 24 hour period, multiplied by the number of days still remaining roughly between now and early February 2011 (6 months hence).

Your reading tells me that never before in this current lifetime could such a small increase in your level of enthusiasm or a minor improvement in your mental attitudes potentially lead to such a major breakthrough in overcoming the effects of the irritating and debilitating monkey of anxiety which is currently riding upon your back for all she is worth.

In saying this I do not want you to get the mistaken impression that I feel you are in any way weak or a lesser person than myself for feeling the way which you obviously genuinely do, for where you find yourself now at the tender age of 19, I was personally still in the similar place at the age of 24 (two years before I met my current and only wife of now nearly 32 years).

It is a sobering thought to me that if I had acted upon my feelings and ended it all as I was sorely tempted to do when in my dark night of the soul, that I would have never met the love of my life, and that our two now adult children both of whom we love and are suitably proud of would never have been born exactly as the people they are.

So the final important message to come from this reading is that by what you decide to do now in the present moment to improve your situation with both courage and faith, you not only are directly deciding your own most likely future, but as well indirectly deciding the future of other people whom you are still meant to meet later on.

And by all means get whatever professional and/or medical help you feel the need for, as you more than deserve all the success and happiness which your life is patiently waiting to drop in your lap, if you are only able and willing to open up the windows of your mind's dark prison cell, and choose freedom in preference to a life of unnecessary limitation from the anxiety monkey which is only in your own troubled mind riding upon and every now and then biting you on your back and bottom.

Your doctor may also be able to direct you to someone who can suggest what the best anxiety reduction techniques for you would be. It is not so that meditation or self hypnosis is the most likely to be effective in every person in bringing down their anxiety to more manageable and sustainable levels.

Try each method in turn for at least a minimum of 30 consecutive days, or until it becomes patently obvious even to you that it is making you more instead of less anxious than you were already feeling before you started. But keep your methods as flexible as possible, allowing for those days when nothing you can do seems to go right, and you would much rather crawl back into bed and hide from the world and other people until you started feeling better about yourself. Oh and if you are waiting for these bad days to totally disappear, then forget it. The best we can reasonably hope for is that eventually they will get fewer and further in between.

Love, Light and Healing,

From your Aussie friend and loyal fan EoT

Posts: 16 · Posted: Tue Aug 17, 2010 6:18 am

Hello Eye of Tiger! Thanks for responding to my request. :D

thank you for constantly reminding me of what to do. i really find it hard to stick things into my head let alone do them ;_; i'm sorry i'm still the death wish-ey sort of person, because my dreams are always very unreachable and i find it hard to figure out whether my goals are just right because it always ends up crazy or just crap. i'm sorry if i'm unintentionally placing my burden unto you by asking for a reading, i'm glad that you're very wise to refuse me, as i'm very impressionable. thank you for always giving me the truth even if it's not something people want to hear. i don't know whether the solution to my problem should be spiritual or physical. by 'my doctor', do you mean the last psychiatrist i've been to? this is very childish of me, but i really don't want to see her. >.< should i not find any other option? i believe you on that self-hypnosis and meditation only makes my anxieties worse. should i stop reading my books altogether? will that clear up the clutter in my head?

thank you so much for all the guidance.

Posts: 3985 · Posted: Tue Aug 17, 2010 5:14 pm

Hello again friend,

I do not consider you as being a "death wishey" type of person, as if you were one of these surely you would not still be seeking what help I am able to offer you through the internet after all this time. But there is no doubt that you are incredibly anxious and weighed down by your difficulties and frustrations in not being able to achieve your full potential, due mainly to your ongoing emotional illness. And it is an illness, and not you.

It is always much easier for me to tell you what I feel that would be in your best interests to do, than for you to be able to do it. I am completely on your side with regards to getting your life back on track once more and the reference I made to a doctor in your reading could include but is not confined only to your most recent psychiatrist.

Anyone in the medical profession who is appropriate qualified and does not see you only as your illness will be able to help you to some degree, but only in combination with you receiving help from other sources including myself through these readings.

I never wished to give you the mistaken impression that I am rejecting your requested for a reading, as if you look back at what I just wrote to you above, you should soon be able to recognize that I have in fact given you one.

For example in it I wrote.........

Quote:

Your reading tells me that never before in this current lifetime could such a small increase in your level of enthusiasm or a minor improvement in your mental attitudes potentially lead to such a major breakthrough in overcoming the effects of the irritating and debilitating monkey of anxiety which is currently riding upon your back for all she is worth.

Now if I had turned down your request for a reading for whatever reasons, this section of what I wrote would not make any sense.

Just because I have not told you what card I may have drawn or tell you that your reading begins here does not mean that I never gave you a reading.

I feel that your difficulty in recognizing this is due to your medical condition causing you to always tend to constantly look at the world around you through dark colored glasses.

In other words your illness is filtering out the good things still remaining in your life, and emphasizing only the worst possible outcomes.

At present you are looking out for any signs of possible rejection from me (it does not exist other than in your own mind I can assure you) in order to support your unconscious belief that you are a bad person, and that nobody understands or cares about you.

The reality is quite the extreme opposite of this theory of yours.

I do not in any way find either yourself or your requests for readings to be a burden.

What I actually said was that I was not prepared to accept the total responsibility for you getting through this. But I am perfectly prepared and willing to help you to the very best of my abilities in combination with you at the same time receiving help from other people, including but not only a doctor who may or may not him or herself be a psychiatrist.

So get these mistaken ideas completely out of your mind because they are false and totally discouraging for a person like yourself who is doing his very best to cope in what is definitely a difficult situation for any person to have to deal with.

You are doing an excellent job of it to be able to get this far, and I am ready and willing to offer you what encouragement and support I am able to via the internet.

Give yourself the benefit of the doubt as you would to any person other than yourself if they were in the same situation as you are, as well as you giving yourself the well deserved but long overdue credit for having been able to still ask for help in spite of the many emotional difficulties you have been facing up until now with such courage that I am proud to call you my friend.

If you forget everything else I have said above, please continue to focus on the part of the reading which I have quoted above in bold print.

Here it is again if you missed it for the third time.

Quote:

Your reading tells me that never before in this current lifetime could such a small increase in your level of enthusiasm or a minor improvement in your mental attitudes potentially lead to such a major breakthrough in overcoming the effects of the irritating and debilitating monkey of anxiety which is currently riding upon your back for all she is worth.

This means that I feel you are much closer to overcoming your emotional problems which I believe your doctor may identify as being a mixture of chronic anxiety and depression (but I am not a qualified doctor myself so there may be more to your condition than is immediately apparent to my untrained eyes) than you are able to recognize at this point in time.

Far from thinking of you as a hopeless basket case death wishey person, I feel a great sense of friendship and solidarity with you, as I have myself battled with chronic depression and anxiety for most of my nearly 58 years of this lifetime.

I therefore feel I have more understanding of what you are going through than an average person does who has never experienced what it feels like to have to keep going keep going when everything you have ever wanted out of your life, seems to be permanently out of your reach.

The average person also does not generally have any concept of what it feels like to have to drag yourself out of bed every morning, only to find that you appear to be living the same dull and boring and pointless day over and over again as if you are caught on a merry go round or carousel which is spinning madly and from which you can never escape (which is exactly what your mind wants you to believe is the case). But it is again false.

This is not your fault, and I believe that with proper and sensitive treatment of your condition from a qualified doctor of the mind as well as your family GP when combined with help from many other people such as myself and the many members of this spiritual community who care about what is happening to you, that as long as you remain open to being helped, that you have every reason to hope that your future will be a much better one that it would have otherwise been if you had not received that help in time to turn things around in a more positive direction.

I sincerely hope that this posting has cleared up many of the false beliefs and assumptions that I find you you to too much trouble, a burden on my time and energy that I would prefer to be used for helping someone else, or thinking that I have turned down your request for a reading.

Being a reader involves far more than turning over a few cards and trying to make you believe that I have all the answers, or that I can accurately and reliably predict what your future will be before you try to do anything to make it better.

If there were only one future to predict, then there would be no way to change it. I simply cannot believe that your or my futures are both set permanently in stone, and that anything you or I do from now on to make it better is therefore a total waste of our time and energy. And I hope to in time help you to recognize this as well in your own life.

Except for your birth, death and the ever increasing cost of living, virtually at this point everything else about your future is still undecided. So it is never too late to change it for the better.

Your reading strongly suggests that only a tiny push in the right direction, helped by the right people, could make a huge change to the eventual outcome. To give up now when you are so close to making a major breakthrough would in my opinion be a waste of the huge potential to help others like yourself who are living daily with the same illness and dark thoughts that you are.

Love, Light and Healing to you my friend from one of your most loyal, admiring and respecting support team members,

EoT

Posts: 16 · Posted: Mon Aug 30, 2010 7:07 am

Hello Eye of Tiger!

Thank you for all the kind words and advice you've given me. I have a job now and I'm doing much better.

I'd still be stuck at the corner of my room if you weren't here to help me.

For that, I'm really grateful.

Love,
J o h a r a h