Hello Bhadra,

I read your post and had some thoughts on it, I went to your first reply by Sophia and quote:( You need to slow down and take a deep breathe. For some reason I think that you know what the right decision is for you and I would pursue that of which you feel is right). She had written exactly what I was thinking.
I sense that your mind is racing, you seem very wound up, you have to try and take it stride, and know it's all for a greater purpose. You have no choice but to walk through it. The choice that is yours is to go with grace, or kicking & screaming leaving claw marks on the walls, (I've done this several times, not the best choice). You strike me as someone who has a pretty strong sense of yourself. I'm not sure why your questing yourself, we both know you have the answer you need, it just might not be the one you WANT.

As far as wanting a relationship, we all get lonely and want companionship, just remember you attract what you want into your life. So if your going through it right now and things are a little unbalanced, what kinda of person would you attracting? Somebody a little unbalanced maybe. ( i know about this one from a time when my life was a little crazy).

I hope this help, even if it only puts a smile on your face for a little while, you deserve it.
Take care of yourself.


with respect,
blackcat