i would like to have some insight into what may come to be.....I have been separated from my husband for two years, he lives pretty far so we don't get to see each other often.  Our communication broke down and he moved away.  and since then he's pretty much shut down and I get nothing from him.  I love him deeply and although he's somewhat moved on I know he still has feelings for me, I think?......is it time to let go or should I fight for this love? (We've been together for 20 years).

OK first off i am not a professional psychic and just learning to use my psychic abilities. So I figured I take a shot at this... I may be all wrong or maybe you can tell me what seems to be right.

I have been trying to pick up how the separation happened and I am not quite sure if there was any kind of betrayal or just the suspicion of it, but I am getting the feeling it had to do with work. Ultimately, he felt that he just could not live with you any longer due to compatibility issues, which is not to say that he doesn't still have feelings for you. Things that he felt were important didn't resonate with you and vice versa, there was no resolution in sight and he felt that it was better, if he didn't stay. . That's why the communication broke down. He has indeed moved on, though reluctantly. He had to make the cut for his own good.

You are to take this as a karmic lesson. He was in your life for a long time to help you find your way. Only his finally separating from you made it possible to clear the stage for you to provide an opportunity to clear your karmic debt. You are now in the position to use the lesson and change your thinking and how you express love and concern for another person, but after a time of healing and finding yourself, ridding yourself from insecurities that have kept you from opening up, you will find a new partner that will be much more suitable for you. It depends on you whether that person will be the next person or one thereafter, based on how drastically you are willing to stand up to yourself and take action. It's ok to still love your husband, but try to love him as a friend now... sometimes love means to let go and let him find his own fortune.

I hope I made sense... I appreciate any feedback!

Blessings!

Hi Petra, thank you so much for the reading, I don't know what to say but everything you mentioned is exactly what happened, I started a home business, we worked from home and had people there all the time, things were stressful and complicated and it just deteriorated from there.......this business it really wasn't for him, so I understand why he needed to leave........so he left without a word.  

He taught me many things and helped me embrace myself.   I don't know, I miss him so much and I hurt so much still.....what does  this opportunity to clear my karmic debt mean?  did I have a karmic debt to him?  I've been trying so hard to heal and find myself but it seems I end up in a dark place way too often.   You say I will find a partner that's more suitable, was my husband not suitable for me?  He makes me laugh, makes me so happy.......

Hellowpurewool, I can feel your pain! I am only starting to understand what I learned a long time ago. Our souls are very complex, some of these souls are very old and have gone through many manifestations. In each manifestation the soul evolves, learns something new. I use the word manifestation, because it does not necessarily mean earthly life. I am at a point where I understand that there are many dimensions, some of which we do not yet understand. The world and the life as we know it is called the 3rd dimension, the spirit world that most people know about the 4th dimension, but things don't seem to stop there, we learn through lives as well as through our existence in spirit, with or without a physical body.

At some point my religious background held me back from opening up to such beliefs, but actually, if I remember right, the bible speaks of a finite number of angels, souls etc. Considering that our body usually only lives so long, there has to be a place for the souls to go between lives, most souls will have more than one life, and there has to be a soul memory, even if it is buried in our subconscious. That's the way I would define Karma. We are here for a purpose in every life we live. If the purpose is not fulfilled in one life, it carries over to another life to be fulfilled. That carry over balance if you will, is your karmic debt (as I understand it). So in this life you have a chance to make up for what your soul missed in the past life.

Sometimes other people (other souls) come into our lives for a while a day, a season or a lifetime. They are often described as soul mates. They are those souls that are most closely related to our own. Sometimes they are there to complete us, sometimes to be completed, sometimes to teach us a lesson or bring understanding of a current purpose. Some of them are there to help us resolve karmic debt or try and find resolution for themselves. When I refer to karmic debt, don't see it as punishment for previous sins. We all go through trial and error. We are here to overcome the trials a body brings with itself. A soul mate is always a person that is hard to let go of, but sometimes we mistake those that just visit for a season as those we expect to be with us for a lifetime. But sometimes the act of separation itself triggers a new step in karmic advancement and brings you closer to resolving the debt. Only when we fulfill our purpose we realize completely what it was in first place. that's when we find peace.

Now another concept. We are surrounded by spirit beings and everybody has one or several guardian angels or spirit guides. They often show us how to realize ourselves. Very often we overlook their signs in our hectic lives. But you can call on them in prayer, during meditation and experience them in your dreams. Their signs will usually appear in repetitive numbers/numerology or in symbols we see in our daily lives and dreams, sometimes even visions.

(I have some links regarding the above, if you like, and feel free to check out threads speaking to the above via the search option. I have no doubt you will also hear from Spiritalk and Sunmystic here shortly, who are both wonderful teachers, as well as my friends Happyme and Ishtar who are also quite gifted, even though they might not yet realize how much *wink, wink* LOL. They've been watching me lately hahahaha)

I see that you have been very dependent on your husband to make you happy, make you laugh, fee whole... I have been in the exact same spot before, you know... even though I knew the way out of that miserable state, for a long time I hesitated because I thought it was my purpose to stay in the relationship so that he would find a way to overcome his insecurities and find a way to make me happy... how wrong I was! I was to find myself and be happy in myself, not needing a partner to do that for me. He told me that it was not his job to make me happy (how that hurt!!), even though he did things he felt would make me happy. I should have known that he was supposed to show me the way to myself. At the same time only when I separated from him and left him clueless and hopeless, did I give him a real shot at resolving his own karmic debt. I think we both became better people in the process and our souls evolved. But we were not meant to walk side-by-side our whole lives, but only 12.5 years... it seems like a long time to an aging body, but not to an immortal soul.

All of a sudden I find myself independent, stronger, more confident and more than ever aware of my abilities and gifts. With that karmic soul mate of mine I would have never come to the point of channeling healing Reiki energies and being able to tap into the universal knowledge that made it possible for me to tell you what I told you. He would have held me back, or rather, I would have held myself back and wrongly blamed it on him.

I know it is hard, but focus on yourself for a while, rest from the need to be attached to someone. Study yourself. Being on this forum is only a first step.

Here's another delightful note for you: I only got on this forum on October 25th,less than a month ago... and I went from doing occasional Reiki and laying occasional tarot cards, looking up their meaning and symbolism, to psychic capabilities I would have never dreamed of and vast amounts of knowledge that are within me, all our fellow friends on the forum, and resources we all contribute. Never seen anything as "tuned in" and less judgmental than people on this board (with very few exceptions, if any)! Most of these people are way more than amateur psychics, fortune tellers, wise-men and -women, but a whole big family of souls that are in the process of finding their purpose, if possible, before a new cyclical ascension/evolution of the mind (and even body if you follow the rumors about evolving DNA in the age of aquarius we are approaching)... but that is material for another thread...

Lots of hugs and blessings!

petra, your guidance, knowledge, insight has been a blessing.  thank you so much for responding I'm writing everything you said in my journal.  I'm trying to learn about spirituality, I talk to spirit guides, angles daily and funny I was going to ask you when you became or knew you had psychic abilities and you answered that in your last paragraph.  I hope I can talk to you again sometime.  Love and blessings!