Hi MoonSpirit,
It appears that this will be your very first reading given on this forum, so I have little to go on logically in the way of knowing who you are, other than what you wrote in your introduction after registering earlier this month.........
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| I am a stay at home Mom of 2 children. I have always been interested in the paranormal, but lately have taken a little more active interest in it. I find this site very interesting, and hope to meet a lot of new people with my same interests. |
My only reason for posting this is mainly to make it clear to all who look at this message that I did not intuitively receive this information during your actual reading.
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The first card drawn was the
Knight of Swords.
Any of the four Knights in the Tarot is believed to represent either the spirit of a teenager, or alternately someone who is already an adult but is still effectively a teenager at heart in the ways in which they approach their lives. So associated with this particular card we have the typical personality of someone who tends to be restless and does not like to stay in one place in her life for very long at a time.
Someone who is highly idealistic, and some would say naive in the way in which she not only tends to always view the world with rose coloured glasses, but also heaps a lot of unrealistic expectations and undue pressures upon herself by believing that she can basically solve all her own and the entire world's problems single-handedly overnight. Your thoughts are pure and far less cynical than those of the average person, but your unquestioning trust in others has in the past made you especially vulnerable to other people who have wanted to take advantage of your kindness and generosity in their own best interests.
A Knight is also typically a person who is always riding off in several directions at the same time and is forever on a quest to try something new and different (this is good). But also because this person is trying to do too many different things at the same time, her vital energies soon become scattered as to the four winds and nothing is ever really completed or done particularly well (this is not so good).
Any of the Swords suit are above all action cards. They represent someone who is extremely uncomfortable waiting for something to happen through coincidence and luck. Someone who cannot passively sit still and allow random fate to determine where she is going and what she will be doing. Someone who takes a no nonsense I take no prisoners approach to everything she does, both for herself and her two kids.
To a certain degree this need to be a super everything to her children is out of necessity as she is their primary carer and if she does not try to do all she can to protect and care for them as a loving mother, then who will? But as with all good things in life, this can be taken to the negative extreme to develop into an addiction or obsession in her ongoing quest to ride to help everyone else like a Knight in shining armour to save them. Often however in helping them to get their own needs met, she does not at the same time ensure that at least some of her own equally important needs are satisfied.
This can quickly become a recipe for disaster, as if you do not make sure that at least some of your most basic needs for survival (physical, mental, emotional and spiritual) are being met, then you could easily come to resent the very people you are most trying to help and protect by always doing things for them that they must in time learn to do for themselves. Being a stay home mother of two young children is challenging enough for any person, but what use are you going to be either to them or yourself from a hospital bed or worse a premature grave.
True we must do what we are able as loving and responsible parents (my wife and I have two adult children of our own), but unless we take good care of ourselves and slowly but surely according to their ages push the little birds out of their nest, then I feel that we are with the best of intentions to please them in every possible way doing them a gross disservice and injustice by not respecting their right to gradually become more independent and able to make their own decisions consistent with their stage of development.
So in summary this general reading is telling you that it is OK not to be perfect, and that while you should continue to do what you feel needs to be done for them for as long as it is felt to be necessary, that you should try to find a more comfortable and healthy working balance for you between satisfying their needs as well as some of your own, as they get older and are able to learn their own lessons and stand on their own two feet.
I know all too well about the negative effects on our feeling of being needed by the so called "empty nest syndrome", but I also recognise that to continue to ignore the fact that we are not immortal or all powerful, and that one way or another the day will finally arrive when they will leave us (or alternately we will leave them). The positive life lessons which we teach them now, will hopefully make them a stronger person as a result, and get them through this period of transition and separation in the future to make a life for themselves.
I sincerely hope that you will find this reading to be both relevant and useful to you in making you a more effective mother to your two children as they grow both physically and spiritually, as well as simultaneously making you a happier, healthier and more fulfilled person within yourself.
Yours in spirit,
eye_of_tiger (male)
