I will admit that I have put all my eggs in the same basket when it comes to Ryan...  and I do appologize if I gave you the impression of wanting you to 'tune in' to his energies...  I was more offering up his information to assist in any reading associated to me as he is my strong romantic interest...  But I do appologize for breaking the rules (as it were... LOL)  It was not my intention to put you in any negative possition...  

Ryan means a lot to me...  As you said, there is a touch of the divine in my association with him...  From the first contact with him, there is just something... ... "More" to our relationship...  And even though it tends to be crazy (as now), I just can't seem to let go of it...  There is nothing that he has done that seems ... ... grounds for divorce (if you know what I mean...).  I am frustrated, yes, but I just can't seem to stay angry or disappointed in him...  LOL

I am really looking forward to school!  I am hoping that it will fill some of my idle thinking time so that my brain isn't in excessive thinking mode each night when I go to bed...  LOL  Maybe my dreams will start to take on a more mundane dream cycle!  LOL  Lord knows I've had some Strange Dreams lately!  LOL

So I thank you for your time...  I wish that you had felt something more between Ryan and I...  Maybe a more solid standing coming up...  Something to ground us both... <shrug>  I'll keep my heart open, and let you know!

Thank You for your reading and insite!!

Sincerely,
Cory

PS  I was meditating with my tarot cards last night, and I asked the question "to what will pertain to our conversations tonight" (in reference to a phone call that was suppose to be made and was overlooked - my intention in asking this question was to inquire about the general feeling of what was possibly going to be said), and the card I drew was the 9 of swords...  and when I asked for further clarity, I drew the Hierophant.  Any insite?  These two cards seem to conflict to me...  (Which is what I was saying earlier that I seem to be getting mixed readings from my deck...)  what do you think?

Dear Cory,

You did not do anything wrong nor did you cross any borders by asking me to tune in to Ryan. In the past I have been guilty of doing third party readings and I am not saying I will never do it again...

Reading for oneself, especially when we are so engrossed in our anxieties, is not so easy and we may 'see' things differently or things may be super imposed or amplified in our eyes. The Nine of Swords the way I see it,  in your case, means you are blowing this all out of proportion and I am not surprised you are getting those weird dreams my dear friend. The Hierophant is trying to ground you, bring you back to the reality of things and, indeed, take your attention to other priorities such as your education and things of the mundane and of the daily routine. That is the way to get you grounded and rid you from your traumatic Nine of Swords influences, albeit that it is the reflection of all that is going on around you - your current marriage and your connection with Ryan and your general feeling of negativity.

You are doing the right thing now by distracting your own thought process by going into further education. An idle mind may take wings and fly to places; it should be tamed and brought back to earth to be occupied with the here and now - the message of the Hierophant. It is not a bad card; it is what you need right now.

Things will change. They do change, but spirit have got a funny way of putting us through these phases and experiences......

Things will be fine for you. Have faith.

Many blessings to you.

LOL  I am quite guilty of an overactive imagination!!  Thank You for your insite!  It DOES make sense to me now that I've had a chance to think about it, and it certianly helps to have someone else offer up a different perspective!!

Thank You for your reading, my friend!  I'll let you know how things progress!

Sincerely,
Cory

Try and be happy, Cory.
Bless you.