Due to some troubles with my 'fantastic' ADHD-mind, there is a great possibility that I might find myself homeless in a couple of months.

Yet, I do pretty good in some other areas, and  I have grown a lot in the last year, I am really getting stuck in my own basic fundamental needs.
I don't have roots, and honestly, that is draining.

I hope some-one can see if I finally find my own place in the near future,
or maybe I should just immigrate ?
Every advise/insight or foresight that pops in your mind, also the ones not relating to home/houses and roots, are absolutely welcome.

I really would be happy.
Thanks a lot


Peace, Maya

Mayarose,
Do not worry; all will work out in the end.  Focus on what you want and it will be yours.  Your thoughts seem to be jumping all over the place, faster than you can keep up I imagine.  My suggestion to you is that you calm your mind and decide what it is that you want so that you can focus on the correct thing.  If you focus on what you want to bring into your life (whether it be a new place to live or people who can help lift you to a better place) it will most certainly be yours.  Meditation is a great way to slow down the speed of your mind.  Start in the morning when you wake up and try to quite your mind.   There are many ways to go about it, but my suggestion would be to quite your mind and find a place of inspiration where you can go to in order call your inner strength to help guide your way.   Once you know what it is you want and are able to focus on only that the entire world will open up to you.   Feel free to look online to get ideas on meditation techniques, if you have never meditated before feel free to watch this how to video it is about 5 minutes long http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0rSmxsVHPE .

Dear Mayarose

Emigrate? Why? And, what if things don't turn up to your expectations in your new location? Emigrate again to somewhere else? And be the victim of that vicious circle?

By 'my own place' do you mean a physical home/house/flat for yourself or a place of residence where you can call it home?

If it is the former, I don't see why you shouldn't, as each day and with each new experience we learn from our mistakes and one day, we do not make them anymore. If it is the latter, then as I said, how would emigrating help? Let the mistakes of the past and the failures not hold you back, but rather drive you forward, for you can look at similar situations and you can tell them in the face: No, I will not let you win this time! It is my turn to claim that victory.

If one of us told you No, you will not find a place of your own, what you do my dear? Would you just give up and go into the unknown route? And, if one of us said Yes, you will find or have a place of your own, then would you simply stop trying? You see, you have more chances of getting a place of your own  than not getting one.

The Yes or the No answer given by a reader should not change anything that you yourself would like to achieve through your own strength of mind and that obstinate will to attain it.

Please do not be so unkind to your mistakes of the past. They are there to guide you for the future. They are lessons that we will keep on learning and learning until the day we stop to exist. Embrace them and be kind to yourself.

Hugs.

You two are so right.

The stupid thing is, that when I am reading someone's palm, I say exactly the same. Especially when they ask me about future events.
We create our own future, it is not written yet.  Yet, I fall in the same mistake again to doubt my future,
while I just have the choice to have faith, and be responsible to make and see the best in all Universe have given me.
I even can read my own palm to understand what is best for me...

I do know: If my mind is still, my life is still. As I find home in myself, I will find a home in life.
(even if this is a not a house)  Sometimes you get it, you feel it. And things are fine, just as they are.
Even if I don't have money, or excellent health, no house or a place I can call my own.
It is wonderful to be alive, and get to experience it all of it from the bottom of my soul.
Another time the ego comes slapping me the face, and I really getting panicked by all this troubles.

I have so much to do in live, yet so little time. All things seem so equally important, and I am trying to walk six lives at the same time,
instead of planting a tree and let one thing grow. I wish some-one could tell me what my life purpose is
and on which thing I should focus. But yet where energy goes, everything grows. So also here it also is just what I choose, want and create. The future is not written in my heart, I have to write it myself. I have no purpose> I have to make my purpose.  
I have lived a soap-life, and I am grateful for it, but I still haven't accomplished a decent society-acceptable life. House, kids etc.
Because my energy, is all over the place. It is exhausting me and I wish I could get a simple house, I could get some easy times.
Getting a house in the Netherlands is not easy. Or you have to have a lot of money (which I don't have)
Or you have to subscribe on a list and wait for 4 years. I might as well immigrate and start a new life there.

But still, I have to let go of these worries.

Eagle wind; Thank you for responding, I appreciate it very much. I indeed have speedy mind, and telling me to keep my head cool is indeed exactly what I should do.  I do know a lot of meditation techniques, also here I am walked six lives, even in meditation I can't choose one method and want to try everything! ))  I like Mantak Chia 's healing sound, inner smile and micro-orbit. I know I have to focus and then just do it.. and keep doing it. And don't get dragged with all the other things that do come along and seem so interesting also.

Cedars: Thank you. "No, I will not let you win this time! It is my turn to claim that victory." This one is really hitting me. It is time to claim my victory and life, and give myself permission to win. Thank you...



Peace, Maya

My dear Maya

Not only in the Netherlands, also in the UK. It is not easy to own a house... but the 4-year waiting list IS a possibility - one of many which I am sure you will soon realise.

Live life - the best gift you have so far.

Hugzzzzz