Dearest Peta,
First of all, it is not awful in anyone's records, they are always a comforting place to be and when I enter, I enter with God and the RecordKeepers where there is NO judgment. This is a sacred place and it is always an honor to be allowed into anyone's records. As I explained in a previous post, we are all a part of God, therefore God does not Judge us, God loves us.
So, now that we have cleared that us, lets get on with your questions.
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| * I need direction in my life. I'm grateful for my life every day but I've been wandering around, lost, for the longest time. I have regrets which I often drag along behind me and I can no longer remember why it all started in the first place. |
The RecordKeepers are concerned that you are dragging around these regrets, do you not understand that you made the best choice with the tools and information you had at the time? We all have regrets, but we must learn to look at them as a learning experience, did you not learn not to do,say or act like that again. Forgive yourself and know that it made you a much better, stronger person, you would not be the lovely individual you are today if you had not learned to regret that action.
The forgiveness prayer will assist, but you have to truly believe that you can be forgiven, you are the only one that can do that, cause God forgave you the instant you felt the regret.
If there is anyone or anything that has hurt me in the past, knowingly or unknowingly, I forgive and release it. If I have hurt anyone or anything in the past, knowingly or unknowingly, I forgive and release it. (For the highest good of others and myself).
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| *Spiritually, I'm very small. Patience and diligence would help me with this, no doubt, but what do the Record Keepers have to tell me about this area of my life? I've always wanted more, why does this seem to hurt? |
This hurts you because you are still judging yourself and have not forgiven yourself. It's like you try to listen to the spiritual realm but your conscience is butting in and screaming, you don't deserve. I don't know who told you that you were not worthy but that is not true. This stems from your childhood, I get the sense it was like a grandmother/mother figure who was so angry with the world that she wanted to hurt everything nice and beautiful and you caught the brunt of the anger. The forgiveness prayer above will assist in this as well, I sense that you need to say this prayer for 47 days, you apparently have a lot of releasing and forgiveness to do for yourself and then you forgive the others.
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| * Do my guides want to tell me anything? Or the Record Keepers? What is there from previous lives that would be helpful for me to remember? If you are able to give my guide/s a playful "poke in the ribs", please do!! And please ask them, on my behalf, to show themselves already (lol) and to please help me to learn to hear them. Are there names I may call them by? |
I think your guides have told you quite a lot, but they want you to become a little more involved in loving yourself, working on meditation and relaxation, your needing a lot of tender loving and care and they can't get through your cloud of "I don't deserve this" When you meditate place your favorite shawl/scarf around your shoulders and feel the light touch of all your guides loving you and know that you deserve this. You are such a sweet, caring individual, please work on this and know that you are loved even by your family, step back and look at how much they do love you.
Thank you so much hon for this opportunity, don't rush, this cannot be rectified overnight, it took you years to get to this point, be patient and know that you will get through the fog.
Lots of Love, Light and Laughter
MangoMom