Welcome Berty,
Thanks and no sir is necessary, but I am myself a 56 year old married man.
Is Berty male or female?
In the case if a general reading there is no need for any further information to be provided, as basically you are leaving it entirely up to the reader's inner guidance as to what is felt is most important for you to know at this time.
With respect you were hardly exaggerating when you told me that you had been going through quite a lot during the previous two years. Too much to want to discuss any of it on a public forum such as this one.
The Tarot card called
The Tower which immediately jumped out for my attention in your reading is effectively telling me that your life has been and will possibly continue to be for some time turned topsy turvy upside down on it's head. Almost everything and everyone whom you have been able to depend on up until now for both guidance and a sense of security
only appear to have left you shipwrecked or marooned on a distant shore without a paddle. Actually you have never been fully left to your own devices. You were never expected to cope with all of these things entirely by yourself without outside help as required. No man is an island in himself, and neither is any woman?
As you should be able to recognise it is hardly a coincidence that having the Tower feature in your reading is found to be a good reason for you feeling fear and anxiety by many but not all people, but unless you are willing to take the necessary calculated risks involved when starting out again on your life journey, then you could also be unintentionally missing out on the valuable opportunities your circumstances present you with at the same time. It really depends on your way of looking at or interpreting the most likely meaning of this card in terms of your own life.
Are you going to allow your understandable fears of the situation to get the better of you, and stop you from doing the best you can with the resources you have already been given, or are you alternatively going to meet the challenges placed in your path head on, with the assistance of others who are specially qualified to offer you wise advice? Are you going to sit upright in the driver's seat or more in control over what happens in your life, or are you going to remain a helpless passenger who is simply going along for the ride but not getting anywhere you wanted to go, fast?
At the same time as this card is encouraging you to begin your journey of self discovery with faith and courage as your loyal travelling companions, it is also warning you of the dangers of expecting too much of oneself too soon. You are I sense a person who prides him or herself on being able to effectively do a job perfectly the very first time which you attempt it, but most things which are worth having in this life can often only be obtained by a slowly but surely middle of the road approach.
Beating up on yourself for making some mistakes now and then (which you are supposed to learn positive lessons from, rather than you avoiding making them in the first place) is surely highly counter-productive. How are you going to learn what your full potential is while you are laying in a hospital bed or worse an early grave? So what if you have to get someone to help you when things get too complicated or on top of you? This is an important part of the lesson which you presently confronted with.
These people have been sent to you specifically for this purpose, so do not feel in the slightest guilty if you need to enlist their services or pick their brains. Do not then look a gift horse in the mouth. Only by taking on these challenges in a mature and balanced manner and making a series of conscious decisions which affirm that life is still worth living can you possibly become more aware of and further develop your many inner strengths. You are far more powerful in creating your own future than you may presently imagine you are?
Love, Light and Peace,
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