Hi there
Ive never had a reading done before and would really appreciate
one whenever someone has a bit of spare time.  

Thanx x

I was genuinely sorry to read about your father's ongoing problems with being an alcoholic, but unfortunately the road to recovery from his addiction will never be an easy one, and will be littered with deep potholes. It is I feel a testament to his own inner strength and perseverance as well as the loving support and incredible patience of his family that he has made it this far, but sometimes no matter how we want to help someone we deeply care for we do need the assistance of people more qualified than us to lend us a helping hand. As you were told in your previous request we are unable to either give your father a third party reading or comment on his health and medical issues beyond what effects we feel they could potentially have on the member whom is requesting the reading, aka you. This could not fail to have a negative impact on your own ability to cope with life's challenges, and sensing how much you love him (you love him but you hate his drinking behaviour), I know that you would constantly be doing whatever you feel you reasonably can to make things easier for everyone concerned, as well as your Dad.

The problem as I see it for you on the basis of this reading, is that your father's drinking problem has become such a major ongoing reason for concern to you, that it probably feels that you do not have much of a life left for yourself, separate from this. Indeed you may have in doing what you felt you could do in the best interests of your father lost all sense of connection with your own dreams and true Self. It is as though you have little existence independent or outside of your father's addiction, and are now in the process of attempting to backtrack and pick up on the end of the broken thread once again. You possibly have many unanswerable what if questions about what you might have done or where you would now be if your father had not had such a desire or inner need for the "demon drink", but in your case I feel that even if you could answer such questions that it would fail to bring you any closer to where you want to go - which is back on the path to answering the most important question you or I will ever be expected to which is "WHO AM I?".

What you have to realise is that while his progress is never going to be along a straight line heading upwards, you are overall a much more effective, stronger and hopefully wiser person as a result of having come through this harrowing experience with your own sanity and sense of humour still relatively intact. You are essentially a very different person from the one who was your father's little girl, and overall it is largely a positive difference. Now being that much older you will be more able to see the situation in a more balanced and mature manner and recognise that you can only help certain people if they are first themselves willing to admit that they do have a problem, and they are given whatever professional help and support that they require, before more serious and permanent damage is done to your relationship with them.

While you do need to continue to help out as best you can, you have your own life to live as you see fit to do so. While it might at first sound cold and insensitive of me to advise you to also get some of your own equally important needs met as well as those of your father (and your profile suggests that you are trying to do this), then you are not going to be of much help to anyone, least of all yourself. I feel that under his addiction he still has a great love for you as his daughter, although he is often unable to express what he feels. It is as if the drink is like an alien being which is possessing him and making him do or say things against his better judgement. He is often not himself? Your reading is saying that somehow you need to discover the best working balance for you between meeting  his needs and your own. At first he may misinterpret this as you deserting him, as he may have used his drinking in the past to keep you as dependent on him as he was on you.

This is what I believe is called a co-dependent relationship, and although unhealthy for both people it gives the addictive person a sense of comfort. I am warning you therefore that any attempt to gain greater independence from your father may be seen as an act of desertion by you, but that unfortunately I do feel it will be absolutely necessary to do this increasingly over the months ahead. That is if you want to once again feel that you are making significant forward progress with attaining your most cherished hopes and  dreams as is indicated by your life path. The next few months will continue to as always have their ups and downs, but overall as long as the general trend is up then you are probably doing about as well as can reasonably be expected, and possibly doing better than most others are.

Hoping this reading has been helpful, even if it has not come up with any absolute predictions or definite answers to your many questions,

eye_of_tiger  

Hiya

Sorry its taken me a while to reply unfortunately my youngerst son
was taken into hospital as his appendix ruptured and he had to undergo
an operation.
Can I just say thank you so much for taking the time to reply to my
request for a reading I very much appreciate your time.  Its weird
well not weird because its what you do but You are totally right with what you are saying and I realised this when my dad last relapsed.  I have learned to
take myself out of his situation and concentrate more on my own without
feeling guilty.  The co-dependancy aspect you mentioned is spot on
and I relised this when it became only me that could do certain certain things
for him in his view.
Thankyou so much as having my own instincts and thoughts backed up
by someone like yourself has made me feel much better and has made
me realise that maybe I am back on the correct path again and that I shouldnt doubt myself so much.

Thank you
In Love and Light Bx

I could not any more pleased to hear that you have found the reading to be helpful, as with due respect I feel that you deserve all the help which you can get in what is I am certain a very challenging family situation for anyone like yourself to have to endure for most of your life.

If that is how people define me as being "weird", then I take it as a great personal compliment for the work I am doing here on these MB forums. lol

Loving regards,

eye_of_tiger  

hiya
i just came back from the hospital my dad has just died im lost
i love him so much.  

thankyou for reply once again

in love, light and hope
bx