Hi Mikel
She was 9 years younger, fun and quite vibrant but she was also way too young to establish the type of relationship that you wanted from this union. In another person this age difference wouldnt be a problem, but here it is.
I feel that she will never really be a friend, she will just be a person you will run into occasionaly from time to time or for you to use as filler at parties.
The move to the city will be great for you and will become the grand adventure that you are hoping it will become . There are the usual trys and tribulations that come from this move but you will get over them quickly as work will keep you busy for the first half of the 12 months of your move.
There is a relationship coming in the next 11 months to 2 years for you and you will on have to worry about dewelling on the mistakes of past as this one is sweet .
You can cut out the negative crap that you keep doing to put your self down. you are smart and not bad looking for a male (mate i rather remote in and see women than guys ) My advice is you need to listen more in a relationship as you dont. and then use the information that you pick up to excel at what you do best.
As for the dream thing that is part sexual frustration and part relation. Just before you go to bed ask your self to not dream about her. Dream about the move, the job and what your next girl is going to look like. Mate if you could see this girl then i wouldnt be worried about dreaming about the ex .
Cheers Pete

eye of the tiger,

Don't worry I'm sorry, I knew I was asking for a fast solution in a thing that hardly has one (except if you are her of course   ) you have done a lot to help me and I really appreciate it, I'm sure with time and other relationships even if only sexual ones I'll recover my self steem and be stronger than before, I just wanted to boost the recuperation, that's all.

About that book, I don't use it anymore and I think a lot of their readers have become some sort of "brainwashed" zombies which is something I don't want to become at all. I know that with time I will remember only the great things that happened in this relationship, that believe me overcome the bad ones by a huge distance, and will be grateful for the great time I had with this person, no matter how much I have suffered I still believe that the sentence: "It's better to have love and lost than never have loved at all." is very true.

I'm sure I'll rise from my ashes if she could do it I'll also be capable of that.

Pete,

Thanks a lot for the reading and your compliments  

Actually a girl asked me to dance tonight and it was quite funny even if nothing serious happened so I guess things are starting to get better.

About the reading, well I think you are quite right, you know?
I never really blamed her for doing what she did, I really understand that she was young, she met some interesting people and...well, she realized I was "expendable" if she wanted to live her life to the maximum, actually she was quite honest with me. I have never been so happy as what I have been these 2 years with her but I know that's what I got from that relationship and that's what there is and it ¡s much better than what I had before the relationship.

I'm very happy to see such a good future there and another good relationship materialising, I'll try not to screw as many things up as I did in the previous one this time.

Thanks for the advice of cutting out the negativity, I guess I have been a bit masochist lately and about the dream thing is she really that good looking? You are putting my expectations quite high   .

P.S.: Just reading again this sentence brought me a doubt : "There are the usual trys and tribulations that come from this move but you will get over them quickly as work will keep you busy for the first half of the 12 months of your move." When you say the 12 months of your move, do you mean I only will stay in that city 12 months?

Sorry for asking too much things I guess I'm too curious about some details but I can't help it.

Best wishes and love to all!