I think we are all puzzled spiritually at one time or another? I replied to your post on the other forum, but I see that no-one has replied here so I thought I would
You are so young, I would love to be 20 again, at least I think I would? A time when the future stretches far away ahead of you and it seems impossible to decide what to do or which path to take. Every day has another crossroads and each crossroads many different roads, but which to take? The best and only way really is to make a decision rather than stay still. Even if you stay still the rest of the world moves on and changes, people grow older and days begin and end. And so we make decisions or rather we take decisions and go one way or another. But you are undecided and so to me that might be saying that you need to hedge your bets and take a small road that perhaps has easy places to turn round or side turnings that will lead back to the crossroads rather than taking the express motorway with no U turns allowed, no stopping, and a set speed limit. That way you can change your mind and not feel committed or hemmed in by others forcing your decision, locking you into one set way of life or one direction.
You can always say you aren't ready or that you want to wait, failing that you can always say no, and then you will find that sooner or later the decisions are easy to make because they are exactly what you want
Many blessings