I'm going through a lot of bad luck right now. I feel like I'm losing everything that means a lot to me. Even though I have a family, we're not close. I can't talk to them and except them to understand because they never do. They don't think like me.

I don't believe I'm going to get married in the future. In my dreams, I went through everything a woman can go through with a man. Somehow, in those dreams, I fell in love with him, and I can't see myself marrying someone else. If I'm supposed to live together with a guy, I could probably do that, but I can't even think of having sex with any guy. Every time I try to picture it, I see the guy from those dreams grinning at me. If I try to imagine someone else, I get repulsed. I don't think that guy in those dreams exists because it feels like it's too good to be true.

I plan on living alone no matter how sad and lonely that sounds. Right now, the only thing that means anything to me is my career. After coming to college, I realized what I wanted to be. I fell in love with this career, and for that career, I need to major in Business in my university. I feel like I'll never get in because my GPA is kind of low. I've been getting sick so many times with ulcers, tendinitis, and inflammation of my jaws. I can't sleep or eat normally. I'm too scared I might lose this too. I lost so much already. I can't lose this too.

I really need someone to look into the future or something to tell me that it'll be all right or anything.

I think this is all the information you need. If you need more, please tell me. Thanks for helping me.

Name: Monica
Place of Birth: Trichinopoly, Tamil Nadu, India
Time of Birth: 12:05 PM
Date of Birth: June 28, 1990.

Once again, thanks for the help. I really appreciate it. :D

I have two children. Their father has gone for 7 years.
I thought I will stay all my life alone. Then I fell in love with a man. His parents do not accept me.
I will never get married. I will never see his family.
We shall avoid being seen togother.

But I am in love, so I do not care about all that.
I only care of him.

Good luck.

What about your children? I'm they still need and love you. I'm sorry for your loss. I hope your life gets better.

I accept the fact that I'll be alone. Once I sleep with a man, that's it. I can't do it with anyone else. Even though I haven't slept with anyone, I've seen myself with him. I can't accept anyone else. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I think it wasn't meant to be in my case. As I said before, my career means everything to me. I lost everything else. This is all I have, and I don't know what I would do if I lose this too.

By the way, here's a picture of me if you need one.

Thanks for the reading! I really appreciate it. It might make me stop worrying about my career.

It might be big. Sorry, I don't have a good program to cut and resize pictures.

Once again, thank you so much.

Edit: I don't feel safe keeping my picture online for too long.

Hi Izuno, you are only 17, it is crazy to start making such sweeping statements such as you have. I know that at 17 you may think that you know it all, I know my teenage children think that lol, but you are so so young and things will change. You have your whole life ahead of you, please don't restrict your options on the basis of a dream or two, no matter how real or perfect they seem. At your age the mind and body and soul is developing and in the subconscious world feelings will be heightened and feel more sensuous and sexual. You are worth far more than that, no matter what you think now you will have plenty of opportunities and situations that will open you up to other possibilites. You are very pretty and I am sure that many will find you very attractive and want to be with you. Please don't pre-judge your whole life by these scant few years. Get a health check to put your mind at rest first, then make sure you exercise and eat well and get enough rest, relaxation and fun.

Decide what you want to do as a career and then start on that route, you can always change them at a later date, just don't think anything is set in stone, it truly isn't, you can change and if you think more positively then you will soon see better results