But wherever you may go you are I feel still going to need some form of counselling. Even if you leave India completely and assume that your marriage is well and truly over the problems with your low self confidence and your feelings of guilt will go with you. The people in the USA may not know who you are are and what wrong you believe you have committed, but you will. While it must always remain your decision whether or not to stay in India, you cannot escape these troubling thoughts which will continue to eat away at you until you can do something about them. Only a professionally qualified person (which we are not) could sort out for you what actually happened within your marriage, as what appears on the surface could be very different from what really did.

I understand that you are frightened for his welfare, but without first doing some of your own healing, you are not going to be of any use to anybody, least of all yourself. There is no way that any psychic reader (no matter how aware of and sensitive to your pain) can predict what he will do if you do get some therapy and begin to realise that he must also accept some responsibility as well for the breakup. To promise you that he will come rushing back to you once some of your own issues have been resolved would be cruel of me as I just cannot read him directly.

On the other hand if I tell you that there is no hope of you ever getting back together, what motivation are you going to feel to seek help for yourself? With due respect I feel that you owe it to yourself to at least leave the possibility open that once you do receive some professional help that he might possibly react to you in a much more positive manner because you are no longer wanting to constantly overprotect him (as you admit that you were feeling almost paranoiac about his safety). His male pride will not allow that to continue?

There is not I feel anything which I or any psychic reader can do for you at present with regard to calming your fears and helping you to get your life back on track through fortune telling, whether you remain in India or move to the United States. We recognise our own limitations when it comes to offering marriage guidance or personal counselling, and accordingly we feel that the best course of action is to refer you on to somebody who is better qualified to give you the type of help you richly deserve  in your local area.

Contents of conversations between you and your counsellor or therapist remain confidential. Nobody else needs to know that you are seeking such help, unless you want them to. Even if they did find out that you are actively doing something in order to help yourself, would this be such a crime? I would see this as a positive step towards your eventual freedom from these doubts and fears which are presently holding you back. We only want what we feel is in your best interests, and we do not feel that making any predictions is going to make things any easier for you. As I explained above, they could possibly make things that much more difficult for you, which is the exact opposite to our intentions not to do you further harm.

I wish you good health and increased happiness in the future, and thank you sincerely for allowing me to share at least this small part of your healing journey with you.

God Bless,

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thanks a lot...u have been great