Hello again Katie,
You are very welcome for the message but I would like to take what I said to you a little further than was possible in a private message (this time on the open forum), and perhaps answer some of your questions as well in the process.
With this in mind I will copy below what I said in my PM, minus the personal parts which will remain confidential between us.
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I am so deeply moved by what you have written, that I feel that something else is needed other than a basic psychic reading in your situation. I am not a trained medium, but I believe that I may still be a part of your solution.
There is I sense a deeper spiritual connection building up around you as we speak. As if someone is watching over and protecting you, as well as wanting to communicate with you concerning the real reasons why your life has followed this particular path up to this stage.
Two things I can tell you with absolute certainty are that this set of circumstances is not due to any failure on your part, and that you are not alone in feeling that you are currently underemployed with reference to using the significant artistic abilities you have been blessed with.
Do not panic, as your fears and doubts have been heard loud and clear by your loved ones and helpers still living on Earth, and those now on the higher side of life.
Love, Light and Healing,
eye_of_tiger |
And now onwards to the points from your response that I feel require me to make further comments, again minus the more personal parts.
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| Most recently I have been trying to connect to my spiritual side, and I’ve been begging for guidance from my guides and God. So far no luck. I hope your right about someone watching over me, because it sometimes it feels like no one does. |
Perhaps you are looking for an answer to your many questions from above in the form of a booming voice or a flash of light, when much more subtle signs are all around you that your calls for help have already been answered. It is precisely because of the fact that I believed we have so much in common that I felt such a deep sense of empathy with your situation, and I believe that God and our guides are using me as a means of getting the messages through to you now. Because you are feeling so isolated from life and those around you buried deep within your own thoughts it is very difficult for the answers to your prayers to get through, and even if they were heard your mind is very likely to distort them or totally ignore them because you do not yourself feel worthy of receiving a reply.
In other words, your mind is selectively acting as your own worst enemy, while you are surrounded by caring friends who would do whatever is needed to help you if they could only get through the walls you have unintentionally built up around you. I know exactly what it is like
to feel that you are always an imposter (when you are the genuine article). I am telling you this not to make you feel even more down on yourself than you presently are, but to explain why you may feel that nobody cares or wants to help. You are so spiritually sensitive that it is perfectly natural for you to feel a little different and strange compared to other people, which is why I feel that you were lead to this place to get the help you need at this particular time in your life. There are many people here dealing with both their psychic abilities as well as emotional problems. Unfortunately psychic development and emotional difficulties often seem to go hand in hand. This is a safe environment where you can come to meet people who share much in common with you, and where you know that you will be listened to with compassion and without judgement.
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| That’s why I’ve been seeking some psychic advice or insight, to get some answers. I’ve had a tarot card reading about 4 or 5 years ago, and a palm reading years before that. Now I’m trying to do tarot card readings for myself. |
Trying to do Tarot readings for yourself, especially in your current low emotional state, is very likely to be totally ineffective. The reason for this is not that you are lacking in ability, but it is because you are too close to or too emotionally involved with it's outcome to be able to be able to clearly read the messages it contains. That is why Tarot readers often consult other Tarot readers when they are looking for a more personal reading, either for themselves or alternately for someone close to them. While I cannot stop you as I have no right to decide what is and what is not in your best interests could I please suggest that on your especially bad days that you should temporarily refrain from any psychic activities including doing readings? When your thoughts are getting dark it is very important to find a sense of balance in your life by learning to ground yourself.
Get out of the house if possible and do some activity which makes you feel more centred within yourself and takes your head out of the clouds. Being near the sea is often just as valuable an aid to relaxing your troubled nerves than forcing yourself to meditate indoors in an uncomfortable position. Get your hands dirty, or get wet (swimming, take a soothing shower or bubble bath).
Any advice that I can offer you through a reading must always be combined with you getting treatment and advice from a qualified medical practitioner. It is encouraging to me that you are continuing to reach out for help when you feel it is needed. This is never to be seen as a sign of weakness. It is one of the most positive signs that you are committed to getting better. Giving up completely is not an option. I therefore greatly admire and respect the courage it must have taken for you to admit some of the deeply personal things you told me as effectively a complete stranger, and I feel deeply humbled that somebody up there has chosen me to pass on these messages to you with the same true spirit of love with which they were sent.
Your repeated calls for help have been definitely heard and carefully noted by at least one of your family members who has passed over before you, and who now wants you to know once and for all that he or she cares very much what is happening in your life, and that this is the beginning of your healing. One of my greatest allies in my personal battle against depression is my sense of humour. I know that this can often be difficult, but laughing at yourself and the sheer ridiculousness of life at times is often exactly what your inner doctor prescribes as a powerful medicine to make these negative restricting thoughts go away, to be quickly replaced by much more positive and life affirming ones. Welcome then my friend to the second and best half of your life!!!!!
Love, Light and Healing from your new Aussie friend,
eye_of_tiger
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