As your relationship issues seem to be made that much more complicated by your ex, who seems to want to have his cake and eat it too by moving from one woman to another without any warning, I will focus my efforts this month on considering an alternative career direction for you.

Your reading however tells me that whatever career direction you do take, it will still involve either taking care of or teaching other people's children. From what I am sensing it was not the children themselves who were causing you the most concern, but rather it was friction between yourself and the other employees. To be completely honest with you when you said that you did not feel as though this was the job for you I was told that you will never be truly happy or feel such a deep level of satisfaction in any other type of job than in this one. It is that taking care and instructing other people's children is so consistent with your life purpose as  see it, that nothing else is going to really fit the bill when it comes to making you feel that you are contributing to the next generation. With due respect I feel that your own longing to become a mother and the rocky road which your closest relationships have taken have conspired together to make your need to be a mother to anybody else's children that much more urgent than it otherwise would have been if you already had your own. Your strong maternal urge to watch over and protect children will simply not allow you to put this calling rather than career aside and work at something completely different that does not involve children.

The only other way I feel would be to seek professional qualifications as an assistant teacher or to ultimately work in a child health centre. I do not know whether working with children in crisis involved you having such qualifications or whether this was in a semi voluntary capacity, but it could have been the the highly emotionally charged atmosphere where you were working before you quit that overloaded your sensitivity, and thereby made you ineffective in that particular job as you were so stressed out by that time and cared too much about the children in your care, rather than it being a case of you not caring enough.

The focus card for your reading the Four of Pentacles suggests that the income that you can expect to receive from this type of job is nothing especially to write home about (underpaid), but that if you were only in this for the money that there would be many other jobs that would provide you with a much bigger weekly or fortnightly pay packet. To have both a personally satisfying career as well as an adequate income for your needs is going to require you to make some sacrifices and compromises in other areas of your life at the same time, but if you resist this need to change then I do feel that going ahead with this will be largely an uphill battle of major proportions. While it might seem easier to you in the short term to forget about children and do some other job where you are not in daily contact with your clients and customers, in the end I feel that it will eventually come full circle and bite you squarely in the behind.

If you do decide to turn your back on what I believe is an important part of your reason for being here, I sense that it will take much more than a larger income to make you feel that you are once more going with the flow of your life, instead of furiously swimming against it's currents. I am sincerely sorry that I cannot provide you with a graceful way to escape your need to be a "mother" to other people's children, hopefully to practise skills which will be a distinct advantage if you ever have your own. I feel that your current general career direction of taking care of and instructing other people's children is the correct one. It is only I think the finer details of how to best go about satisfying your need to mother children, which requires deeper consideration.

Hoping that these insights have been of some help and comfort to you, although I will understand it if you feel more than a little disappointed with the messages coming through me on your behalf (this was probably not what you wanted to be told at this time),

L&L,

eye_of_tiger

Thank you eye of a tiger!!!!
This was a great reading I loved it and I totally understand everything you got from me lol.
Yes your right about the part where you said "friction between yourself and the other employees", that was sooo dead on!
I actually was thinking about the children there today, and was remembering the one childs birthday that was coming up, it did bring me to an emotional state that I wish I was there working still. However I would never want to work under friction again from the other employees. I did find the job exciting and interesting though and I loved what I was doing.
The children I was working with was children that had gone to these facilities and had no family and I was a daily reporter of their behavior and daily task which they did on a routine base, I spent numurous hours with them. Although the stress did get to me all at once, with the other employees abusing, and with my life and how it was going, that I blew up and said ^%(* it to the job. Because no one was handing in my abuse reports and conflict started...
Your so right about the mother thing lol.... When I first started working I was like can I adopt out of these facilities? lol The worse thing I did was attached myself to them, because I had lived a similar life like these pre-teens had, and I understood thier pain having to go into a facility and stay and having no home to call home, and having foster family after foster family dump them off at the facility doors.....
Anyways the reading is what I expected to get! And I'm thankful that you had the chance to read me. I do think and know this kind of job is for me, I enjoy it, it's been the best I've had...Besides Warehouse, and construction lol.I'm not in it for the money, just the experience.....

No nasty surprises or unexpected shocks then?

Now I can better understand why you often care too much about the children who are under your supervision and care.

You have so much in common with them from your own upbringing?

It also explains why you would potentially be so effective in being able to help the kids and teens with their own difficulties, if only you could find a better working environment with regards to other staff to work with.

It was both my pleasure and privilege to give you this reading, and I really do hope that things eventually work out for you as to finding suitable employment, while still working closely with children in a healing capacity at a very practical level (one of your main life purposes).

Namaste,

eye_of_tiger