Hello Irene,
The operative word in your question appears to be
again.
I get a definite sense with your reading that you might have already had some negative experiences when it comes to your relationships with men, and that you therefore understandably do not want to have your deepest feelings hurt like that ever again. I do not know how long it has been since you last had a relatively steady relationship but with due respect I feel that you deserve to receive much better treatment from your next partner than you have from any previous ones.
In fact, I sense that your own badly bruised feelings of low self worth and lack of confidence in what your instincts are telling you are at the very heart of the difficulties you are now experiencing when looking for a more suitable partner. Unless these significantly change then I believe that you will continue to unintentionally attract the wrong sort of man for you over and over again, with each time it happens causing your self esteem to fall even further.
This should not be seen as yet another excuse for you to be hard on yourself and to begin to feel that you are somehow destined to live the rest of your life alone (so cool it), for once the problem has been identified, the solution becomes much more obvious. You seem to have a largely unspoken belief that it is entirely your fault that no man currently finds you attractive, when you are in reality putting out unconscious mixed signals about whether you yourself feel worthy of being loved, with which most men will only tend to agree and react accordingly.
On the basis of this reading I feel that there are positive and practical steps you can take over the next six months or so to greatly increase your chances of enjoying a much happier type of relationship than you have up until now, rather than me attempting to make any actual predictions, or putting a number to it. By doing whatever you can to increase your own feelings of self worth while waiting for him to enter your life, much of the love and happiness which has so far eluded you will I feel be your life's greatest reward.
Rather than this person being someone who you once knew, or perhaps someone with whom you have previously had a failed relationship (this does not automatically make you a failure as well), I sense that he is much more likely to not be amongst any of your past acquaintances. When you begin to feel better about and within yourself you will start attracting a completely different type of man from those who pursued you when you were feeling needlessly guilty and beating up on yourself for reasons which were never within your control.
Sorry that I cannot be more definite in making a prediction about what will or will not happen over the coming months, but my main interest is to offer you insights which I believe will significantly increase your chances of a much happier and loving future, sooner rather than much later.
Loving regards,
eye_of_tiger
