Hi Sari,
While I do understand that your feelings of loneliness are really getting to you and you do not appear to believe that you are lovable, is it really the case that nothing at all in your life as a whole is going right at this point in time? If you are not already within a reasonably steady relationship by now, I feel that it is highly unlikely that you will meet the right man for you, fall in love with him then marry him all in the space of the next six months or so.
You seem to regard getting married and moving out and getting a job as exclusive from one another. In other words, you seem to feel that by doing one you are cutting off any opportunities in the future of the other. I hasten to disagree with this belief, as your reading strongly suggests to me that the huge boost in self confidence that moving out and getting a new job would I believe give you would also at the same time greatly increase your chances of finding the love of your life.
Once you have met that special man (and I believe that this will eventually happen) and because you are already much more financially secure through your job and are a much stronger and more self confident person as a result of no longer being long term unemployed (or underemployed), then I feel that nature should then be allowed to follow it's almost inevitable course to a proposal of marriage.
Your date of birth of the 11th of September, 1978 translates using numerology to you having a Life Path Number of NINE.
1+1+9+1+9+7+8=36 3+6=
9
Those on the number 9 Life path are destined to travel a humanitarian path. These individuals make great diplomats, environmentalists, veterinarians, teachers, judges, social workers, nuns, priests and healers.
While you may not necessarily become wealthy and famous or make a major impact on the world stage, your great love for your fellow human beings will be evident from the type of job that you eventually choose to do. You will be a big fish in a smaller pond, or make a significant positive contribution through the type of work you will be doing to the lives of many people also living in your local area.
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| will i get married in the next few months? |
Highly unlikely. But this does not mean that it will never happen.
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| will i move out and get a job? |
(also within the next six months?)
Probably also not within the next six months, but you can take more control over your life, and build a firm foundation on which to build later. If necessary, seek the assistance of a professional career advisor to best match your work qualifications and skills to the types of jobs you are looking for, and their relative availability in your local area. You may need to accept a job at first that is not quite what you hoped for, in order to get your foot firmly in the front door of the company which you hope to eventually work for later?
I see you as being much more likely to find a man and hopefully get married once you are feeling more secure in a job which you feel is consistent with your life purpose (to serve your fellow human beings to the very best of your ability). The extra money that the job will provide will also be very welcome when it comes to you deciding whether and where to live together with him.
Namaste,
eye_of_tiger
