I am requesting a reading about my love life.  I have been married for 15 years but feel my partner does not fulfill me spiritually, there is something missing.  He is an incredibly kind and loving man but every day I feel a disconnect and yearning that I cannot describe.  Over the past year or so I have felt a change within myself, an awakening and a sense that I need to free my soul.  This feeling seems to take me away from him even more, we have never been compatible on many levels. But I love him, and he loves me desperately.  I have also had a strong need to go out and connect with people, during that time I met someone.  I don't know if the feelings I have for him are real or not.  I think I could love this other man and I feel horrible guilt and shame for letting my heart feel something for him.

Please help.

Wow, you are one energetic person! Your aura is glowing, you have taken on a sudden burst of energy, what have you been doing, who have you been near. I can see that when you walk past streetlights they feel inadequate and try and brighten to follow your light. You are searching for your soul mate aren't you? Sometimes your soul mate is not who you expect, sometimes we feel so unfulfilled that we cannot link into our partners instead we turn elsewhere. Sometimes it is online, other times it is the real physical exchange of energy that will only succour us. But don't let passion and fire rule your heart and soul, that is momentary and not lasting.

Be careful, take it slow, and also try spending special time with your partner, I feel he has hidden depths and is unwilling to trust you completely. Perhaps he has seen or felt something here?

There are many routes to spiritual enlightenment, and talking and explaining and helping your partner to feel this will help your relationship to grow and endure the rough times, use crystals and massage and candles and visualisations to get in touch. Don't give up on him yet, I feel he is the more powerful soul Reach and dig untill he trusts you enough to open up

Your story is not unique and of such important character that only you have to find the answer within you.

I might help by asking you some question, and give some thoughts, and I recommend that you think it true in a calm situation.

First of all...try to think back when you first fall in love with your husband....is those feelings you felt then much worse then what you feel for the new one?

You have now lived with your husband for 15 years, you both still love each other, and since it has been so a long time...I assume you both also respect each other, else no love would last.

When 2 people join together, then it is 2 free wills that have to find a golden way between ones own demand and the couples demand, you know how your husband deal with this....you don't know how a new one will...is your situation so bad that any improvement in one field will be enough to get a richer life, are you sure he will have the same qualities that you like in your husband?

You are saying your husband don't fulfill you spiritually.
When 2 people have lived together for 15 years, then it might start to be a humdrum everyday occasion.
If feelings of "defeat" or lack of excitement is allowed to grow, then those feelings will soon destroy a good marriage.
It is in both interest that such feelings are "killed" as soon as possible...and the only way I think you can manage it is to take a discussion with your husband.
Put up things that you want him to change, be honest and calm...be also fair and ask him what he want you to change...try to get excitement back into your life.
You are both still young, and if you both love each other, well then the marriage is worth fighting for, but one need to take initiative and not only let it die.

The fact that you have met someone else and feel that you can love him are no surprise.
If your day feel to be dull, well then any situation that can give excitement will lead to thoughts about a better life....but sorry to say....they will also be corroded by time and again we will change into this old habit of "dullness"

I wish you good luck with your decision!

Sometimes no person can fill this void, no matter how much one wishes it to be so. Sometimes we search and search for this thing we feel is missing, and then we realize it's not within any one person. It's not the connection to a person that one seeks, but a connection to a greater truth than ourselves. Love and lust are interesting things. One of them fulfills and is everlasting. The other just gets our jollies off.

"First of all...try to think back when you first fall in love with your husband....is those feelings you felt then much worse then what you feel for the new one? "

That is a great question.  When I fell in love with my husband it was an overwhelming sense that I needed to be with this man, it came from somewhere I didn't understand, but it was real.  (I was also real young). And with the other man I have forged an intellectual connection, we have shared interests and philosophies and it fulfills a part of me that my husband never could. My husbands love has allowed me to flourish and find myself, the tragic irony is that I may have found that now, at this point in our journey, we are not compatible anymore.

Thank you all for your help.