My name is Janet, I'm new to this forum and I hope I can become part of it.  I have never done a reading over the internet before but after reading some of the posts i am curious to see if it would work for me.  I am very thankful for the life God has given me.  I have a successful career and I have good health.   I am away from friends and family and have been for years. I have never felt lonelier.  I wish to have my own family and was wondering if that is something in my near future. I haven't had a relationship in a long time.  Someone from my past recently came back to my life and I was wondering if that person was right for me.

Hi Janet,

I have not given a reading other than over the internet, so I really have nothing to compare it with. Whether or not you believe a reading has been successful or worthwhile depends largely on the way in which you view it (success or otherwise is purely relative or subjective). You do not need me to either confirm that you are feeling terribly lonely, or to explain the reasons why you are feeling so alone (away from friends and family and have been for years), but I sense that you are hoping that after all these years of waiting that the right man for you has finally come into your life.

You have may I say a very positive attitude towards your life in general, and are deeply grateful for all the blessings which you have been given, but so far life's greatest blessing love has eluded you. Your age must also be a factor in making you feel that you are in danger of being left behind permanently on the shelf when it comes to enjoying a relatively happy and long term relationship with any man, not the least with this man from your past who has so recently come back upon the scene.

Not only do I feel that you are badly in need of some romance to warm your heart, but I also feel that you are looking for a best friend and life companion as well, with the intention to share your most cherished hopes and dreams with him. Understandably after previous failed relationships and with nobody to hold you in his arms and tell you how much he loves you, your feelings of self confidence must be presently at an all time low. Even if you were given the opportunity to discover if a man was right for you, I sense that you could tend to hold yourself back as you may have the unconscious belief that you are no longer worthy of his love. In other words, I feel that while your thoughts are largely of a positive nature, your unconscious mind has become your own worst enemy through no fault of your own.

It may presently be putting out less than subtle messages that you do not believe you are ready for another relationship yet, even though this is what you most desire at the moment. No wonder then that any man you meet is receiving mixed signals from you, as your words and actions may be the complete opposite of each other. On one hand you tell him that you want him more than anything else, but on the other the way in which you speak about yourself seems to be saying that he is too good for you, and that he should therefore look elsewhere for love.

When I asked the cards specifically if this man from your past could possibly be the right man for you (I cannot be absolutely certain either way because there are so many factors, many of them still unknown, which could potentially affect the outcome), I was given the King of Wands. This suggests to me that you are no longer willing to leave this or any future relationship entirely to chance, and that you are taking command of the situation and are standing up for your own rights in deciding who is your ideal partner. In the past I sense that you have had a distinct feeling that it is always the man who has judged you, and your opinion of him was not important. Almost as though you felt you were constantly on probation, and found to be wanting.

The King of Wands is telling me that this old attitude of leaving it entirely to the man to decide what is in your best interests as a couple is outdated, and that while you should not argue for the sake of it, that you must ensure that your own opinions and ideas are being heard loud and clear, and seriously considered on their relative merits. Whether or not this relationship will work under your own terms and not always his is therefore difficult to predict as you are by the decisions you make in the present moment creating and remoulding your personal future (including with reference to matters of the heart), as I speak. Don't allow this man from your past to always boss you around, as he will if you continue to give him permission to do so, by not speaking up for yourself whenever you feel that this is necessary.

Wishing you both good health and lasting happiness,

eye_of_tiger

I don't know if you got my thanks.  But I wanted to thank for such an accurate and beautiful reading.  Thanks for taking the time to answer my question and for giving me guidance.  I am very happy to have found this forum.