I am requesting an Akashic Record reading because I can't seem to make sense of my life and the direction its heading. I need very much to be told what is next. I have suffered emotional and life altering destruction at the hands of others....for which there was no reason. The last seven years have almost killed me....When hope leaves so does the will to live....I made it through but now....Im lost. Please help me understand which way to go, what i should study and do, and most of all....why unrequited love entered....I fell in love with someone who will not talk to me. I really would like some answers.....I feel as if I'm stranded with no way home.

Thanks

I would be honored to do a reading for you.  Please PM your full name and post your specific questions on this thread

Love, Light and Laugther
MangoMom

Why was I meant to suffer so much in my youth...almost as if it was taken away from me?
Why do I feel so bound by God, and after completing fulfilling my promises to him, he allowed evil men to destroy my life?
Why did I fall in love with someone whom I don't really know, and whom will not speak to me? How do I win her heart?
What should I be studying and or doing right know? My intuitive nature seems to be growing and I want to be preapred for whatever purpose I am made for?
How do I find stability?

Hi Wisdomseeker



You suffered due to choices you made hon, you are a much stronger person because of this suffering, the youth gave hope to others to see such a wise young man that could overcome such tradegies.




God did not do anything, you put yourself in their path.  You had an opportunity to get out of the way and felt this was something you had to stand up for.  Don't blame God, he only loves, never punishes.  You have to think of God as a parent, what loving parent would ever put their child in harms way.  The parent loves their child no matter what.  That child could never do anything to stop the parent from loving him.  Who gave you the strength to overcome that evil, you are still alive and able to talk about it.  You have gained awesome respect from many to know that you have done this.  Your ego was in the way, put it behind you and bring forth that humility.  You can be humble without being humiliated.  Take yourself out of the path, it's done, over, not worth you proving anything, they have proved to others that they do not deserve respect.  




Hon you chose a very difficult life, not sure why you wanted it to be so difficult.  She is a beautiful lady on the outside, but her heart is made of brick.  She loves no one but herself, money and adoration from others.  There is no way you could ever see love from this woman.  There is one who loves you so deeply, she cries each night wanting you to see her.  She has always been your friend through thick and thin.  Open your eyes to this awesome, caring lady.  She is the love you are looking for, stop looking at those who are only beautiful on the outside.  




You should check out the medium studies on this forum, Spiritalk is a very wise individual that has helped so very many.  You will understand your intuitive nature better, just have not been able to apply it to yourself, only others.  All of us are here to learn and experience life, that is our main purpose, to appreciate it we must share our love and our gifts.  

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Stability is an elusive character.  You can attain a semblance of stability when you quit looking at everything around you with envy.  You have everything you have ever needed, God has always been there to get you through the terrible times, God has sent the people you needed at the time you needed them.  You have not starved, you have not been without a place to lay your head, make a gratitude list, it will amaze you.

You will have an awesome year in 2008, you will become much stronger in your integrity and your direction.  You have struggled and it has been hard, but you will be on a much better plane this year due to the knowledge you will obtain from many sources, especially your guide, who is an egyptian soldier named Rainey.  Do your meditations and let him guide.

May God Bless you and Yours
MangoMom

Thank you for your reading....