Hello Mango Mom, I sent you a message, hopefully you seen it...If not I can repost it here on this thread...the purpose was asking for a reading(akashic -spelling).

oNe LoVe
sHaRu

First I have to say is, I am very thankful to see your readings for others here on this forum. Especially for the man that you just recently read for. He was talking on the lines of confusion about his sexual orientation.

I really, really was fascinated with your reply s because it is relevant to my challenges in my life. I to have somewhat the same trials that that man was expressing, however mine is more on the ACT of sex. I'm very comfortable with women, and I love them ALOT ,ALOT  ALOT  ALOT. Their is something mystical about them. However, when it comes to the actual expressing my love physically I kind of panic. Truthfully, I feel its just my perspectives on things. Basically I believe the way I have to deal with this, is just to accept it, recognize it needs work and slowly but surely deal with it....

I believe that dealing with this certain perspective in life will drastically change my life for the better, and move on to what actually NEEDS to BE DONE. I believe my destiny is being delayed, because of my choices and possibly near future events to take place. When these have been acted upon in our world. Then I believe my path will come upon me...What I am doing now is self developing to become ready for this moment. I CANT WAIT.

What I wanted to ask you was for your guidance and reading. Basically an outlook on what comes to you. I didn't really want to tell you everything that I just did, because I thought it would be better, that you start off by what comes to mind. But I guess I'll go with this...

As of right now...something is influencing me extremely...Like it was a couple years back 17yrs old to 19..Self Development phase. Um my intuition has gotten back on track, and also my great relationships emotionally with women has also improved like it was in my old self development phase. I cant stop staying awake and reading and writing..it's like as if I know that it needs to be done, and to allow myself to be vulnerable to others...

As for the negatives about myself....(possibly negative from others views)

I tend to be way over board optimistic...(I truthly dont see it as negative, but w/e)

Um I tend to take my role in life very serious...(Their is reasons, things need to be done, and if I dont get ready for them...I feel I'm the guy for the job....

Ah, I can be unrealistic at times...I dont really have examples...

Tend to procrastinate, UNLESS, Their is a higher reason (higher good)  for which I need to take action.......

So I guess you could say I tend to be reactive rather then active. Things happen and because of this I adapt to them, to help myself and others in my society or group of friends.

If you would like to ask any other questions please feel free.

Oh and as for you, not knowing me, I think that should change, I feel you have alot to offer. And I do as well to you (about life in general)

So I propose that this be like an introduction to our future friendship (communication via the internet)

Thank you,

oNe LoVe
sHaRu

oh and if you need the birth time etc...here it is

March 10th 1986 at 14:33 (2:33 PM) in Falls Church Virginia.

I didnt research to much as I should have so I dont know if I possibly need to give this to you or not. Maybe you might look to astrology for info as well.

Sha,

My deepest apologies.  I read your message, responded that I need your full name, if you will send that to me through Private Message.  I guess my response is out in la la la land, like my mind is sometimes.    

I would be honored to do a reading for you as soon as you provide that information.

Love, Light and Laugther
MangoMom

MY FULL NAME THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME AT BIRTH: Matthew Scott Jalayer
What most know me by from work, school etc. : Matthew Jalayer
What I call my self : sHaRu JaLaYeR

My intuition tells me its the 1st that you need

Hello Sha,

I have receive your request and have opened your records and will attempt to answer your questions as best I can.



Well, hon, this is rather tragic.  In a previous life time you were a slave to an egyptian nobleperson.  During the act of sex if you reached a climax while in the throes of the intercourse you were severly punished.  That is where the fear comes from.  This is no longer the case, but we sometimes bring such memories with us through other lifetimes.  You have always experienced this, poor baby, I am so sorry this has tortured you for so long.  It has made you wonder if you were gay, but you were not comfortable with that as well.  I want you to say the releasing prayer for the next 22 days:

PRAYER FOR RELEASING OUTSIDE INFLUENCES

If what I am experiencing is not mine, may God have His shield of love around me and I release whatever it may be to Him (For the highest good of others and myself).



You are on the right track, but you have allowed obsession to push you harder than you should.  You need to take time for your body and mind to relax and remain healthy.  Meditation will assist, but scheduling your time better is very important.  The Self Development is very good, but you need to spend more time with people.  A major part of our purpose is to experience, that is people, emotions, Gods Miracles, etc.  Take time to take walks, look at nature, learn the different characteristics of people.  Reading and writing is not everything, it is a small part.

You have been placing expectations on yourself and others and have been greatly disappointed, stop doing this.  Just accept those things and let it happen at a much slower pace.  Learning patience is one of you major lessons.



Understand that anything that needs action is for a higher reason, those actions will help you learn something new.  There again is another reason for the lesson in patience.  i.e., you hate to fill out forms, there is a reason for completing those blanks, look at them as a part of your life completion.  Be prepared.



You will begin to have so many more friends in a very short time, if it hasn't already begun.  You are such an intelligent person and such a joy to be around, just be careful about discussions on your spirituality, many do not believe the way you do and you tend to try to convince them.  The greatest lesson for them would be for you to teach them by example.

May God send you all the Blessings he has in store for you and I look forward to a great friendship with you.

Love, Light and Laugther
MangoMom