I have to express my gratitude towards you, MangoMom. I am very thankful you took some time to help me out with certain situations that I may be encountering. Your reading can be very enlightening if the subject takes time to look into what you have expressed, just like the TIME you put into the Reading and interpreting.

Now as for my clarifications and just overall response to your reading:



Yes you are right about this being quite tragic when seen at the bigger picture. But I also look at it as being rather interesting. I went from being a Egyptian Slave to a half Palestinian intellectual . What did I do to receive a better play of cards?



As for this I have to say whoa. This really can help fulfill the void in my life to understand the unconscious anxieties that have built up inside of me... This will heal some wounds, I believe if taken into consideration appropriately.



Every time I reread this my heart feels so warm from you. You dont know how much feelings come about when you express your warmth and consideration to me. It definitely shows me a side that I can learn from. I say this in response to the way you told me to lead through example rather then convincing people.



This is very true, and it saddens me to question things like that. To experience major conflicts such as being attracted to women yet still on the lower levels wondering why I can not engage (confusion of sexuality). But I can understand from a bigger picture that their are other influences that are within me(past fears).



Outside influences? What do you mean by this? please elaborate.

Could this be an example of possibly Society's Views conflicting with my inner beliefs or issues? or mindsets?



TIME! PATIENCE! INDEPENDENCE! These are something that you really have touched based on, and I couldn't agree more.

I really need to take these into consideration to continue growing. The sooner the better. As for your different perspective considering self development, was quite attracting to me. I think its something that I haven't been aware of anymore. The fact that not everything is reading or writing but EXPERIENCES. Just makes it more exciting to live. Its what makes you know your ALIVE. Without these...there is nothing. Memories therefore would not exist in the individuals mind, and that is a sad thought to experience and express.



OK, I will stop this. This is something I have often herd about and but never tended to it. But coming from you, it has more meaning and depth in order for me to take in a sincere thought of expressing change and desire to change.



Yes, I believe this. This continues a picture that i have not totally seen. Possibly because of have not been completely open minded like I thought or it just wasn't the appropriate time for me to understand this. I will agree with my first accusation.  Just saying learning something new....is something to completely give myself to. Such as higher purpose of learning new things.



Ok about the friends. No I have not increased in friendships. Now as acquaintances that can be look like as friends than that has change for the better. But as for hanging out with others right now..No, I am still considered a loner. My friends that I was very close to have gone on two do  their own things now (MAKING GROWNUP MOVES), now for those that look at being a LONER negative. I dont see this as a negative and I dont feel negative about it either, nor positive. I am content, but when time comes I will greatly appreciate many amounts of friends.

Now my question to you, MangoMom: Whats your intuition/ability(dont know the term you like to use) tell you will create this. Obviously you feel something that will cause a reaction (more friends) What do you FEEL the cause is? Is it possibly a new area of life that I will explore (new job, career, school) or is it possibly a personality change (Maybe by reading this, it will effect me positively in my social interactions with others that will directly correlate with your reasons about me acquiring more friends?)

As for me I have been FEELING THIS TO....




Again thank you so much for this, I really appreciate it. This was a great reading, and there was an absence of the 5% of inaccuracy due to ego. I felt that there was no bias in your reading and it was 100% (only one thing I think is that there may have been somethings that you possibly may left out... or that could be my ego speaking rather than my intuition). Now granted I  dont believe in giving things mathmatical percentiles because I believe it is demeaning and retarded to give something a grade, but that was more or less for the people (newcomers) that will be reading our conversations to each other that are RESEARCHING "ACCURACY".

Before I end this, one of the things I felt was left out, was nothing was said towards this comment here that I made:




I ask this question because I do know that these were a very important part of the statements I made in this post. Now I do know also that this had alot of ego in it. But I feel that these statements have been steered away from. No questioning of what I meant or even a direct response telling me to ease the ego...etc lol. Just wondering.


And as for our friendship.....ITS ALREADY BEGUN ...Thank you MangoMom. Love ya. When you have a chance post back.

oNe LoVe,
sHaRu

Sha

Sorry for the delay, hubby had surgery, been playing nurse for a few days!  I'm not the best nurse, but I try.  

The prayer for outside influences was to release the fears you brought over from the past lifetime, that was then and this is now.

Your statement


Speaks for itself, nothing more needs to be said.  What you have said is correct.  Don't let it worry you, it will come about in the time that is set, it will all unfold as needed.

Have a wonderful 2008.

Love, Light and Laughter
MangoMom