Welcome Katherine,
It is evident from your reading that you are at least compatible enough with Steve to be able to enjoy each other's company for now as just good friends, without any undue pressure by either of you to take the relationship to the next step before you are adequately prepared to do so. If you are asking for a 100% guarantee (or anything approaching this) that you will necessarily be compatible enough in order for your relationship to last for a lifetime, I feel that you are putting the horse before the cart, and are not giving either yourself or Steve a fair go.
To begin to answer your question, the first way to re-stabilise your life is to get a suitable job. Do not live in hope that you will be able to depend entirely on Steve's income, as I should not have to tell you that doing so would place you in a very vulnerable position if your relationship did not last (and there is no indication in your reading that it will not), or alternately if one of you for whatever reason was no longer able to work.
Of course my suggestion for you to get a job seems rather simplistic and insensitive of me, when I am sure that you are doing your very best to get one sooner rather than later. There is certainly no suggestion on the basis of your reading that you are somehow destined to remain unemployed indefinitely. Please get this idea completely out of your head, if indeed you have been thinking this.
While you need to best match the types of jobs available in your local area to your particular qualifications work skills and past experience (perhaps with the help of a professional career advisor), I believe that the feeling of being valued and respected for being the wonderful person you already are by Steve will significantly boost your own feelings of self esteem, and also make you a much more self confident job applicant as an added bonus.
In other words the best way I see of re-stabilising your life is to relax more and enjoy each other's company, combined with doing all your homework towards getting a job which will not only provide you with a regular and adequate income on which to live, but will also give you an immense feeling of personal satisfaction in knowing that you are through your work making a significant, positive difference in many other people's lives at the same time.
Loving regards and Merry Christmas,
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