My name is Louise A*** A***, Im 25 and Im a Sun Sag Pisc Moon and Asc Sag. I know Im young and I am supposed to feel that way, but it escapes me so often. i try not to be a martyr in life and make lemonade out of lemons, but again there is this point that i reach where I cannot escape life and everyday emotional problems. Im very sensitive sometimes and soak up others energy like a sponge. Im usually well liked and well received by people. Generally they love me. Im not happy though and cant seem to push my way through struggles like I used to. My love life is a mess and normally I wouldnt care because I wouldnt feel like I needed it, but something has changed. I feel like I need something to keep me going. I have had deaths and bounced back from them by telling myself that life is too short (so cliche i know) and fear only lasts so long so why not.

The men who love me usually never stop loving me, but for some reason, they dont love me enough or are not emotionally capable of it at the time, in fact this happens with a llot of people in my life. In short, I am looking for some guidence andhelp as to love and a career. So cliche, but it seems most things that are important in life are.

Tho whomever responds, a heartfelt thank you.

I have edit your name...since you gave a bit to much information in an open forum Good luck...Rhutobello

Hey Sweetie...

                 I was reading what you wrote and I swear that I myself could have written it at one point in my life myself.... I completely understand where you are coming from, I have only recently started to fulfill the gapping hole that was just sitting inside of me for as long as I can remember....

As for the guy thing, If they don't love you the right way, then they never will and it is best just to move on or enjoy it for a learning experience.... (Not all experiences are bad, even if they don't have the out come we want). There is someone out there who will give you that feeling you are longing for, but it will still be a few years before you meet him, (Not 100% on this, but I am getting the feeling of Jerry or a Jer, sound to it...<but if it feels right hon' don't hold back>). He also isn't your usually type, although you will be drawn to him, you won't know why.  I know that this isn't easy to live with... I would be more than happy to talk to you about it anytime you need. Feel free to PM me, take care and know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

I am kinda attached to cliche saying too.... *smile*

Light, Love, and Blessings,
                                     Nyte

Thank you so much. I appreciate it more than you can understand. Funny thing is I only fall for the ones that I am not usually attracted to. The ones that I am attracted to I could never love, there is usually no connection there.

I have always been able to let people go. There is this one however that I cannot. No matter how much I try. He cant seem to let me go either, but comes back very quickly to see how I am and tell me how much he misses me and wants to see me and then leaves and becomes a hermit again. I cannot begin to understand. No matter how much time goes by we can talk and it always feels right. We are so much alike.  He is probably not this person for me and maybe some lesson or maybe Im his, but I wish I knew what he is and why my heart cannot move on, no matter how many people I date after him. I feel like I met my match and the timing was so so so so bad for both of us. (This is something we both can agree on) and now there is too much water under the bridge to move forward, but I really hope not. I really want this man to be the Jer or Jerry, but at this juncture i think he's not.

Again, thank you So much! It helps just to get out of my head sometimes! I hide my sensitivity because I dont want to be walked on.

well I am always here if you need someone to talk to hon' I hope that it all works out!!

hi istar33 im perciving that you are trying so hard that you can find the right way,you need to let things happen,if he is 4 you,he will be there when the right time comes,things happen 4 a reason,try to enjoy your self better n relax better said then done i know,there is always a porpuse behine every thing,take care sweetie good n possitive energy lluvia