Hello all,

I am back on this site after having taken a sabbatical due to work....I am from India...male... 33years... single....

I am still trying to figure out my sexual orientation... and its making it more and more difficult for me to find some true love in my life.... I feel lonely... sometimes depressed... just want to give up on everything... and pack my bags and move out of this planet... but then realise thats not the solution... the more I seek love the more it eludes me...

Recently I met a guy... and in one meeting ...thought this is it...he is the one.... but hell its not the first time I have felt that way... but just as in the past its not worked out... probably it wont this time again ? I am not trying to be pessimistic... just learning from lifes lessons of the past... will I ever find love and live with that love... not looking at a 'living happily ever after' scene... even if its for a few moments. i shall be more than happy.... there is so much in me to give... no takers...

Sorry if the above post sounds like an advert...but its not...I genuinely seek a reading... If anyone needs more details please feel free to PM me...because of the sensitivity of my orientation which may not be acceptable to all (not that I care but I sure do respect sentiments of others) i sincerely do apologise

Cheers!

Hi and welcome back

Your words make me feel that you don't have an easy life, that you are very gentle and caring and kind and that you worry alot about what others think, You are secretive and careful, all pretty essential to your way of life at the moment. You also dream and keep those to yourself. Sometimes when we crave love it makes us give off vibrations that can really stir the ether and make our auras glow with heat of a positive charge and this can make us unappealing, you need to have more confidence in yourself and be more open to approach rather than so wary and worrying. Enjoy yourself and smile and soon you will be actively enjoying life rather than analysing and sizing up prospective partners. We all do it, but it can be noticed and be offputting. Just be you, and I am sure that before long you will find happiness

hello there... thanks for responding with your kind words... yes i need to change!

I met someone over the weekend... and it was meant to be a date... made both of us feel very comfortable with each other... and have been thinking about that evening from the last 3days... I realise I need to go with the flow... but will I ever get him to see my feelings... Some practical people out here might just say its too early to even think on those lines... but dont know with my gutt feeling just feel he is the 'right' person... and my practical mind says I am being desperate!

Is there someway... anyone can do a reading for me ... I would sincerely appreciate that....

Well I personally think that you should look into doing something where you can put some of the feelings that you are bottling up for the 'right' one out into the world... Volunteer or something and will make you feel proud at the end of the day and to where you know that you had a positive influence on someone's life... Love is out there, but ever give up hope. But if you chase it, you won't catch it...

I was like you for a long time I wanted someone to share my life with, and when I finally decided that I need to have more time for me and to figure out what I wanted beyond a loving relationship, I found one... *shrugs* I think that you don't do enough to make your self happy and that makes you feel good about you... you should hon' you are totally worth it.

As for the new person in your life... I get that there is potential for a long relationship, although I am unsure about if it is romantically or not... Which could mean that there will be something and that it will end on good terms and you both still wanting to be part of the others life... or that it just never gets to that point...

I think that you need to acknowledge all the wants that you have inside you and quit ignoring the other parts of your life simply to fulfill the romantic part... Again, do something for you, to make you feel good... go hiking, or start painting, or writing... something that is Yours and yours alone... you need to find more self love, so that you can love someone else... if you don't address your own needs what makes you think that you can do so for someone else.... Real love comes from happy people who meet... SOmetimes it happens other ways, but mostly it is attracting someone who feels the way you do... if you want to be happy then look inside and find it... it's in there... you may want someone to share your life with but by no means do you need them....

I hope that this is what you are looking for...

Light, Love, and Blessings,
                                     Nyte

hi Nyte,

Thank you so very much for your inputs and updating what you feel... well regarding this person that I mentioned earlier...its a gutt feeling that I am going by... may be I am being too emotional in my thoughts about it... Dont know...I just hope it WORKS OUT... I would be happy even if its a few moments of happiness that I can cherish as memories for the rest of my life... I realise relationships are not permanent... and everything in life changes with time... including people, attitudes, feelings ... our values match, we vibe well and there is some chemistry but may be again I am being presumtious in just a first meet... though have chatted with him online for months together!

I love myself and pretty much at peace atleast most of the times... I work as an instructor and I know I make a difference to a lot of people out there... and it feels good at the end of it all... and I am proud of the positive influence I make to their lives... but when I get home... thats the time I feel lonely.. waiting to be loved and to love back... sometimes it just depresses me and then I realise that we are all meant to be alone!

Till date I have never really had a meaningful long term relationship and I guess it just eludes me ... I have stopped dreaming of it...though the thoughts do cross my mind when i see happy couples around me...

On the external side the world considers me to be extremely successful in my career and personal life... but deep from within I know *that* eerie feeling of missing out on someone to share the good and bad times with...

I am sure there is someone out there meant for me in this life... its just a matter of time ... that person is around and I live on that hope