Well first of all... I would like to say that I am happy to know that you are out there helping people, but I was thinking of more one on one with someone... that you can develop a very very good friendship with... when I think of a good friend I think of someone who is always there when you need them and that even those 3am phone calls although not always what ya want to get, are still something that they will always do... being there for someone no matter what it takes... it isn't easy to listen when you have your own problems and sometimes we all need space, but those are the kinds of things that I am wanting you to look for and when you do that, the loneliness will fade and once that does it is nothing if you don't have someone to come home to... because you know that you have someone when you need them.... it changes so much that you don't realize you are putting out there... for although you say that the world sees you as this... Well they also can see what you want to stay hidden... many won't say so, but that loneliness is there and they know it.... YOu need to find what you are looking for somewhere besides a romantic relationship.... with out it then I feel like if you do get into a relationship then you will feel like you need someone to be with you to make you whole, and you don't you are whole... being with others is just a way to let us help them find the things that we have found and to try to make the road easier.... you have ALL that you need. you just need to find that in you.... I hope this makes sense....


Anyways Good luck!!

    Nyte