My head does not seem to be in reality at the moment.  Last year my dad died and my husband was in court because of a fatal crash which is ongoing and recently I have had an affair with a guy I used to work with.  I do not love my husband anymore and do not now what to do something is pulling me away form my present life and I would love some input in to this and if someone has the time to give me a reading it would be greatly appreciated.

Well I would like to say that I know what you are feeling, and it will eventually pass. Next I would like to tell you that you really need to look at your life and your goals and see where you want to go from here... you have ideas that you push aside, and I think that this is part of where this unreality feeling is coming from, like watching a movie you have no control over... but here you do... You need to make choices, no matter what they are and where they lead you, you are in a in between/abyss and it is what is giving you this unreality feeling that can make you feel crazy/ or less than what you really are... Depression also adds to this, have you taken the time to grieve in your way? To come to terms with losing your Dad? I think this was the start of all the problems... I would deal with it first.

As for the husband thing, No one can tell you how you feel and if it is right or not... Feelings don't have to be right or wrong, they just are... That being said, you next need to ask yourself is it fair to not love him and stay? Caring about someone is the basis of the relationship... if your feelings are not what they were, what do you think you should do about it? Does he know? How does he feel? Or are you just needing to feel like someone wants you for who you are, and not just because of habit? I don't know what all you and him have been through, but talking usually helps. Even if it is just to help make up your mind as what to do. Talk to him about how you are feeling... Although I would not recommend saying you don't love him until you are ready to, and then after talking for awhile. It's not the best way to start a conversation.

Keep in mind to look inward... like why did you have the affair? Why do you feel trapped? and alone? Are you holding it all in and not letting those who love you help you? Before you make any life changing steps, (which I know I told you to do) take care of you... make sure you want/mean it... don't take a step that you can't turn around if you feel the need...  

On a more personal note, (from me to you) I would try a separation or counseling, before ending your marriage, it is a Huge step and if you are uncertain then find the answers. There was a reason why you married your husband, why has that reason changed? I feel like you need to look before you leap, and then check again just to be certain.

I mean I feel like he is a good man, and that you do care, but something is keeping the two of you from having what it is that you had at one time. *sighs* I wish I could explain how it feels, deep down inside of me... like the problem is something on the surface, and once it is moved out of the way, then you can see what was there all along... Hmmm
I would like someone else to add in if they get anything, even if it is different from what I am getting... perhaps a different perspective would help us both out at this point.

            Nyte

Some psychics tend to relay more experiential wisdom than they do actual psychic "knowing." Taking their own accounts into consideration and seeing how it would apply on the whole human scale, and making it general enough to apply to the person asking the information, fitting it with the information already given.

This is what I do, anyway... so theres not much I could say that hasn't been said yet. Better put: I concur with the reading.



-Casey

*smile* Thanks Casey...

Paddlin' in the same boat, Nyte.



And your company is more than welcome!


MAN THE WHEEL!





-Casey