Please do not thnk I am new here......I have spent a lot of time over the last year in the vedic astrology trying to learn about what is happening to me and why. I have even considered going on a pilgrimage to find a certain reader in India who can give akashic readings...but there is no way that could even happen now. If you could take some of your time our of your busy schedule, I would so appreicate it.

I feel I need some reassurance as to what is happening...My health is at a critical peak and I need intuitive guidance.

If you can please help me, I would be so grateful.

Thank you.

I would be honored to do a reading for you.  If you would pm your full name and then post your questions on this thread I will get to you as soon as possible.  I have two other readings that the sweethearts have been very patiently waiting and need to get to them first.  Thanks

MangoMom

I am the one who is honored that you would assist me in such a way. I am not sure what sort of questions I can possibly ask but I can try to think up some.

1) What is the purpose of this neverending suffering? I have had health problems my whole life. There is now something wrong with my stomach.
2) I just met a very spiritual man who happens to also be a vedic astrologer who I am deeply in love with, but we are both married, unsatisfactorily. I should also add that he is in love with me as well, but now we can't be together. I am financially reliant on my husband (because of my health) and we were put together in marriage by Ammachi, a Divine Indian Saint. I am not sure how to handle this relationship, as the man that I am in love with says that the both of us are NOT destined to stay married because in fact we are both destined to lbe ALONE and UNMARRIED. Yet, he is unwilling to leave his wife. He knows things I don't..the point is..this has been an on-going pattern for me that I am in love with men who are with other women and that I can't physically be with. It causes me deep rooted emotional pain and torment. I have had so many relationship difficulties...is there anything I can do to make it better? I feel I am missing the LESSON.
- My husband and I have been separated for 4 months..he is in Sweden I am in the US...and we have been on the verge of breaking up since there have been so many problems betewen us...my question is...Should I stay with my husband, or should I end it?
3) What is my real purpose on this planet? Where should I focus my career efforts?? I am lost.
4) I would really just like to hear whatever it is that you see....

This is all I can think of for now.
Thank you again.

I would just like to tell you also that I am leaving on a plane tomorrow to get proper health care for my situaion and will not be able to check my email until Thursday night or Friday morning...
Sorry if this is inconvenient for you in any way...
I will check in as soon as I can...

Thank you for being so patient about your reading.



The neverending health problems are all due to stress you have put on yourself.  You are a constant worrier.  You give your problems over to God but you take them back immediately.  Your stomach problems are the same.  You steem to stress over everything, because things should be the way you wish them to be, that may not necessarily be the case or for the highest good of all concerned.  You should be releasing these concerns to God and know that it will work out the way it is supposed to you really have very little control over the matters anyway.  Dont create expectations and be disappointed, you could be cheating yourself by putting a limit on the blessings.



You are not in love with this man, you are in love with the idea of being in love.  Yes, you do deserve to be loved, but you keep choosing the wrong men and unavailable men,  because of your deep seeded belief that you don't deserve to be loved.  This belief comes from your childhood of being called stupid, you don't know what you're talking about, etc.  You keep searching for approval, but cant seem to receive approval from those whom you look to as elders.  I get the sense that your father or father figure is not around either physically or spiritually.  

You are a lovely lady  and whether you choose to remain with your current husband is your choice alone.  We can't advise you on this.  You two have never worked in unison to be as companions, he sees it as you fighting him, you see it as you don't deserve it.  Once you recognize that you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you this could be a viable relationship.  I get the sense you do not understand the difference between humility and humiliation.  You have allowed others to humiliate you, thinking you are learning humility.  This is not correct.  

You have some very special gifts that have not been used well.  You have organization skills that are awesome, have you ever considered using these in the manner of planning parties, trips, organizations, etc?  (Hmmmm, just answered your next question).

You need to realize that you are dependent upon your husband financially due to your own choices, you have made yourself physically ill.  Your husband does love you, he just doesn't understand you and is tired of not seeing any hope.  You could give him a great deal of hope, use some of those energies that you use to create the what if situations and guide those happier energies toward your husband.  You will be amazed if you can give him a feeling of hope with a gift of affection/appreciation.

Please understand that I am not saying you are not ill, I know you are and you do need the medical attention to treat the symptoms, you need the spiritual attention to treat the causes.  

The RecordKeepers has asked that you know they love you no matter what, you are greatly loved and honored by the spiritual realm.  Get back to the journaling, we can speak to you through the writings.

Bless you
Love, Light and Laugther
MangoMom