Hello Board

Not to gush but I want to express my deep joy and gratitude for having found this board. I feel so at home here. The energy and goodwill and thoughtful way that you guys interact with each other has been a source of comfort for me already in the short time that I've been a member. I look forward to being an active participant here.

Now as for my 2 questions.

Well firstly I am a 20-something year old lesbian female. I am sharing this with you because as my question pertains to relationships I figure it's valid info and I honestly feel like I won't be judged for my sexual orientation here. (Trust me it's not usually the first thing I bring up in a conversation lol)

My 1st question is concerning a young lady who I am interested in. We have known each other for a while, but I can't read her for the life of me and am very frightened by how deep my feelings are for her.

I want to know how she feels about me and if this is ever going to go anywhere between us romantically or is it just an infatuation that needs to be put to rest for good.

As I near my 30's I want to meet someone amazing to settle down with. If there is nothing truly between us then the sooner I know that the sooner I can turn my energies elsewhere. And if there is something, any ray of light would go a long way in helping calm my nerves.

That is my main question.

The secondary one is when will I find a job that sticks and what will it be like? Cause I've been in and out of employment quite often this year and nothing has seemed to fit.

Hope these two questions aren't too much. It's just that they have both brought me much stress and dis- ease and I want so badly to get out of this emotional and financial rut I'm in.

Eye of the Tiger seems to be a godsend on this board but I'd be grateful for insight from whoever can spare it

-Namaste

Just a thought, regarding your title to this message...Doesn't that presume the one who gives you a reading is enlightened?

Good luck!

That's a very fair question.

I actually think that the enlightenment I seek is within me. But because I am in such a rut right now...any insight that I might receive will aid me in gaining access to it.

I've always thought that a psychic in the purest sense makes information available to you that you are blocked from sensing on your own. So while I can't speak to if they are "enlightened" or not...I do think there is something really special about someone who is willing to share that gift with another person in need.

I'm not a psychic but I've always been a deeply empathic. So I know that even when it's a bit draining, my spirit is fed when I can be of service to someone. It's humbling (but refreshing) to be the one asking for advice rather than giving it.

Hope that answered your question.

That was a totally awesome response. I was just curious honestly. Some people seek things as you say that are already within them and so I just find it interesting.

I'm not psychic. I'm not a reader or whatever they call them these days, but...your first question...

It reminded me of when I met my wife. I knew that I knew her. I knew what I felt for her, but I couldn't figure it out. I didn't really even know her, but I just knew how I felt. Like you, I didn't know how she felt. Part of me wanted to ask her, but another part of me just enjoyed being friends. The problem (or maybe it wasn't a problem after all) was that I felt this pull towards her. One day I decided enough is enough and I had to tell her how I was feeling. I could be made a fool, or I could find the greatest love of my life. The thing is, I wouldn't know unless I dared to ask. I wouldn't know unless I dared to open my heart up to another person. To me that was and is in some ways the most difficult thing one can do. It means being vulnerable. It means knowing who you are inside and knowing what you want from this life. Sure it may turn out it's a one way thing, but hey you might find the love of your life? Maybe it's time to open up your heart. Stay guarded, but open up your heart? btw, it tured out my wife felt the same apprehension as me, but she also felt the same connection, the same pull.

As for your second question...maybe it's time to look at your job as not a means but a way. In other words, search for something you actually enjoy rather than settling for something you can do because it's something you've done in the past, or because it's something you know how to do. Enjoy it, otherwise it's just work...and hell no one likes to work but we all enjoy doing the things we love.

Anyway, that's my two bits. I wish you well. Maybe someone will give you a readin..who knows. They all seem fairly nice here. ahhahaha.

Don't concentrate on the candle so much that you miss seeing the light.

Take it easy.

thank you for sharing that story with me. things like that make me wonder if i should have hope.

But...I dunno. I don't want to live in a place of delusion either.

And I love the candle analogy. It definitely resonates with me

Hopefully someone on here will have a chance to give me a reading....my heart is so sad these days.