Greetings MongoMom

I would like to request a reading to assist in moving forward from my sensed state of a viscious cycle. I've sought input and other readings to possibly learn it on my own, and I know believe I am not intended to achieve getting myself out of my own ditch so to speak.

I have a dream that indicates that there is something I seek, but it is just out of my reach. I dream I am dreaming, and I desperately need to wake up. I can feel my eyes trying to open, but I am paralyzed, I can't do it, but I feel desperete need to wake up. I've had this for years. I've looked, read, researched, meditated and prayed, but it continues. Help with this would be greatly appreciated.

I have some abilities as intuitive. I sometimes "hear" things, but it's always muffled, as if I have had a hearing injury in a past life?

I have a strong draw to the ocean shore. As if I lost someone at sea, or I believe we both thought the other was lost at sea, and in reality we lost each other because we accepted it as fact, and did not seek each other in faith? This other person would have been a woman I believe.

I am about to make a major change in my life, leaving the state of NY and move toward better opportunities to live and work. It's difficult at times and a friend suggested that after my accident in 91, that I lost my confidence in trusting myself with my self, by myself. I'm good for others, just not myself. Help with this would be greatly appreciated.

I believe I chose this life for a purpose, before I began this life. I believe I am derailed from my purpose, and service. Your time, and your energy is greatly appreciated.

Love, Light, & Laughter  (I've used that often myself )
Abbie Herself

Abbie,

If you will PM you full name I would be honored to do a reading for you, it might take a couple of days.  

Love, Light and Laugther
MangoMom

Abbie...remember what I said a few days ago?

I don't have a reading for you and I do know you asked mangoMom...but I just wanted to say...Don't be afraid to be yourself. You've no one to answer to but yourself. None of us are perfect, even those who on the surface who appear to be good and well. I have no idea how your move away from NY will be. I don't know if the new job will work out or even if you will like the new place you will leave. I don't think anyone can really tell you that. All you can do though is go with an open mind and an open heart. You may hate it. You may despise every part of it, but you may also love it, and remember this to be the best time of your life. Only you can decide that. The thing is, you won't know until you decide to crawl out of your shell and see what happens. One thing I will always remember that a friend told me was, we tend to regret the things we don''t do rather than the things we do, do.

Anyway, I'm sure you'll make a decision one way or the other..as to how you will decide to feel....

Be yourself.

Hi Sidewalk Bends,

I believe I am sincere at being myself. I care for others, without selfish motives. I have done the right, moral, compassionate thing, even when it was unpopular and often painful. This has taught me forgiveness for others and given aid/comfort in times I've needed to be forgiven.

So much, so often, people see me as some kind of opportunist or other self serving motive in just doing what my aunt taught me was right. She was a rag picker (Gods greatest mircle by Og Mandino) and she taught me how to be a rag picker too.

I do not seek for someone to tell me I will be happy here or there. Rather I seek to understand myself better, to embrace who I am, and I do believe we all have blind spots. Trusting others has caused me great pain, irreversable losses, suffering and yet I still  believe that I can do this. Trusting myself is the first step however. I don't believe I need a hand out, rather, maybe a hand so I can steady myself and regain my balance? I can only give to others from what I have.

I agree with your friend.  I learned that when I was 7, from something that happened to my mom. Sometimes people who are themselves experience something that derails them. They don't know how to get on their right track again. It can be painful to hear  what to do, when they already know what to do, they just don't know how. Especially when they have worked at it way beyond the point most give up.

Thank you for your messaige, I know it is  sent in true spirit of love & kindness.

Blessings to you and yours
Abbie Herself

The questions have gone blank I choked.  I will submit the following.


1. I have a dream that indicates that there is something I seek, but it is just out of my reach. I dream I am dreaming, and I desperately need to wake up. I can feel my eyes trying to open, but I am paralyzed, I can't do it, but I feel desperete need to wake up. I've had this for years. I've looked, read, researched, meditated and prayed, but it continues. Help with this would be greatly appreciated.

2. I have some abilities as intuitive. I sometimes "hear" things, but it's always muffled, as if I have had a hearing injury in a past life? I believe I have a blockage preventing me from utulizing the gift and service as it was intended?

3. I have a strong draw to the ocean shore. As if I lost someone at sea, or I believe we both thought the other was lost at sea. Does this show in my records?

4. I am about to make a major change in my life, leaving the state of NY and move toward better opportunities to live and work. It's difficult at times and a friend suggested that after my accident in 91, that I lost my confidence in trusting myself with my self, by myself. I'm good for others, just not myself. Help with this would be greatly appreciated. I'm not sure how I regain this.

5.  What is it with me and achieving a committed relationship?

6. Anything else that is believed to be in my best interest to share with me.


Best Regards
Abbie Herself