Psychic Chef suggested I request a reading from MangoMom, and I thought it would be an interesting thing to do

At first I thought I would want a reading focusing only on my "romantic" experiences, though, I would like a general reading, with a slight focus on past relationships.  I've never really read anyone else's past life readings, so the whole idea is new to me.  Thank you for your time!!

~Cassie

Sorry it took a little longer to get back to you on your reading.  It is a bit difficult to do a general reading through the Akashic Records, we need to know where to go to get specific answers from specific questions for you.  But I have asked the Records Keepers to give us the information you need to know at this time, whether it be from past lives, past relationships, etc.

Apparently, in this lifetime you have never experienced nor understand what true love is.  Your parents have always lived a troubled existence, there has always been acceptance that this is the way it is, so why did they ever get married?  They can't really tell you either it's a companionship of tolerance.  We all learn by example, therefore, you have not been shown any examples of what real love it.  Number one, you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you.  You continuously have doubts about yourself because you can't comprehend what love is.  Is there anyone you know at this moment that would lay down their life for you, probably not, but that someone does exist.  You have experienced infatuation, lust, but you have not experienced unconditional love.  Judging others is still a big part of your life, you don't do it maliciously, it just happens before you realize it.  No matter what you have done in your past, your God will love you, there is nothing you can do that would stop God from loving you, there is nothing a child can do that would stop their parent from loving them.  You are a very special, giving person, you don't expect anything in return, I get the sense that you are more of an empath, you feel their feelings.  I get the impression you need to visit a nursing/retirement home, you will experience respect, companions and real love.  You are searching for a direction, dabbling, tasting and testing a lot of different things.  Why do you feel you have to have a label on yourself?  You don't need one, you are the only CGD in the whole wide world, there is no one else like you, nor will there ever be.  You are beginning to see what this world offers, you need to trust in your intuitive self, your relationships have been pretty bad in the past because of the example of what you believe is the "correct" mate.  Go outside the box, it is okay, you will find someone that is your true friend, then your lover, if you don't find that person right away, all the better, you have some growing up to do spiritually.  In one of your past lives you had a love like no other, it was an unconventional love, similar to the story of Cinderella, but you wer the Prince.  We can find that love more than once, but that is why you are so picky, sadly I get the feeling that you won't experience this until you are in your 50's.  Don't despair, you will have a wonderful time getting there.  You will have some awesome relationships in the meantime, but you will understand the true meaning of love once you meet your knight in shining armor.  

Be much more cautious, there are men out there that get their cookies from playing mind games with you, in fact there seems to be someone like that in your life now.  Wake up and smell the coffee, go for the coffee, not the nut case that is playing with your heart.  You know what the situation really is, why are you allowing this?  No one owns another, you don't belong to anyone but yourself.

I get the sense you somewhat remember this awesome love you had before and keep searching for it, it will come when the time is right, you have some experiences to go through before you can see it for what it is.  Take some time to get to know yourself, enjoy yourself and stop being ashamed of your past, it is a part of what has made you such an awesome lady. Remember, a diamond started out as a piece of coal.  

You have a decision to make in a couple of months, a fork in the road so to speak, it will be your choice which road to take, listen to your gut instinct, not your heart.  

I am sorry I can't give you much more, if you have specific questions we can get past the crust.

Love, Light and Laughter
MangoMom

Well, to be honest I think I've already given up the guy playing mind games.  I feel that I can point him out easily.... he's my ex fiance.  This past weekend I sold the *fake diamond* as scrap gold.  $5=Glad I left him!  I have to admit, I'm hoping he's the one you had mentioned as playing mind games.  I thought he loved me, but now that we're over, and after talking to my psychic friend, she believes he just wanted someone to control.  He was much older than me, after all.  I think he took advantage of my stressed out state.

I probably shouldn't be amazed, but I am.  Everyone keeps telling me to stop being so hard on myself; but I'm so stubborn!  The whole thing about my past and learning to accept God's forgiveness is the hard part in my life; I know he forgave me, but I find it hard to forgive myself.  And yes, I'm the most cynical about society.  I've always been the outcast though....

While I hate the idea of being a hopeless romantic, I feel the need to inquire on romance.  I kind of want a sign to make sure i know the one playing mind games, and the one that I already feel is the right one for the current time in my life.  Basically, I have one friend who tells me he cares about me, and one who basically shows it.  My family loves the guy I'm seeing, and honestly I feel as if I can take my time.  While finding that special someone is a great idea, I'm more willing to take my time and just enjoy companionship for now.  I'm worried about clinging to someone much too soon, because I know I'm in a vunerable state emotionally.  I guess I'm looking for confirmation in romance and the current path I'm taking.  Am I at the right pace now, or are there things that I need to have brought to the surface that I'm overlooking? I hate the idea of finally feeling content in life, then realising I'm making yet another mistake, just as bad as the past mistakes.

Also, if it's not too much trouble (I understand these readings take quite some time) I'd like to know more about the "unconventional Cinderella" story you mentioned.  Odd as it sounds, I've always found interest in the story of Cinderella.  Growing up, the old fairytale story has been my favorite.. I even own a special rendition of it.  Thoughout my life, I've always felt that true love was never meant to feel forced, and should be based on the soul, not the outward fancies.  At least I understand a bit more of why I'm so picky. I'm looking for that instant connection.

I'm such an open book, lol.

Thank you so much for your input on the reading.  You are such an awesome lady.  You know, I need to share this with you.  I had been married to my hubby for about 10 years and one day out of the blue, it struck me so hard and quick, "this guy really loves me, he would do anything for me, what did I do to deserve such devotion?"  It was really awesome.  I am blessed and loved and so grateful for it

You will find this too.  I will get back to you in a day or so, I am having my second bout with a summer flu/cold or whatever you want to call it and I am not sure I have a clear head with all the stuffiness and medications.    

Again, thank you for your comments and I am so excited that you have already discovered the one playing games and trying to own you.  Enjoy the young man you are with now and get to know him as a friend, you both have a lot in common and family means a lot to him.

Love, Light and Laugther
MangoMom

Funny how you said young man :P My ex was an older man, lol

*Hugs* I really hate those summer bugs! I had that a couple weeks ago :(  Trust me, I never have a clear head with those things, so I fully understand.  I hope you get better soon! You remind me so much of another "mama" I know... She gets sick a lot :(  I think she catches it most of the time.