I'm Cassie (Not Cassandra)

1/17/1986/Capricorn/Female (Obviously, lol)

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I've been seeing this guy, David (5/8/1989) and, well, from the beginning I've felt a high connection with him.  I've met guys in the past, and they weren't worth it, even though I thought I wanted to marry them.  I feel that he is someone I can have fun with, enjoy his presence, and not worry about trying to impress him.  In fact, I've been brought out of a time of depression after meeting him.  The thing is, while I didn't want to get serious with anyone, my heart is wanting this.  From experience, I've decided to just lightly date here and there, though, my heart is wanting this. The question is this: Is it smart to be trying this again?  I was engaged a few months ago, and broke up.  My ex wanted to hurry and get married, then asked me if I wanted to have kids, to find an apartment with him, etc.  After that, I just didn't want anyone again.  

I haven't really talked to anyone about my current situation because I feel silly asking people for advice when I think I know the answer.  I'm usually the "love councilor," not the one in need.   Oh well.  I really appreciate the time you all give to everyone.  I hope one day I can be the one doing readings for others here!  You all are wonderful.

Cassie,

In response to your request I received the image of the sun shining very brightly above the clouds. This was an aerial view mind you not the view from the ground looking up. This was the view from top of the clouds level looking down.

One of the first things that caught my attention about the image was that even from this elevated perspective I couldn't see through the clouds. So for those on the ground it must have been a very dim and overcast day indeed. Not one that would brighten anyone's spirit by any means. Yet, here it was staring me in the face, proof positive that for those down below such a gloomy outlook really had no basis in reality at all.

Cassie, this isn't an either/or situation. The image suggests that it's a both/and. By that I mean that for the time being both the clouds and the sunshine exist in your life concurrently side by side. It isn't your imagination. There really are clouds above, no doubt the very ones left over from the tempest that passed through your life.

It is certainly difficult to have a "sunny disposition" about the future when clouds are the only things that remain of the past. However, the image is calling you to remember that your life is presently a "both/and".  Yes, it's still cloudy from your perspective. The hurt and anguish that you speak of assuredly remain. And although from where you are standing you can't be expected to see just how brightly the sun is shining for you, the image is here to tell you that it is simply going to be something that you'll have to accept on faith.

The image I received for you is suggesting that even though old wounds may still feel fresh and raw the time has come to trust the "still small voice" that has been urging you to take the risks associated with loving once again. The image is assuring you that beyond the limits of your vision at this moment something very bright, very warm, and very wonderful is shining in your life.

Grayson

Hi Cassie
For the second time this week i have to psychicly smack someone across the back of the head.
You are a stunning woman that radiates pure light. The mistakes of your childhood and the interpertation of marriage that you see in your parents should not have influence you as badly as you have let it. Yes the other people that you were dating werent right for you because you were trying to follow a path that you had traveled before. A past life reading will answer why you do this.I suggest you seek out Mango Mom on this forum.The guy you are seeing at  the moment counts his blessings every day you and him are together. but you need to cut him some slack.He feels that you are pushing him away from his goal of being closer with you. Some times you just have to have a leap of faith.
Cheers Pete

Grayson:

Thank you for sharing this with me.  You are fully correct in the image you have seen, for it describes exactly what I'm going through.  David has been a breath of fresh air for me, and made my life much brighter since I've met him.  Though, I have been suffering from the old wounds of previous relationships, mainly because I have a tendency to kick myself over my mistakes, and thinking that it's all been my fault.  I've been struggling with forgiving myself.  God has forgiven me, but I haven't.

Chef:

While your assumptions are correct, it is not about David.  It is about another close, yet long distance friend of mine, whose name I haven't mentioned.  The fact you were even able to spot him is quite amazing to me.  Though, it probably shouldn't be, considering there are many wise and powerful people in this community!  The probelm that exists is the fact that I'm in the US, and this friend of mine is in England.  I have no way of actually spending time with his as I'd like, and I feel that our time will be in the future.  I want to stay close with him, though I've pushed him away, and rather unfairly so, because I feel that I'm not being fair to him.  He wants a serious relationship that would be virtually impossible, for he lives that far away, and I have yet to meet him in person.  I'm not going to throw away the fact that there is a possible relationship just waiting to happen; I'm merely post-poning it until the appropriate time.

I guess, though, your reading had a two-fold meaning to it.  The guy I am seeing at this time really is a true blessing.  I believe that he does count his blessings every day, for he's told me how he truly feels for me, without actually going out and saying it.  I feel it radiating from him when we talk.  We could be talking about something rather trivial, but I can feel his emotions.  When we're apart, I can tell if he's happy or sad.  I am not trying to chase after him, since we've only known each other for a couple weeks, though I won't shove him aside.  I've felt throughout this whole time that he's worth the risk I've been afraid to take for so long.  I've met enough frogs to know a prince when I see one!  And if he is a frog, he's doing a mighty fine job acting, enough to trick a psychic! lol.

Now, the comment you made about my parents and what I have seen from it really struck me.  My mother has had troubles because of what happened with her parents, and it's effected her greatly.  If you've read more than what you've stated in your, you probably understand.  It tires out my father.  However, I try to learn from that and make sure I don't repeat what I've seen.  I want to maintain a healthy balance in my relationships.  I just pray and allow God to guide me no matter what.
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Thank you all for your help so far.  I look forward to reading any more input others decide to share.  I really enjoy viewing the other readings you all give others.