Hi!  

Just want to ask, can someone do me a reading regarding my relationship with a "friend"...Long story but now we are drifting apart (since I'm also trying to move on since I was the only one hurt, this heart couldn't be tamed soon enough)  So i try hard to forget, guess he doesn't really know (might get some hints coz suddenly I'm out of touch)..I don't want to hear any updates about him and another girl...
I thought I am over..but when I hear something about him..I can't control it..the pain comes back...I want to shut my heart..make myself be indifferent and make my heart cold..but...

I don't understand why I felt so betrayed..but we weren't really a couple. It feels stupid sometimes when I look back..if you're a third party, you would probably think I'm a love sick puppy...

Is this a product of Karma I need to go through?

Thanks for the time

Bloom,

I read your request a number of times then I received an image of a single beautiful white daisy in the middle of a field of green. The first thing that caught my eye was its height and how it stood "head and shoulders" above all of the surrounding growth. No matter where you walked you could see it  standing there in the middle of the field all alone.

At first it seemed strange to see just one lone daisy. Not only were there no other daises around it. There wasn't a single other flower in sight. However, I had the very distinct impression that this particular flower really didn't need a crowd of peers surrounding it. It was perfectly content to stand there and simply be itself.

And let me tell you that this daisy was very much itself! It was a glorious white with a full warm & beautiful golden center. As flowers go, it had so very much to give.

Did Karma drop it in the middle of a green field all alone, Karma in the sense that its loneliness and isolation are a result of pain it had inflicted on some other soul?

I can only tell you that's not the impression this image left on me at all. My clear sense was that this daisy wasn't born to suffer but to shine. Its presence was a gift to everything within its orbit. It stood there high above the rest alone and unprotected. But nothing could possibly pass by without noticing it and giving thanks that it was there.

Just when everything looks sad and dreary all around you, you come across a thing of beauty standing all alone. And for that moment you forget your trouble and you forget your burden. For that moment you are content to stand there and receive the gift this flower was born to give.

Bloom, if that is Karma then give me more of it. The Creator of this Universe didn't plant you in that field to suffer. He put you there to bless everyone who passes by.

Hope this helps.

Grayson

thanks for the uplifting advise.  

I guess somehow I know that all the sufferings mean something...I've been through a lot (and even though I'm still young, I'm proud that even if those things happen, I still am "normal")  I've matured...still wanting to learn more from life but a bit scared coz I'm not sure what my threshold of pain, suffering is. I don't want a breakdown..just get to feel lonely from time to time but I smile and face the world.

i'll keep the image in my mind..thanks..maybe somehow this can comfort me in times like these.