You are right, I was recently pursuaded into taking a job that I would not have chosen for myself. I have since left that position and I am looking for something more for me. I hope I find it soon...lol

You are also right about something that is not sitting with me right and it being family that is holding me back. I have been taking care of my fiance who is very ill for a long time now. I am tired and I feel like my hands are tied. Do not get me wrong I love him dearly, but I do feel like I have lost myelf a bit and I do want to live a little more like I use to. What truly blew me away though is the little girl with soft blonde curls. The last time I saw my daughter who is now 15 is when she was 5. She has been on my mind more than usual lately. I am not sure if this is who you were sensing or not, but I miss her dearly and wish I would of done things differently where she is concerned.  As far as other children, I also have a 13 year old son. I am not sure who the other child may be though.

At one period in my life I thought that I was being punished and that is why things happened the way they did with my daughter and other things. But, I have since learned that these things are what made me who and what I am today. That person is not so bad...  I am trying to stay positive, but I have good days and bad days on that...lol

Thank you gain. Also thank you for telling me about my name...

Hi Leslie:)

I would hate to see private information misused and unnecessary suffering because of some warped individual, so you're quite welcome. May I ask why you posted in a new thread?

Anyway, perhaps your fiance is the third child? You are caring for him it would appear and perhaps you feel more maternal towards him as opposed to being his lover which is possibly the reason I picked up a third child.

I'm glad I was able to help you, and I hope you find a job you feel is right for you very soon. Something did come through as I was typing the last sentence, but unfortunately as quickly as it came is as quickly as it went. If it comes back, I'll be in touch...

Best wishes,

Angelique

Hi Angeligue,

I am still very new at posting...lol I thought that is what you are suppose to do. I thought you may not see my thanks if I posted it as a reply. I will learn how this all works...lol This is the first forum I have ever posted in.

I do beleive you when you say that it may be him as the 3rd child because right now he is like a child. My maternal instincts have taken over the lover part because that is what he needs most. Although I will be glad when things go back to the way they use to be...lol I kinda miss being a lover...

Thank you for keeping in touch. I will look forward to hearing anything that may come your way. I feel that when it is meant for me to know it will come.

Leslie

You have a great outlook on life, Leslie!  

And you'll get the hang of things before you know it.

I'll be in touch if that snippet comes through again.. I hate when that happens.

Angelique