You had requested specific people to do readings for you, however I took the liberty of doing one as well. However, it’s is very private so I would prefer to send this to you in pm.

You used to have a really good job that you were great at or you acquired a valuable skill that made you very good at something where you could utilize it in a career and be very successful around seven years ago. It appears you left it behind you for love, in other words you sacrificed this for a love you were unsettled with in the first place. You had your doubts, something niggling at you in the back of your mind, but you gave it the benefit of the doubt (put your feelings first instead of gut instincts) and went forward with this anyway. Throughout this entire relationship it has been about give and take. You give, he takes.  He is not very giving of himself, he does not help out, he does not share portions of his life, thoughts or feelings, he’s not a good conversationalist around you, he doesn’t try; he strikes me as a little old fashioned on his view of women. He depletes you of your energy; he is abrasive and withdrawn with you and his feelings. He’s a very insecure man who has a lot of misconceptions and I get the feeling his mother was very manipulative and overbearing during his childhood and his father was quite the misogynist.  It’s almost abusive, emotionally… like starving someone. You don’t feel loved, appreciated, respected, taken into consideration, all that you do goes unnoticed and it is under appreciated, you feel taken advantage of and taken for granted.

You keep teetering, wondering what it is you can do for skills to support you and your family if you leave, but the situation you have been placed in for the past seven years has you questioning your skills, abilities in all areas, most importantly, whatever it was you that you were phenomenal in prior to marrying this man. You’ve lost confidence in yourself and what you know and you are afraid to go back into it because too much time has passed. This is a big hurdle for you, because regardless of whether or not you decide to go back into this or not, it is not the time that has passed as much as it is the darkness you surround yourself in. I’m not saying this is by choice, but your husband has put you in a box like a caged animal, throwing you treats here and there, just enough to keep you wanting or hoping for more  which is affecting how you think about what you know you are quite capable of doing. The lack of affection, communication have messed with your self esteem quite a bit and you have an inner war within yourself. You are hot and cold. One moment you know you can do it all, and the next you are doubting yourself and scared. Just because you’ve been out of the loop in business for the past few years does not mean you have forgotten the tricks of the trade, it’s like riding a bicycle you never forget.  Whatever it is that you did, you can incorporate this into your family life where it won’t infringe on raising your children and consume your time where it takes you away from your main responsibilities – your children. There is a way, you just need to find the right opportunity on terms that are feasible for you and works for your kids.

You feel you have sacrificed everything you hold near and dear to you, your very essence to make this work. You have been a burning fire without fuel to feed the fire and keep it going, you’ve been running on embers and air alone. You have lost hope and faith, but here’s where the good part comes in. You have gone through a seven year cycle and the last seven months this has weighed heavily on your mind.  You will have resolution, a direction by mid-July. The cycle will have ended and you will embark on a new journey. You’ll know how, what, when and where you want to go. All of the answers will fall into place for you as if they were handed to you like an instruction manual. Inside you already have these answers, but you are going through a period of deep thinking, cleansing of the soul, reconciling with yourself and developing a new love and respect for yourself. Don’t go too deep though, I see bouts of depression and second guessing yourself – don’t! You’ll shine again; you just need to pass through this storm. You probably already feel it, like it’s right around the bend, and this time you’re right.. it’s not too far off.

To assist you here are the influences in your life sending you signs: I’m getting a male figure, military, police officer or something pertaining to the law/order around you that has some significance to you. Whatever it is has already happened, or you have already met. For some reason I am getting this is a milestone, or it is important somehow to you. Like it lit a fire under your ass, it was the fuel you needed and empowered you, gave fuel to the fire. Your faith has grown tremendously within the past five months and your prayers for an answer or guidance was heard, acknowledged and the messages are quite clear, yet you are still torn.  There is a female around you, though I do not believe it is a person but a spirit guide – native, in her past life she was not Caucasian, a shaman, priestess, seer,  I’m not sure what she was but she was a mystic.. and she is very spiritual; you hear her clearly she says but sometimes you wonder if she is real or if it’s just your mind. Don’t push her aside, she is there to genuinely help and she is telling me she has already given you a very specific answer for what to do about work and gives me the impression it was to start your own business just as you said you would like to. Lastly, she tells me you are afraid of being successful… the question is, why? One last note, what does the key mean to you? I keep seeing keys.

::big hugs:: LibB, you don’t know me from a hole in the wall but this is what I got. Please let me know what you think about this reading and please know you can do anything you set your mind to; just eliminate the fear, the fog will clear and your answers will be right in front of you.

God bless!
Angelique

I'm not sure about the job you are referring to.


This man that I'm with is very old fashioned in ways. His mother hates men- her father- and never stopped putting them down. As much as his father is nice and kind he has proven to have no respect for women or their point of view.

I sacrificed Jesus in 1996. Cupid came to me when Jesus' spirit nailed to the cross was lying on the road next to me. I had the stream of white light upon me. Cupid shot his arrow into my heart and stupidly I believed that it was for the family I have now. I could not have been any more angry or upset that I had left Jesus like this. My family were not in my life at this time. I had dark people destroying me which is where my confusion came from. I am sick of people telling me that who I am does not exist. I am scared because every lifetime I have been used and abused and killed for being a witch. (Of course I wasn't, I am an Angel from Heaven). So yes I keep loosing faith in myself, not really myself, but being myself in such a destructive world. I believe the job you may be talking about was being my sacred self with 3 golden halo's.
These people who are dark have used me and my powers to try to destroy me in the government and business world. I have been treated like some kind of criminal by our social security system with no explanation why, Although I now understand how that came about. I do not know how to solve these issues and save myself in the eyes of the government (social security to be precise). I have been told that defamation is illegal here and that is what has happened to me. I don't know if or how long these people have been using my identity for their criminal intent and against me.  

For me to be successful brings peace harmony and heaven to earth. This in turn will destroy all evil doers. You know the corporates and governments religions lying to their people and bring angels and saints out into the world again. If people don't understand it can be dangerous for them. Although in saying that, the white light is the white light. i have always had a problem with making money greed but I'm getting over that now. I have a game called tradewinds and it has helped me understand buying and selling little by little. At this point in my life I don't know how to sell or promote my art.
My parents don't understand my spirituality so put me down for it and look at me like I'm crazy. see below
Anyway about the key issue. Could this have something to do with the keyrings I'm going to create with my art. I am getting 50 round keyrings to
to put my art into and start from there. If they are successful I will keep making keyrings for the start and build up some money for other things. I have also been offered a page on kathirteens website. She is really wonderful for offering. Thankyou Kathirteen.

Are the keys golden? Could it be the keyrings? I believe my art is sacred and can help people remove negative energy and transform it into positive energy so they will be more than just artwork.
I will post a picture here of My picture of Mary. You can let me know if it is her you are sensing or seeing. If not I will have to think more or draw more.  

Angelique I do apologise for anything that may be too much for you to cope with, however the truth is just that... the truth.

May Love and Light Shine Brightly Upon You

Thankyou

Libby

When I did my initial reading I did not receive an impression it was this, but that it was a skill you were stellar in that you left behind.  For all I know it could have been accounting, customer service, communications, advertising, management, it could be anything. Whatever it is will help you in your future endeavors. It is possible I am being very thick and not thinking outside the box with the impressions I was receiving and may very well have to do with your sacred self. But it's an impression I receive, try to decipher as best I can; I'm just the messenger.



Sometimes we are diverted from our path to see if we will come back.  It's like the old saying "If you set something free and it comes back, it was always yours. If it never returns, it never was." I guess you always were His because you came back. There were two blessings in this exercise: Your return and your children.




I'm not quite sure what it is you are trying to say here, someone stole your identity and it messed up your credit??? If you want, you'll have to dumb this one down for me here or in PM. It's quite possible I can give you a hand.

What I do understand is that you are surrounded by people who don't believe in the things we do. And I understand that a great deal because some people have tunnel vision and just think psychics, mediumship, tarot, the esoteric in general is a crock of molarchy. But two hundred years ago women were giving aspirin for headaches, it was considered the devil's work and they were hung or burned at the stake for it. Now aspirin is a common household remedy. Amazing how much things have changed since. But this is the 21st century and nobody is going to kill you for your beliefs, the worst they can do is judge and ridicule and they are entitled to an opinion, bully for them! It doesn't change who you are, what you are to become or what you will be. No matter what anyone ever thinks of you, you are always going to shine brightly. Even I saw that before I ever wrote you. And I think most people here will back me up on that. You're a candle in the dark and that's something you need to remember and remind yourself. As a candle in the dark, you are going to attract all walks of life, good, bad, evil and those who want to take advantage of your good nature.

Libby, as a light worker you are constantly going to be challenged, tested by people, circumstances and in your beliefs which will give you pause to question your own stance on things and the direction you are heading in. This is growth and sometimes it can be painful, but it is necessary to move beyond what we currently are and shapes us into what we are to become. It's not an easy job and sometimes it seems very unfair, but it is what it is.




1. You're not crazy and your parents should be supporting you, not putting you down for your beliefs. ::hugs:: Flat out tell them (kindly of course - which I know you would be) what you need is their support, not their criticism. This is not disrespectful, this is standing up for what you believe in; defining a boundary with them because you are an adult not a child and they need to understand this and respect you as an individual who has her own ideas and it is disrespectful mocking what you believe in. Lib, you need to learn how to speak up for yourself and stand your ground firmly with resolve. There is nothing wrong with that, don't cave and don't feel bad about it. You're not a bad person and there is no ill intent. 2. I agree with you about white light however I think we're the ones who are going to do set up and create a path for future generation LW's to follow through with the plan, we're just initiating it and paving the road. I have no worries about it neither should anyone else. It's going to happen regardless and it's very coming soon. We all know this. 3. Advertising, getting this going... I am certain there are plenty of people here who will offer their expertise, advice, their services to help you get your business started. I have tons of suggestions once you make a decision when you will start this up. I am more than happy to help.



They looked like ordinary house keys to me when I saw them. Sometimes it's a mixed bag for me, I get bits and pieces in audio, visual, impressions, feelings, sensations... it's hard to explain, but I am sure you understand. But if you are starting a business with your art on key rings, it's very possible that is what that meant. I didn't understand it other than they kept showing up during and after my communication with what I believe is one of your spirit guides. And I would like to see a picture of her when you have an opportunity.



I'm not quite sure what it is you are trying to say here. I'm sorry... If it was your response to my reading and the information you were giving me about how this all came to be, how you are feeling, what has happened and is happening, I can deal with it. It wasn't too much information to handle if that's what you meant.  If not, please explain. And I promise you I will be here to support you, to be your strength when you need it, to be a shoulder if you ever need one, to be your cheering section, an ear to bend if you feel you have none and that extra 'oomph' when you need it.

God Bless!!

Angelique

Thanks Angelique. I'll talk to you soon about this. No time right now.
by the way this is my portrait of Mary.

Very Similar! But her hair was up and wrapped.  Amazing.