getting a job or continuing school?, Mysticism, reading, forums, Numerology, Sun Signs, Divination

Posts: 52 · Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 3:27 pm

Hi there you enlightened people =)

Well, if I may ask for a reading.. the title/description explains everything.

I'm lost. I'm feeling as if I should stop studying. I started studying college: social work.. but lately, I don't know anymore. I feel so lazy and not motivated at all!

If anyone would be so kind as to help me out here a bit, that would be greatly appreciated! I'd like to know what my life purpose is I guess.. I feel like I'm standing still in life.

Thank you very much!

Posts: 4135 · Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 1:28 am

Hi,

Your date of birth tells me (using numerology) that you have a Life Path or Destiny number of NINE (9).

This generally means that you are both a compassionate and generous person who has a real love for your fellow human beings. My impressions are that social work would be an excellent outlet for your significant humanitarian tendencies, but that people such as yourself also frequently live a life of emotional extremes. You can go from one moment feeling as though you are on top of the world, and the next moment you will be filled with fears and self doubt. In other words you are a very passionate person who is often the victim of his own extreme mood swings, but does not lack any of the necessary personal qualities and skills that could eventually make you a very successful social worker.

The main problem as I see it is that you need to constantly convince yourself that you are on the right career path for you, and doing this on top of the extra stress involved with your coursework is leaving you feeling both physically and mentally exhausted. I don't know what the pay situation is for social workers where you live, but here in Australia unfortunately the working conditions and pay are not particularly good in comparison to other similar helping professions. Social work is therefore not a job for those who want to have a large income, but beyond being able to pay those seemingly endless bills and having something still left in reserve for those little luxuries which may life still seem worth living, it is your own burning desire or passion to make a positive difference in many people's lives that I feel will motivate you to complete the social work course you started and keep your spiritual light brightly burning.

I also believe that your problems are being made to seem much worse than they really are by your difficulties as an LPN 9 type person in forming relationships with members of the opposite sex. You think much more deeply about what happens in life than most other people do, and to be completely honest with you many women could feel significantly out of their depth when they are with you. Combine this with your highly developed gift of empathy (which is a valuable asset to a potential social worker) and high emotional sensitivity, and it would not be surprising to me if you did experience some difficulties in being able to trust and fully open up your heart to someone who wants to love you.

I do realise that doing your course probably reduces the time you have for socialising, but your reading says that finding a partner with whom you can share your deepest feelings will probably be the greatest source of motivation for you continuing to do this type of work. Without a long overdue sense of being loved by a good woman, your future achievements as a social worker are probably sadly going to seem hollow or without any real substance to you.

If you are on the other hand already within a relatively stable long term relationship, be certain to continue to nourish the love you feel for each other by telling her every day just how treasured she is in your life. You will never I believe become an effective social worker (at least as effective as you might have been) if you do not at the same time have someone to share your hopes and dreams with for the future?

Hoping that this Life Path reading has provided you with both some comfort and insight, in order to make this all seem a little easier and more attainable than it appeared before. Yes I do feel that you will go on to become an excellent social worker after completing your course, but be careful to not become socially isolated yourself, and do not above all allow your emotions and self doubts to get the better of you in the mean time.

Kindest regards to you and your loved ones,

EOT

Posts: 52 · Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 9:48 am

Thanks! That made a lot of sense eye_of_tiger. I'm really impressed with the reading you gave me! Though I still have some doubts about the things you said (lol doubts and LP 9).

Firstly I don't think so I have a lot of love for others, except the people who truely gave me support in life when I needed it. In fact, I kind of -hate- the way society is. Most people don't seem to have a mind of their own, they lack principles and morality. The only thing they can think of is their own materialistic needs. Power, money, being "popular".. materialism seems to be the only thing people think of. They get to these goals by manipulating their environment (that includes people) in a sick and unhealthy way of living IMO.

Another psychic told me that my life at the moment is going just as planned. I can't make the wrong decisions or something.. just that I should continue doing what I'm.. uhm doing. The girl I mentioned (I wrote about her in an earlier post on this forum).. we haven't met yet in real life, but she seems to like me a lot & if everything would "click" in real life as it's clicking via IM, then I think we might be meant for each other (really I don't like most girls, just like people, at all, but she seems to be different..)

I guess I should continue what I'm doing right now, working on removing my negativity towards other people & searching for other options than social work because yes.. just like you said in the reading: sad but true: I won't be very motivated without 'the woman of my dreams'.

At the moment I'm experimenting with magick and energyhealing (at a very small basis right now.. so I can't yet offer you much, but I might keep you updated if you would like that) and I seem to be having some successes really, so I don't really need to become a social worker because I already feel great if I can help people like this. I just need a nice and easy job.. I don't care quite much about the money I'll earn as long as I can help the people whom deserve it.

Thanks again for the great reading, if you (or others) would have something more to add, go ahead. All help is greatly appreciated!

Cheers!

Posts: 4135 · Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2007 1:13 am

I on the other hand sense that you are much more empathic and have a much greater love for people than you can presently imagine (consciously). But you continue to be held back by your own fears of getting too close to another person, and so getting hurt. The question arises as to why you are studying to become a social worker when you say that you only are interested in people who can give you something you need yourself, and that you are not that concerned with others who might need your assistance but who cannot.

Perhaps you realised that becoming a social worker would offer you a socially acceptable (acceptable to our society) way of practising your energy healing techniques (another way is by becoming a physiotherapist or qualified masseur where you are in direct contact with the person's body), but at the same time give you an adequate income to be able to do what you really want to do with your life.

If you are going to be any type of healer, having real empathy for and sensitivity to the constantly changing needs of your patients is going to I feel be much more effective than any magick spell you might cast. Without any sense of connection and genuine compassion for those who come to you for healing, your effectiveness as a healing channel will I believe be minimal, if it exists at all.

Posts: 52 · Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2007 8:00 pm

My teacher told me I should go study something else. She also told me I have a low selfesteem and that I gave myself too much points for empathy (selfevaluation) and that's why I have all of this negativity surrounding my appearance when I'm with other people. I think she has a point there.. I don't feel like I have a lot of charisma, but on the other hand I don't feel like I have a low selfesteem. I just feel out of place in society in general.. I need someone who understands me and at the same time keeps me in balance at a social level.

I went to study social work because I thought helping other people resolve their problems is a nice thing to do for others and this would give me a lot of selfworth.. in contrast to working at a factory, contributing to pollution and environmental imbalance. At the moment I don't know what to do, I can't connect to people very well.. I'm not a chitchat person which makes it hard for me to make conversation. I let other people talk to me, but mostly I'm thinking "my God, I wish I was at home now", but I keep being friendly and smiling & even I'm even trying to contribute to the general chitchat that's mostly just about girls, beer, sex and.. well, sex.. oh and beer stories! (when I'm with "the guys"). Hehe they think they're so cool, but they're not. & at the same time I'm such an hypocrite for trying to fit in.

I do think I feel for people who are in pain and should have more chances on a better life [this is compassion, not empathy? empathy is the gift some people have, to feel what other people feel]. I think my "healing abilities" (which everyone has btw) always work when I can tell myself "he/she deserves to be healed". Actually I even healed my father's back even though he's a real naysayer and doesn't seem to respect anything I do, so I'm probably doing fine either way. I agree.. there does have to be some sort of link of respect/unconditional love between the one to be healed and yourself, but.. I'm offering this for free to the people I think who deserve it, so the connection is always there then which makes me feel great in the end if it helped.

When I'm with a lot of people whom I don't really want to be with.. like at school or in the city, I've noticed I become drained very fast. In the weekends when I'm alone nowadays (that is because most of my friends are studying) I feel great.

I'm shielding myself from getting to know new people.. that's probably the explanation to why I feel drained. Somewhere I feel the need to be socially accepted by the masses, but on the other hand my hate towards society + my past relationship with my ex both influence me subconciously to not have too much contact with people.

Should I continue studying for social work although it's really draining me OR should I get a job. I guess the future will tell.

Thanks for the reply, you're very kind and helpful (just like all other people on this board) =)