Hi, Thursday.

It just so happens that I started grad school in Social Work the same year you were born. I can tell you that anyone who does not entertain severe doubts about that choice of profession has no clue what they're in for. So in general, you're right to question it. You also seem to have specific reasons to think that you are not particularly cut out for it. Furthermore, it doesn't seem to feel right for you.

So why not change majors?

When I read the subject line, the thought that immediately jumped into my mind was that the question you pose isn't the real question. Sure enough, it is as if you're asking whether to continue studying something you don't like or to quit school and get a job. I would say "neither." Whatever you seem to be good at, whatever you find yourself tending to do, study that. Don't worry about your motivation. You're one of those people who tends to see the BS factor in everything, so don't expect yourself to get too excited about society's hallowed institutions. This would go quadruple for any job you're likely to get at this point in life. To be motivated is a lot to ask. Perhaps instead you can ask whatever powers there be for help in finding a task you are suited for, a use or purpose you can serve in this life. Then ask for the power to carry that out.

At 19, I was a long way from knowing all the places I would end up. If your plans aren't panning out, take it easy on yourself and try to feel which way you should go.

It'll help not to drink alcohol or resort to any other intoxicants. If you feel anxiety or depression or bitterness that makes it hard to get through life, and it seems that having some beers takes the problem away for a time, then I can assure you that prayer will take it away better. Those feelings are a spiritual problem, and they have a spiritual solution.

You mentioned some worry about finding a partner. It is as simple as dressing nice and being nice. Never worry about it.

I have no idea what else I could be doing. Anyway, it seems to be quite clear that I'm not going to help people in my future profession because I have a too negative attitude.



What do you mean with asking the powers? I'm not psychic nor do I have any knowledge of contacting entities from another realm of existence.. (if that is what you meant, huh?)



I can assure you I don't have a drinking problem. I just feel drained by social interaction and don't know what to do with my life because I have nothing that I -really- like to do that could get me money in some way or another. Some friends of mine don't have any clue either on what to do.. they just go to school and think of the money they'll earn later on and that's the only thing that seems to motivate them. I'm feeling like I should do more of an effort to get along with other people just to make sure I don't get the label of "loner" or "arrogant a-hole".. yeah that's how I feel nowadays, I want to feel socially accepted because in this society that's the only way to find true happiness, right?



It's not that I worry a lot, I got used to being without a partner now. I'm just hoping I'm not getting my hopes up too much with this new girl, lol, if you can comprehend that sentence =P. Like eye_of_tiger said, continuing this social work.. it will keep draining me if I don't find a partner very soon!

Can I PM you btw? Would be nice to get some insights of a real social worker.. but you probably have enough to take care of already & I think I got it: I'm not qualified enough according to you. Well, thanks anyway for your post, as I said any insights are appreciated! =)

Feel free to PM me.

Note that I never said you weren't qualified! Only that you say you don't feel cut out for social work. Neither am I, for that matter.

When I said "ask whatever powers there be," I meant "pray for the knowledge." Forget about the money part. If you like making money, there are ways to do that. For a sense of what to do with your life, use intuition and the help of a higher power, whatever you may conceive that to be.