Sorry just not sure were to vent this off so if one can put this in its rightful place then thats ok  but would also like to know few minor things.

first off im trying hard reallly mentally hard to not dwell on the issue of loosing my 2/5 mth old fetus baby..  when i have two other sisters who are full blown pregnant..  cant seem to write tot hem and wish them well.. let alone  stop crying and engulfing  everytime i see pictures of them...  when will the dwelling stop??

and if at all to wonder if anyone knows when ill become pregnant again i had over 5  female mthlys  now and im fine in that department..  im very much fertile.. just cant figure what im doing wrong  if im doing anything wrong and how to change something.. im using my fertility crystals and gem stones etc like. that.  im almost on the verge of using clomid..  DONT wat to  if i DONT have to..

it just brings me to tears when i see how things are going for my two sisters and here i cant  join them it just hurts  deep within and im notsure how to stop the huge dwelling process of this..

thank you again..

LillCD

Ok your not dwelling.  your grieving theres a whole process to it and stages etc.  I too have had a miscarriage and a stillborn little girl.  I know the depths of pain to lose pregnancies and organise funerals for such innocents.



Just remember your NOT dwelling, your 'grieving' there are very BIG differences between the two!!!

You will bear a child but you need intervention during the pregnancy....

I'm going to pm you soon so we can chat,

{{{{{{{{LilCrystalDragon}}}}}}}} sending you a huge hug xxxxx  Things will get better, I can understand how you are feeling, and I am sure your sisters do too.  Its only natural to dwell as you put it, thats human nature, nothing wrong there, when you feel better you will move on and be more positive.  Do you know what crystals you are using?

Sending you a great big hug LilCrystalDragon. Yes you are grieving and you need to grieve.  My daughter had 2 miscarriages before she had her 2 beautiful sons and a daughter is on the way.  I am sure your sisters are hurting knowing your pain, you need to let them in to grieve with you and when you do become pregnant (and you will) they can be there to also share the joy.

Thank you angelwings Gem and mystcal

I just feel im doing everything backwards inthis life time  b/c im not married legally..  common law that is.  buying a house right now.  well we just did actually..  got our animals  before buying house..  and now marriage is next.. so see all backwards lol usually its find the man get married buy a house  get the animals  have childern lol...

the stones im using are  Moonstone  ,,, crystal clear quartz gem stones that had been put in fertility poperties for that reason.. carnillian..   amythest and  rose quartz..  all with fertility properties in them

if theres one stone i can use thatl do  for all of these then that be awesome  thats alota weight to them stones to be carrying around lol..



thank you everyone  i grieve b/c i dont want my sisters in on my grieiving  till after there birth.. as i told my mom  the longer i dwell the longer itl be harder for me to get pregnant..  and if i talk to them on it i dont want to be responsible for there loss of baby..  etc so alots riding right now..

thank you again