You know at this time of year, more people are depressed than any other. You are crying because your body is tired. It needs a cleansing. You feel that everything is past and that nothing is ahead. You are so wrong. Life has a way of going up and down and next year will be up, but this will take time. Your career will take a turn in May. I don't think they appreciate you where you are and you don't want to be there anyway. I see you going back to school and taking something you will enjoy. Maybe it doesn't seem possible at this time but it will. I also see a trip...a breathing space. You just need a start. Think of what you really want to do. Take a hint from that song " I am woman hear me roar.." Get up and do something...don't just think it.
I see a large mirror. Inside is the face of a girl. She has long blonde hair and is smiling. I don't know if this is you. She is hiding herself because she doesn't have faith in herself. I don't know if this is you or someone you know. If it isn't you then she is asking for your help and if it is you, then you need to help yourself. Good luck and I hope this reading has made sense to you. I am practicing to get better. Thanks and have a great New Year.
I also feel you have a tender heart and have no faith in yourself. You are a special person. Let your tears dry and take a walk out in nature and see the beauty surrounding you. Breathe in the air and let it energize you.
Set a vase of flowers on your table and look at them each day. Burn a lavender candle and smell its fragrance. Look at the world differently. We make our own world by what we see and feel. Its up to you to take the right path and leave the negative behind. Come on and feel alive.

get that heart beating and start moving.