breathingwater, you are young and vibrant!  Remember that the exterior is not what matters!!  It's your soul.  If you have a beautiful soul, believe when I say that it will shine brighter than any star in the sky and it will radiate onto the outside.  Everyone will see the beauty for what it is.  You are at the point in life where you just left childhood and the beginning of walking into adulthood.  Give yourself a few more years to grow into who you really are as a person and then judge.  You are not giving yourself time to blossom at all.  You have a beautiful pair of eyes everyone pays quite a lot of money to have.  Don't be in such a rush to grow up, keep that inner child growing within you and it will take you far.  You have let the people around you convince you of what you now think about yourself.  Sometimes people smack on others because they themselves feel insecure and feel they are lacking next to you.  People tend to criticize others so that it would make them feel better about themselves.  You are not the problem, it's others, so enjoy your beginning into adulthood and always feel confident about walking forward regardless of what anyone say otherwise.  As long as you are happy, that is all that should matter.  When you live life on how you think others want you to in order to fit in, then you are doing yourself a disservice by doing that.  What you are doing is putting a lid on all your hopes and dreams, and if you let that happen than it's really a shame.  Be confident on who you are and where you want to move forward in life.  In other words, spread your wings and fly and discover what is out there.  I agree with amadea about you going back to school.  You will also become a very fluential person in society.  Believe it or not, you will eventually be very assure of who you are and what you've become.  School comes easy for you and you tend to like subjects in the areas of literature or speech.  You have sat and daydream about your future, picturing your success.  You tend to be a quiet individual most of your life and are content of just observing those around you.  Because you keep to yourself more often than not, it has resulted in your lack of  confidence in  yourself.  You feel powerless next to someone aggressive (not to say you are a timid person).  You are just a shy person that's all.  You will eventually get over that shyness in public and around others, you will still be more reserve in your private life, but professionally you will start to feel more comfortable making your opinions known.  

Take care,

Mysticangel

Very well said Mysticangel.

Thank you mysticangel, for driving this point home.  School has always been something I've feared because during highschool I was a very sick and sad girl and actually did not do well at all.

I've always said "I'm going to be a great writer someday.  I'm going to leave my mark on the world like Hemmingway and all the other great writers."

Maybe this is true after all.  Thanks Mysticangel, for doing this reading.  I think it's been a much needed shove in the right direction.  I will now stop daydreaming about my future and start the journey TODAY.

Oh!  And I had to laugh when I read the comment about my eyes because I get told many times over what beautiful eyes I have and asked if I wear colored contacts, wich I do not.  So you were dead on about that!

It's amazing, what you and amadea can do.  Both of you are truly gifted, and thank you for taking the time to share it with me.

you are very welcome my dear, anytime.

Mysticangel

Breathingwater, It's very funny that you mention Hemmingway in your post.  I was once told by my intuitive advisor that one out of three of my guardian angels at my side is Ernest Hemmingway.

Mysticangel