i am just looking for some answers. here is my story.

my mother was murdered by her husband of 14 years the man i knew as my father. it has been long and drawn out when it comes to the police investigations so i am still unsure of all the events that took place that day(oct. 4, 2006). all i really know is that i was the last one to talk to her at 9pm and she died between 9 and 10pm that night. he then overdosed the next morning between 10 and 10:30am.  i do know that he attacked her either from behind or while she was sleeping and there were no signs of a struggle therefor she didnt know it was coming and she didnt have a chance to fight back. also i do not believe they were arguing because she was a very fiesty woman and would have been facing him. the weirdest part about everything is that he was never violent towards her. sure he did threaten to beat us kids and yell at us. but i have never once heard him yell at her or even seen him raise his hands to her for that matter. please help me in any way you can . i have to know what has happened. if you have any insight to this please help me. i am very desperate. i think i am going to drive my self crazy thinking about this. i dont know what to do or who to speak to. if anyone out there can help in even the smallest way please please please helpme. i am begging. please.

this was posted to a previous request for a reading





you have posted several requests and no answers are coming. in one of your requests you said you have to know what happened that night. you really don't need that those kind of thoughts in your head. i won't pretend to know what your going through. i can only imagine the grief and the pain.
but you have become obsessed with this, and i do believe what you said about driving yourself crazy. i know your looking for another to respond to your request, but you are not going to find what answers you are searching for. you know what your suppose to know. answers will come in time.



as hard as it is you have to stop, i can tell you now all of this will not bring you any closer to the answers you want. again, i feel I'm telling you all this in vain. i still see you continue to search for the things you are not to know at this point.

good luck, i wish u peace and serenity

peace,
blackcat

you are prob ably right but right now i can not see it. i will never know what has happened because he is not going to tell anyone and the police are not going to figure it out. the lead investigator told me that he has no clue as to what happened.

I cannot begin to know the agony you must be going through right now, but BC is right, you must move forward.  When you are searching for the answers you want to hear, you will never find which it is you are looking for.  When you relax (yes, I know it is very hard to do) and allow the answers to surface, then you will be able to see them.  Right now, you are building a wall around your vision and what will happen will be hidden clues you will miss due to your obsession over it.  All the facts have not surfaced yet, give them time to reveal themselves and you will have your answer.  

You have to try and live your life for you and your family, your mother would not want you to stop living over her death.  Remember that even though she is not with you in the physical form, she will always be there for you if you need her.  Call upon her when you are in times of sadness, or when you miss her, she will come to your side and be with you.  She will always watch over you.  Know that you are not allowing her to move on peacefully with your hurt and sorrow for her.  You are preventing her from journeying on where she must go now.  Try to find peace within yourself so that you can allow her to go in peace.  Tame your emotions and meditate to her and seek her guidance in the answers you seek.

I hope this will help you to find that inner peace

Mysticangel

Very well said BC & Mysticangel. newbeginnings507, hope this helps you.