Recently in the past 2 years, I have been blessed with the most wonderful gift.  However, there are a lot of times in which I am very confused.  I have done extensive research on the subject and I have progressed, but I feel that I am not progressing towards the right direction or that I am practicing all wrong.  I have tried to search for entities in which I can learn from, but it would seem everyone wants X amount of money to teach.  I don't have a lot of money to spare unfortunately or I would have paid to have someone teach me, I support 3 children on my own and it's hard enough trying to make ends meet as it is and along with work and school I really don't have much to spare.  Any helpful suggestions on where I can turn to ...to get my questions answered and someone to assist me to progress where I need to be.  I have been blessed also with the gift of healing and have been doing that for the past 2 years without charging anyone, I don't believe it was given to me to charge for the help.   It's the other areas that I have questions on that I need help with.  Any suggestions would be appreciative.

Mysticangel

Mysticangel, it is good to see u here. Any questions u have u can ask here, our own panel of members will answer ur questions to the best of their ability. Other than that, I will personally search if I can find someone else who can teach u, for free of cost. If I find someone I will tell u, in the mean time, be active on the site. You may get the thing u want when u least expect it.

I appreciate you responding to my inquiry regarding this.  I don't know, I guess I feel lost most of the time and I don't really know how to get to the point where I'm not feeling lost anymore.  There will be times when everything is so very clear  and then other times it's all a blurr and the confusion sets in.  

Where would I start to even make sense out of everything?  I really have tried everything and I have a friend who tells me the spirits are blocking my progress.  I have had some that's been following me through each lifetimes and I try to bring God into my meditations to chase them away.  They seem to come and go throughout the day.  Lately, they've been so bold as to make themselves known during the day.  I'd figure it's normal because I have been able to see them since I was 5 years old.  Even right now since I'm talking about it, it's not very happy right now.  Hasn't been all night.

Mysticangel

People a reading for mysticangel plz.

you are very right in not charging ppl for helping them. i have always believed that anyone who charges for reading, healing etc. is a fake anyway. a gift so freely given from God is not to be exploited. i understand that ppl need to make a living, but if there suppose to do it full time, i do believe God would show them that path without charging them.

OK, you seem to me to be a very sweet soul. you have much on your plate as you have stated. you have a gift that you question quite a bit? you want to help ppl and you sometimes question you intuition also. (I read your post to me, in my post should i question my intuition) i question mine when it comes to myself. you question yours because you don't ever want to lead anyone wrongly. but what you need to know is that your intuition is very strong, especially when it comes from a place of care and concern like your does. i feel you don't like to upset ppl so you will reword what your saying so it sounds nicer. i never do that, i call it like i see it and sometimes i end up hurting ppl's feelings. I'm not the real sensitive type. you have taught yourself so much on your own. and I'll tell you that is the best way to learn. when you develop yourself naturally, it makes it so much stronger than when someone tells you, or shows you. not that that's a bad thing. sometimes we learn from watching other's.you can learn what to do and what not to do. be very weary of learning from ppl who have alterer motives. money, reputation etc. there teachings aren't pure of heart. and you will feel it, as i know you already have. someone who is true and real will not charge you a thing for sharing there gift with you, or helping you develop yours. it is something they are honored to do.
i feel you will be learning more and more about your gift, it seems to come in spurts, if you will. sometimes you seem to be so open, and more, and more thoughts, and ways come to you. then you have periods of inactivity. where you don't feel so on tract. and it's harder for you to feel what usually comes so naturally, this is the time when you should be focusing on all the things you felt during your growth spurts, and apply it to practical use. this is one thing it took me forever to figure out. it will make your down time much quicker also. now everyone is different all i can do is tell you what worked for me, and how i felt reading your post.
i think you can find a lot of info. on line and can learn a lot on your own. but do not pay anything to anyone. you can ask many questions here, and ppl will honestly give you there opinion, or tell you how they do something. in return you can answer other's posts with your feelings, and  your experiences. you are being taught in this manner, and your developing your gift also. remember when it comes from the heart it can't be bad. and all of it is free.

always trust your feelings and go with what you believe, don't ever question your first thoughts, that's where trouble comes in.
all the stuff we talk about here is of spirituality and self searching. it all comes from the soul, not the mind. the mind is logical. so when you question what your feeling the mind changes it. and it is no longer your intuition guiding you. that was another thing that took me a while to figure out. like i always say "I'm not the brightest crayon in the box". you have much more grace in dealing with ppl, then i do. maybe through your posts i will learn a little more. i feel you have much to offer to other's and you will find a lot of happiness and gratification in it. you sometimes feel like your not on the right path, but you are. and deep down inside you know you are.  most ppl use there mind for everything, like making decisions and dealing with life. they are shut off to what their feeling. that's a mistake. you always here ppl saying  "i had a bad feeling, " but did it anyway, and it turned out wrong or bad. that feeling is a gift. you should read this book "called the gift of fear".
i know I'm going on and on, so I'll get down to it. stop searching for someone to teach you. the teacher will appear when the student is ready. keep looking for new information thou. and be open to what other's say, even when you think there wrong you can learn how to not do something or that there an idiot, sorry i told you I'm tactless. there are thousands of sites, with thousands of ideas and knowledge, if you feel it applies to u, or you get a idea from it, you are learning and developing your gift. and it's free. give yourself a little credit, and you'll be OK. be like a sponge and soak up the good information around you. and i know you call tell when someone is full of shit or not. your not a gullible person. you just let ppl get away with things because you don't want to hurt anyone. that's one of the hardest things to learn. if you let them get away with something or you don't call it as you "feel" it. then you don't do anyone any good. people need to know the truth, and it's your gift to be able to tell them it. what they choose to do with it is on them. but your part is done. i have  had many ppl disagree with what I'm telling them because it's not what they want to hear. and that's OK. there just not ready to face the truth. but i don't have to feel bad, or that i didn't help them because it came from inside and i didn't charge them a cent.

peace,
blackcat