I'd like to have a reading done to see where i am at in todays life. Thank You.

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A general reading of my life today will be ok, DOB 04-02-1962  Thank You.

Samson,

you have been down for a long time now. you fear that you will never find anyone, and if you do, you will never be able to trust them. your very lonely. you keep ppl away with your negativity. this is how i see it. you feel like your sitting in a pile of shit up to your neck. it's yucky and smelly, but it's warm and your used to it. no one is asking you to just get up and get out of it. it's a process, little by little you need to start taking steps to dig your way out. every time you do something positive for you, you have taken some away. as i see it now it can go either way for you. it's your choice. not everyone is going to hurt you.

i know that you feel burned. but i also know you samson. you want to grow old with someone, you want to love and be loved. you want a home and happiness. your so afraid of never finding it, that you say you don't want it anyway. a self fulfilling prophecy. keep saying you don't want it and I'm sure you can do it, and not get it. you can have what you want in life. just give yourself a break. didn't you have fun fishing or something a little while ago. if you stop focusing on how bad you feel and do some contrary actions. especially when you don't feel like it. things will change. i tell you all this, but i don't think you are ready to hear me. maybe you have to get more sad and blue before you change things. it's all up to you. and i know better than anyone. change is hard, even when it's for the better. when i have things to change in my life. i usually get paralyzed for awhile, the shit has to hit the fan before i take any action.

i do see you coming into your own soon. well a few years from now your life is going to be so different. you will meet someone, who you will love and trust in spite of yourself telling you you won't. i see you laughing and happy in the sun. you will make peace with yourself and start to feel comfortable in your own skin. you can have it sooner, but I'm sorry to say i don't think you will let yourself. we all have hard times. we all have to it's part of life. but your attitude is the one thing that you have all the power over. when things are really bad for me i usually will make others laugh. i have that dry sense of humor that i make fun of the very thing that's making it hard.   it makes it easier to see that it's not that bad. i wish i could just give this to you. hand you the things you need to have a great life and be happy. but we all have to find them on our own. and i know you will. when your ready if you decide you are ready now, let me know.  you have to be willing to  stop asking the same questions over and over again. ppl are giving you answers, you hear them and then forget them. you have to take the action, and that's the hard part my friend all these pessimistic thoughts have to start turning a little "K". I'm always here for u. believe that brother.

blackcat

You had come to terms with your being alone and a little lonley until all heck broke loose.  You turned 40!  That is the decade when we make fresh starts in life....when we realize we have not yet made the mark we would like to make and need to re-evaluate and re-examine the life we live.  You found it wanting!

The one area you focused on was a personal relationship.  That would be the key to solve all other anxieties, so you thought.  You had already come to terms in the sense that it wasn't going to happen, so we resolve to make sure it doesn't.  How do we do this?  We live our lives so that a relationship does not fit in.  You become self-sufficient in all areas of your life.  There is no room for anyone else in this structure.  You have firmed up your needs and wants and left no room for question.

In this re-evaluation you may want to actually open your solid patterns and allow!  Allow means to open to some emotions you thought of as long dead or gone.  You may need to learn to be vulnerable to being hurt.  And it just may happen!  But to live the unexamined life is to not live at all.  And we can gain the joy with the sorrow...if we seek the right heights.

God bless, J