Hello all....

It feels good to be back here...after a long while... guess i needed to be in a comfortable zone after a heart break of sorts...

I am 31 years old and met this amazing person online...one thing lead to another and we turned into great pals/buds... eventually decided to meet but that time never arrived... to cut a long story real short, I finally get this email from this person saying how emotional I can be and wishing me good luck for my future etc etc... strange are the ways of this world... you try to meet some after getting close online and everything just fizzles out...


Can someone plz give me a reading of sorts if I will ever meet this person for real to explore the possibilities of a future holding each others hands and walking towards the sunset....

I apologize if this is probably not the right forum to post on...but its just that I know someone out there will try and help me...in some form... I am not really looking for kind words of sympathy cause I know no amount of pacifying is going to help heal until I dont want it to heal...Just cant let go of it at the moment...want to try all possible resources that I have before giving in....

Rgds
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P.s. If some concerned soul out there would like to help...just PM me a message to get whatever details you need and you can post your response in here for all to view. I prefer to keep my personal details away from the public forum...I hope you respect that... and I thank you for reading this message and probably attempting to help me...

What is it that you are looking for may I ask?

i see this person writing and talking to you on line, but they never had any idea of it getting as far as it has. i sense that they are hiding behind the computer. much dishonesty surrounds the two of you. many untruths have been spoken.  all started out pure enough, but false impressions have turned to complete fabrications. all things going forward will be false. whatever plans, if any, will be made with no intentions of seeing  them through, on their part.
you may not be ready to give up yet, but they are not what they say they are. i don't usually sugar coat anything, so if this is hard to take I'm sorry.

you are so intense with ppl, and you give to much of yourself to quickly. i see you scaring ppl off. don't be so ready and willing to bear your heart and soul. I'm sure it will be hard for you. but you will have much better results. trust me.

i see you meeting someone closer to home. they are not on the internet, but right under your nose. you already know them, but never have given them  a second look. possible to wrapped up in other things. slow down a bit, relax and have a look around you. i do believe you will be surprised.

hope this helps.  

blackcat

Hi Blackcat...

I do appreciate a straightforward response from you...no hard feelings...

I know certainly for a fact that I do not easily open the doors to my heart/mind/soul to anyone and everyone online...but i guess there was some chemistry out here.. we have seen each other on cam..chatted a number of times and I gradually and slowly started realising the importance of this person...and thats the time I started opening up. In the initial stages this person always thought that I had a major attitude issue etc cause i was quite cold and did not open up easily...but when i started opening up later, this person realised how sensitive and emotional I am as a human being... You are right when u say I am not ready to give up yet...I want to give it another shot if opportunity arises...but unfortunately in this world of technology...without a phone number and no response to ones e-mails there is nothing much one can do, except may be keep trying and wait for the day when your mind tires out of it and you are ready to move on.

I have just shifted to a new place about a few weeks back and dont really know anyone around me...but who knows with time...I might just bump into someone and before I realise cupid strike.... Coincidentally just at work today was speaking to a colleague about how I 'dont' believe in cupid striking ... But again one never knows...the Lord has his mysterious ways for all.

Interestingly, me being a Capricorn by the sun-sign have an apt forecast for tomorrow :

"As the saying goes, when one window closes, another one opens. In other words, just because something is ending right now doesn't mean that something new isn't just getting started. It might be right around the corner -- or it might be quite a spell down the road. Regardless, something is coming in your future that will make you glad you took the journey to get there. Hope is the word to hold on to today -- hope for what you can't anticipate and can't control."

I just hope things work out soon as I seem to be giving up on a dream of being with someone special... Guess its the good old story of being lonely but not alone....

Cheers!

There is nothing wrong of being alone, I've been alone for 12 years and I'm still surviving this loneliness.