More like a little of both. Yes I did meet one of them back in December and the reaction he had to me was breathtaking and had me on cloud nine for hours. Most of the people I know off line are my parents or older with married children. So that is deadendsville there for me. When I was a child I was always considered ugly by my peers. As an adult, I feel like I am a female verson of the Warner Brothers skunk. I had to drop out of college because I was accused of stalking two white male staff members.

Andrea, here is some tough love coming at ya, but here it goes. I got two words for you:

GROW UP!

You are 35 years old! Yet you live your life like you are some teenage girl, waiting for some pin up boy to shower attention on you. You live your whole life as if you are a victim of it. Oh, you "can't" meet anyone in the real world, because all you know are your family members or married people. You "had to" drop out of college because of some wierd stalking incident you were involved in. You can't have any purpose in your life unless some strange wacko on the Internet showers you with a bone of attention.

What do YOU have to offer to the world? What are YOU doing to make the world a better place? What is your GREATER PURPOSE in life?

My non-psychic advice is to get off your butt and go CONTRIBUTE something in the world. Stop expecting the world to hand things to you on a silver platter. Stop looking for love and validation from others. Stop trying to get attention from other people by trying to make us feel sorry for you.

You are a black hole right now. All you want to do is take love from others. You have nothing to give, because you see yourself as this victim. You've got "poor me" syndrome. Well, the only way you are going to feel better about yourself is to *stop playing the victim*!! I don't care how ugly you were as a child - we were all ugly children with rotten dysfunctional families. Get over it! Get over yourself!

Go volunteer at the hospital where some children are sick and dying. Get some freakin' perspective.

There is so much more to the world than the limited navel-gazing you've been obviously wasting your life on.

If there's one thing I agree with you, however, it was getting rid of the shrink. Obviously it wasn't doing much for you. Go spend that money on a class or hobby that you find interesting, meet some real people, and get on with your life.

If you want more love in your life, GIVE it.

wow! thats one hell of of tough view point. *gulp*

but true. Andrea, you need to get out more. meet people, start a hobby, look for another job, stand up for yourself.

I dont think any one else could have said it better than you Stephanie.

Abhishek

I would go out and do more but my parents wont let me. I am a taurus living with two leos. Like I stated earlier I am scared to death to stand up to them because in the past they have threatend to take stuff away from me like food. I live with the following things here:learning and developmentally disabled, flat feet that blister easily, hypothyroidism, mytro vavle prolapse, myo fascular pain syndrome, depression, social anxiety, unspecified personality disorder, aspenger's syndrome, tmj, stimulus condition, sleep apnea and a lazy eye. I have been told that I dont have the social skills to hold down a job so another job of any sort is out of the question. Life has never ever been easy for me. I spent 9 months in an insitution at age 15. I dropped out of college because when it happend stalking had just became a felony in the state I lived in and did so so that charges wouldnt be filed against me. Part of the poor me stuff comes from the fact I was and always have been taken for face value. Very very few people would even make an effort to really get to know me. Also here in the South we live by the bible and in the bible it says honor you mother and father. So as a Southerner I am duty bound to honor them.

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