Hello,

I would be grateful for any insight into my current problem.
I'm new here so if I'm not in the right forum i apologize. Ill try to make it short. I've been married for almost a year, i knew my husband for about three years before we were married and then moved in together. We met because we were both in recovery. I always thought he was such a strong person. I think that he is currently started using drugs again. He has a criminal background, and I also think he is doing some illegal activity. I don't know why I'm questioning what i feel inside to be true. I always trust my intuition. I have been clean and sober for over four years and I will not go back to the life that i had while doing drugs. In the the end of my addiction i lived under a bridge with my cat, I was utterly hopeless, and void inside. I'm starting to resent him because i have caught him in lies, but have not told him. I have asked him if he's using and he says no. I usually will take people at there word because the most ethical person i have ever meet said i should. Sometimes i think he's cheating on me, and i wonder why I'm feeling this way, because i don't think he's doing that. I know everything between him and i has changed all of the sudden. why am i questing this so much. I know what people like him and i become when we start doing drugs again.

Take it slowly. Don't rush to make any judgment. In stead of acing on hunches, why not try to find out the truth the best you can.

Hello all,

This is blackcat here, responding to my post. I was just responding to someone else telling her that she had  the answer she needed, it just wasn't the answer she wanted. HellOOOOOOOOO, am I listening? usually not.
When I tell people to listen to there intuition it will not lie to them, I know that's the absolute truth or i wouldn't say it. Wonder why it's so hard to do it myself? Sometimes i can be a bit dense. So just wanted to let everyone know i know what the answers are, and as soon as I'm ready to face this i will.

Today is a good day to have gratitude for the life and gifts that I've been given. I'm so blessed and i tend to forget that. i say this because a lot of times it brings me out of self. I tend to get lost in my mind (scary place to be). I am not trying to sound all cream puffy, I'm not real found of people like that. But i hope everyone can see the beauty in the things and the people in your life.

okay, enough of that i have to go back to the hard as nails cat i am.


with Much respect,
blackcat  

The heart seems to be the seat of the intuition...it neither sees nor hears...it justs knows!  

There is a need to examine your existence on all levels.  The physical practices can bring something into your home that be dangerous to your wellbeing.  Be prepared to move quickly!

Right when we think why is it so hard for us to see for ourselves than it is for others.  Blackcat when reading your post, I recieved the most powerful sense in the first part of your posting.  Before reading your 2nd post, my feelings were that your intuition was telling you what you already knew.  It's hard for us to see for our own because we tend to block the senses somewhat when we are emotionally attached to the situation.  Funny thing is that we put up our own wall blocks and it temporarily blinds us to our own answers, it's only until we separate from them that we will begin to see for ourselves.  

I know it's hard to face certain realities because I once was involved with someone taking drugs and being with that person a time and feelings of love for that person, it's hard to adjust to the full reality of it all.  I won't do a reading for you for you already know your answers, but just a word of encouragement for you.  Regardless of your past, your past should only be there to learn from and that's it.  We all make mistakes and we have to forgive ourselves for our mistakes.  Time is done and past, even though we would like to change what's happen, we never can get those days back.  What the important thing is to move forward with the knowledge of the past and help others in similiar situations to get past theirs.  What you went through in the past, you were meant to help others see the light and by the looks of it reading other posts you've made, you are doing just that.  Everyone is a product of God.  Trust in  him and he will never forsake you.  Many of times I have been in position of troubles and the moment I leave it up into his hands, solely hand it over into his hands, he hs never forsaken me.  He always seem to be there to help me get through what I needed to get through.  The Lord works in mysterious ways.  

You deserve much better than to have someone who would lie and all the other things, the love you have for him shows through, but is it returned?  You deserve someone who will take your hand and love you like you should be loved!  

Mysticangel